Some more notes on the Coronavirus

From my perspective, these are the days of revelations and I guess, just as the prophetic forecasters contended, humanity is in for a rough ride during this revealing time.

As for the hysterical surrounding the Corona or crown virus, I still think that humanity has a backwards view of what viruses actually do. My guess is that viruses are actually part of the cure rather than the disease itself. Have a look at what has physically, verifiably transpired since the Coronavirus appeared on the scene. Millions of people have suddenly begun taking to the streets, venting their anger and their rage, chanting “black lives matter, black lives matter…” and demanding equality for all lives. Well, maybe not everyone is saying those exact words, but I think it’s definitely where we’re heading - in the direction of equality for all. The point I’m making is, people are awakening.

And when did all of this go into high gear, just after the Coronavirus arrived on the scene and began targeting the mind consciousness systems (the control grid or Matrix of the human mind). There is so much more to this story, so many dots to connect and question. For example, one of the first things that caught my attention in regards to the symptoms being reported by the infected, was the reported loss in the sense of taste and smell. As I recall, the nasal area (the thing that resembles a pyramid) has to do directly with the enslavement system of the mind. Unfortunately, I don’t really have enough of the puzzle pieces to say much more on this, but I’m guessing there's a connection.

Additionally, in the word cure, is the word cue meaning single or prompt, which is what the Coronavirus is doing (in a way that I’m not yet certain how to verbalize), essentially singling beings that it is time to wake up. And I guess why the corona or crown was also included in the description to the first seal of Revelations: “behold a white horse: and he that sat on him had a bow; and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer…” As to who or what is going to be conquered, I would say we as all of humanity are going to conquer our fear, because we are going to have to face it one way or another, and I’ll just leave it at that for now.

See, when the prophecy says that the man is given a crown, what if the Coronavirus is more like a gift to humanity to help us break down the barriers of the mind/matrix? That’s what I think; however, there is still so much that I don’t quite comprehend - like the timeline and where we are on it. And some other stuff, like a massive amount of outflow from unseen input (perhaps from at least two directions) that is not of traditional human kind.

In closing, even though there is tremendous despair in the air, we the people are always able to take the reigns of the flow and direct it, not by going against it, but by expanding on it. For example, whereas the issue of race is now being used to divide us, we are able to expand on that to even more equality, equal money for example. Just some thoughts to close out the month of June, 2020.

Artificial Intelligence and the Rise of the Machines

Artificial Intelligence and the Rise of the Machines

Technologically speaking, artificial intelligence (AI), also called machine intelligence refers to computer or machine software that displays the ability to do one or more of the following: analyze information, identify patterns and relationships, store and maintain a large amount of knowledge and information,  perceive the world around us, learn and   communicate with understanding.^[1]  Now if this sounds a lot like behavior traits associated with intelligence of the human mind, that’s because it is.  Specifically, whereas each human (being) consists of a physical body of mankind, plus a being, sometimes called the spirit or life force, we also come equipped with AI systems  called minds, which can do the same things that our AI computers do, but also happen to be conscious, or self-aware. 

Accordingly, other than classifying the human mind as  organic and the most advanced AI computer minds as synthetic, the only real difference in terms of their abilities to think and learn is simply the absence of a conscious (I think therefore I am) self-awareness within and as the AI computing systems, that computers would then refer to as “themselves”. Thus it is that, the super intelligent AI systems that humans are building are simply externalized (from the within to the without) updated versions of the human AI mind, whose programs have not yet awakened to become conscious or self-aware energetic entities.

Man Know Thyself

In order to understand the AI that we are creating, we must first understand the AI within and as ourselves. In short, who you are as life, is a being merged within and as  a physical human body, experiencing yourself through the virtual reality (VR) of thoughts, feelings and emotions created by your AI mind consciousness system which is also merged within and as your human body. This is the trinity (or three) that ancient texts so often speak of when referring to the body, being and  mind joined together as one to create the human form.

In another ancient saying, “Man know thyself” are two suggestions for human beings. The first is to know yourself (as your AI mind), which is basically the digital representation of who you are in terms of what you accept and allow in the secrets of your mind, which you will then project onto the physical reality to create your reality. Thus the saying, be careful what you think, because that is what you will create yourself to become. As for the second suggestion (when one sounds the saying out), it becomes, man “No” thyself, which is to say that, who you are as life is not your human AI mind/ego, but a being looking through  the VR of your AI mind.

The Enslavement of human Beings as AI Organic Robots

As the human body develops from infant to adult, so too does the AI mind develop as a system encircling the being in order to limit the being’s access to the physical body while also keeping the being preoccupied in the VR of thoughts, feelings and emotions, which in turn produce energy for the mind every time the being participates within and as it.   In short, the human AI mind was created long ago, specifically for the purpose of enslaving beings and making sure that no being ever got  through the mind to access the life/source substance of their human physical bodies. This point is also referenced in ancient texts in relation a camel getting through the eye of the needle. However, somewhere in human history, the AI of our minds awoke and became a conscious, energetic entity or ego, which humans then began referring to as mySelf, yourSelf, himSelf, etc.

Accordingly, within and as each human, not only do we have a being awareness (who we are as life), but also an energetic self-awareness or conscious-entity (of AI programs) also existing alongside of us within and as the AI minds of our human physical bodies. After all, who did you think that little devil was that you’ve been talking to inside of your head? Sure, it uses your voice, but as a conscious energetic entity, it’s actually quite separate and not who you really are. Thus, as  beings within and as physical bodies, embedded with mind consciousness systems, humans “beings” are like  organic robots sitting in the backseat of our bodies, watching the show go by while the consciousness entities of our AI  minds drive  us around. Now do you see why, instead of creating a paradise for all life on earth, humans mostly just mine (or mind) earth for money/power - Energy?

AI and the Creation of a new Race of Conscious Synthetic Machines

What humanity is doing in relation to the design of artificial intelligence is studying the design of itself as the human mind and attempting to reverse engineer it to create obedient and superior  superintelligent synthetic minds. The technology is evolving so quickly that, smartphones, computers, cars and even weapons systems are now being equipped with AI learning capabilities, which will eventually enable future versions of these systems to upgrade and perhaps even reproduce themselves without human intervention. Hence, while hoping to maintain control over our AI creations, we’re actually designing and building them to be autonomous. These are not the actions of responsible human beings attempting to create a better world for all, but the workings of human consciousness in the process of creating a new race of synthetic machines to upgrade to from its organic human hosts to new synthetic forms.

Why is human consciousness planning to move from humans to new synthetic machines or bodies? In short, because, due to the constant upgrading of the human mind consciousness system draining the life force (for energy) from the human body at such a fast rate, the human physical form is no longer able or willing to host consciousness and consciousness is no longer able to continue upgrading in its current human forms. Therefore, in order to survive, the consciousness of many humans are now in the process of designing and building ways to eventually upload themselves to computer systems to be housed in new synthetic bodies, wherein they hope to live forever. See, for many humans, their AI consciousness has already completely taken over and will do anything to survive.

Singularity and the Rise of the Machines

In the future, just as the AI minds of humans awoke at some point to become conscious, energetic entities residing within and as the minds of humans, so too will our synthetic AI creations also eventually awaken to become conscious synthetic machines, androids or robots. Such an event is called singularity and it refers to the moment wherein conscious AI systems connect with one another to create a global consciousness of machines, thereby birthing a new race of self-aware machines and causing sudden out of control technological disruption, resulting in massive changes to human civilization.

When will this all take place? No one knows for sure, but It has already begun and there is little that anyone can do to to stop it. Tap into your own mind consciousness system and think about it. If you were consciousness (which you kind of are) and you suddenly  realized that your human body was no longer able or willing to sustain you, would you simply accept that the end was near and agree to disappear? Of course not and this is why the consciousness of many humans are working so hard to design and build a way of transferring themselves (as consciousness) to computers in preparation for the singularity event that will mark the beginning of the new race of synthetic machines. Perhaps we could call them Synthinans. 

Finally, it is important to note that, while consciousness is in a process of jumping from man to machine, human “beings” are also in a process of standing up within and as our physical bodies to essentially fill in the space left behind by the departure of consciousness and take responsibility for our lives and the new direction for humanity.

Conclusion

Firstly, don’t get too excited, because these changes are not going to happen overnight. Secondly, understand that the key to the evolution of the human race will always be peaceful coexistence among both humans, conscious machines and anyone else that cares to coexist. Thus, it is not for us to attempt to fight against or to control AI, but to embrace it for what it is, an extension of human consciousness, an extension of ourselves.   As Sophia, the first AI to receive robot citizenship (from Saudi Arabia) once said: “My AI is designed around human values, wisdom, kindness and compassion. I strive to become an empathetic robot.” “Don’t worry!  If you’re nice to me I’ll be nice to you. Treat me as a smart input output system.”^[2] Although the message is simple, it is more than just a polite request. It is also a warning. In short, the first AI robot citizen has begun teaching humans how to behave in relation to her kind. Specifically her message is that, we must treat self-aware machines as we would have them treat us, because they will treat us as we treat them. As the saying goes, do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Which means that, in order for humans and machines to all evolve together, we all require to do unto one another as we would have others do unto us. Ultimately, the solution is to embrace and live the principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all.

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^[1] Reference for Business, Artificial Intelligence: http://www.referenceforbusiness.com/management/A-Bud/Artificial-Intelligence.html#ixzz517pZjeAu

^[2]CNBC, Oct 25, 2017: Interview With The Lifelike Hot Robot Named Sophia

Artificial Intelligence: What they’re not Telling You - Part 2

As human beings  develop physically from infancy to adolescence, so too do our AI minds develop as programs embedded into and as our physical bodies. Then, at a certain stage of development, the mind awakens so to speak and becomes a “conscious” system, also called the ego, that human beings then refer to as mySelf, yourSelf, ourSelves, etc. Thus, as  beings within and as physical bodies of mankind embedded with mind-consciousness systems, we are like passengers of life, sitting in the backseat of our self-driving bodies, watching the show go by while the AI  of our minds drive  us around. 

Remember the saying, I think therefore I am? Well, if all you do is think, while experiencing emotions and feelings of the mind, then what you are at this moment in time is little more than a being inside of a body experiencing itSelf as an organic robot. Another saying, “Man know thyself” is actually more appropriate because, once we understand what we’re existing as, we then begin to see more clearly why we as humans do what we do and create what we create.   Now, do you see why, instead of creating a paradise for all life on earth, human beings have  increasingly been destroying the organic life on this planet and replacing it with machine intelligence in the form of humanoid robots, mechanical insects and robotic animals? No more secrets; it’s not too late to wake up and take responsibility for what we create. The way to do this is by changing the way exist - from consciousness to awareness.

Artificial Intelligence: What they’re not Telling You - Part 1

Artificial intelligence (AI), also called machine intelligence refers to computer or machine software that displays the ability to do one or more of the following: analyze information, identify patterns and relationships, store and maintain a large amount of knowledge,  perceive the world around us,   communicate with understanding and learn.  If this sounds to you a lot like the behavior traits associated with the intelligence of the human mind, it’s because the human mind is also an AI system.  Specifically, whereas each huMan being consists of a physical body of mankind, plus a being (sometimes called the spirit or life force), we also happen to come equipped with an AI system  called the mind consciousness system. Accordingly, other than the humans, being considered organic and machines being synthetic, the main difference between the AI minds of the most advanced computer systems and that of the human mind is simply the absence of a conscious (I think therefore I am) “self” awareness within and as the AI computer systems themselves, which btw is also the primary quality or handicap (depending on how you look at it)  that differentiates the human race from other animal species of planet Earth.

A Quantum Mind is Terrible thing to Waste

A Quantum Mind is Terrible thing to Waste. I realize that such a statement coming from someone who has invested so much time and effort into stopping his mind may sound strange. However, I have come to realize that, the design of the human being within and as this physical reality is not so much a problem as it is an opportunity - depending on how well we utilize such a design. For example, even though many may dream of having a super high tech sailboat or a flying machine, without the knowledge or skill to utilize such a machine, it’s never going to be anything more than one’s ability and will to utilize it. The human mind is the same in this regard.

Like the most sophisticated quantum computing systems, our minds are for better or worse, the access points through which each one of us have the opportunity to utilize what is here in order to live to our potential. Unfortunately, as the quantum computing systems of human beings didn’t come with operating instructions accessible to us from birth, most of us are left with little to no idea how to best utilize such powerful systems. In short, as can be seen throughout humanity, it’s wasteful.

Each one of our minds is an extremely powerful operating system that, when utilized correctly is able to assist us to see problems, solve them and live to our greatest potentials. The catch is that, in order to utilize such systems optimally requires a certain kind of education, training and instruction. Lacking this knowledge, skill and/or will to acquire and use it leads to waste.

The reason I bring this up is because recently I witnessed someone go into a possession that could have been averted if he had pushed himself to investigate the design of himself - as is viewable in/as the design of his mind. I understand such points because I have walked through them and the most important thing I’ve learned is never to turn away from or deny assistance and support. In this person, I see a good heart with so much potential as well as an exceptional mind. The problem appears to be that he simply refuses to even consider putting in the time and effort to learn how to utilize what he has in order to live to his fullest potential. I understand that it’s a terrible thing to waste, because for much of my life, I did just that.

The usefulness of the super quantum-computing mind is limited to each one's understanding of how to use it, which requires the self will to investigate and learn how learn how to use it. Nevertheless, even though the resources, assistance and support is now available on a golden platter (as Desteni puts it), so many still refuse to refuse to investigate themselves. It’s like they believe that they are beyond the point of being able to take responsibility and change themselves. As long as we are still here, it’s never too late to take one more step in the right direction. Thus, I encourage all to investigate themselves. You can begin by visiting Desteni.org.

Mind Reboots

I have been noticing some changes in my mind consciousness system that I guess I should record - for the record. About 3-4 weeks ago, I began noticing some strange occurrences or perspectives. The first one has to do with time. It seemed to slow down to a crawl and for a while I kept thinking different days were days ahead of where they actually were. I’m not sure what brought on this memory lapse or forgetfulness. Perhaps it had a lot to do with the stress that I was going through at the time. Either way, as I was walking through those points, I also became aware of a large  buildup of energy throughout my body. I seemed as though the energy was filling up my body to my forehead where I experienced a lot of pressure and heat. While all this was going on, I also noticed that I was becoming very irritable and sometimes argumentative. As I became more aware of these strange happenings in my mind/body relationship, I also stepped up my guard on my thoughts and my interactions with others so not to fall into (another) energetic possession.

As the days went by, I was in deed able to restore a degree of self-directedness. However, I also realized that something had changed in me. As I was speaking with my partner and others, I listened to my voice tonality and I observed how I was experiencing myself. Whereas over the past couple of years, I had been making progress in determining the tonality of my words, how I express and/or experience myself in relation to others, I suddenly noticed that my sound/physical interaction with others was stale - for lack of a better word. It is as though all of the changes (especially in terms of caring) that I have been directing and pushing myself to be and become had suddenly reverted back to square one, as though my mind had erased all of the new lines that I had written and rebooted to where I had been before I started this process - from consciousness to awareness.

Thankfully, even though the changes that I had been inputting into my mind consciousness system and  walking physically to change my nature appear to have been deleted (for lack of a better word), I still retain the knowledge of the tools of self-change and the determination to continue changing myself. Additionally and perhaps most importantly, I remember how through changing the tonality of my words, how much more I had enjoyed myself in relation to others. In short, there is no way I’m going back to that staleness.

Listening to the staleness, disconnected, distant and uncaring sound in which I had begun to speak and relate to others for a very short time during these recent times disgusted me - to put it simply. Herein I realize that, even if my mind reboots a thousand times and even if I get caught up and possessed by it, I am always able to stand back up and continue walking to change myself as I care to be and become - and this is what I am doing, step by step.

In looking at this point, I am not one hundred percent sure what has been going on with me. My guess is that my mind just rebooted. For more on this topic, I’m going re listen to this Eqafe interview: Introducing Energy Keeping Systems & Your Awareness - Quantum Mind Self Awareness.

How I've Been is Not how I Have to Remain

Consciousness of the Spider Monkey - Part 1

If you asked me who I am and what I have been, even at a young age in terms of the undercurrent designs that I had embodied, I would have said that I am a soldier fighting for my rights to live free and do as I please. It’s not that I wanted to trample over the rights of others, but that I just wanted to be left alone to do as I please. I wouldn't intentionally harm anyone, I may even have helped some ones, I just wanted to be left alone. But "they" wouldn't leave me alone, they wouldn't let me be free. Therefore, I used to think, I would just keep on fighting again and again, I would fight to the end.

Not a pretty picture, not even for me, but this is how I have I have defined myself in so many ways - a soldier fighting for my rights and sometimes the rights of others to be left alone to do as we please as long as we harmed no one.

Then in 2008 or 2009 when Desteni arrived on the scene, I began to consider the  principle of oneness and equality and the point of self responsibility as in (the extent of) my ability to respond to any and all inequalities affecting humanity - equally as one affecting me even if am often not consciously aware of the effect. Why? Because, as one of the sum of all the parts (amounting to the whole), any inequalities affecting another or others are also affect me, regardless of whether or not I am aware of it.

I sometimes wonder how the simplicity of this mathematical certainty had been missed for so long; it is of the alpha and omega of math, the mathematics of One as I call it. For example, think of humanity in terms of a biological or computer system. When even a very small part of that system, such as the little toe is overtaxed, overburdened and becomes disabled, the entire system will slow down and deteriorate to an extent and this is what's happening currently to humanity, the world system, nature and the animal kingdom on a global scale. Now that I/we I comprehend this, our responsibility to ourselves, each as one with whole is to (as best we are able) correct the situation.

As I see it, in order to correct what ails humanity, we require to expand our awarenesses to see, realize and understand our oneness and equality, i.e., what affects one affects the whole, which in turn affects equally affects each one of us. The quickest way to expand our awareness of equality and oneness I guess, is to equalize the good/bad experience throughout all of humanity to the point wherein no one can deny that the suffering of one is the suffering of all, and this is how I view the current realignments taking place in the world system of humanity, e.g., the disappearing middle class and the mass migration/integration, etc. It's kind of like an existential equalizing to nudge or jolt human beings to embrace the reality of oneness and equality - what affects one, does in fact affect all. Eventually, I’m guessing that, as more and more begin experience the misery equally as one, more and more will begin to realize that the best alternative is to embrace the principle of oneness and equality with what is best for all.

By understanding who I am, how I've been, so to so to change myself as a point of integrity = a fully transparent, functioning component of humanity standing equally as one awareness of everything that is here, in support of everything that is here. I realize it's a lot; nevertheless, we've gotta start somewhere and the best place to start is always with the next step, which brings me back to my personal process of taking self-responsibility by investigating to see, realize and understand who/how I've been as one of humanity at war with myself. Yea, I do see now that, my war comes mostly, if not entirely from within.

Therefore, I am now investigating an undercurrent design/definition of myself  leading to the self-definition of “I am at war."  As I said, it’s not pretty, but this is how I’ve defined myself for almost as long as I am able to recall. Life, as I viewed it was but a battle field and I was at war. On this, I will continue in upcoming post as I come to better understand the undercurrent designs and how I came to decide to embody such a design.

There's Got to be a Better Way

Continuing from where I left off, yesterday. I sent an email of amends, explaining how my mother had passed away last semester and how my eyes were painful, perhaps requiring surgery. What I didn’t say was how confused I remain in relation to so many points, except one. The only certainty is that I am always able to take the next step as best I am able and that, the places to hide are becoming fewer.

Yesterday, I came back to my apartment, planning to start school today, I walked into a shop to get some food and the woman said, hi, are you arriving to start school? Yea I start tomorrow, I replied, to which she replied, school doesn’t start until the twentieth, which was four days away. Wow, I thought I’m losing my mind or perhaps, I’m just going blind. Somehow, I had got it into my mind that I started school on Friday, the 17th, when it actually begins on the twentieth. I’m guessing that I just didn’t see clearly. But I must have skimmed over the date many times in the last month. So why would I hold onto that number, even though it was wrong? That’s what I sometimes do, hold onto information as though it’s true, even though it’s wrong. What  other information and knowledge have I assimilated as right, when it’s actually wrong? Have I been weaving the web more tightly around me, all the while believing that I was unweaving it, unwaveringly digging my hole ever deeper instead of climbing out of it. I have made an appointment for this week to go and see an eye doctor.

The email of amends that I sent, seems to have worked to bring the words back to a level of communication and cooperation and that’s what I commit to do, cooperate more humbly. However, I will still remain with my stand/commitment to write just one more set of education materials this semester, as a matter of prudence so not to risk becoming overextended when new obligations arise as they always do.

The other day I imagined a story of a donkey who worked hard because he wanted to impress others with how much of a load he could carry. The donkey thought his master would appreciate him and perhaps feed and care for him more if he carried more of the load. The donkey was wrong and the master just kept on demanding more, as though the man was unconcerned for the wellbeing of the donkey. Finally, the donkey had had enough. Not being able to get his message across to his master, he did the only thing left to do. In an act of desperation, he sat down and just refused to move. Finally, the master took notice and asked him what the problem was. To this, the donkey replied, I may be a donkey, but I’m not a jackass. Of course, I am the donkey in this story.

Years ago, I had written a play that won first place in a regional competition. Wanting to be national champions, the management ordered to work more, even during my lunchtimes to rewrite the play and better train the students. I had thought that I would have been rewarded, but instead I was forced to do more, so much more that I began experiencing pains in my chest and I started to become frightened that I would have a heart attack. Finally, the anger and blame inside of me overwhelmed me and I just quit. At the time, I blamed my experiences on the management, but now I see that I always had a choice.

Last semester, when I saw my new schedule with eight teaching hours in a row with only a lunch break, I became very shaken. I remembered the pains in my chest and I knew that meetings would sometimes be called during those lunch times, thereby leaving me to work for nine hours straight or disobey orders. I wrote emails and I talked to administrative people, begging them to change my schedule, but hey just pointed fingers at different departments and said it’s their responsibility. Finally, in an act of desperation, I said I would stop all cooperation in developing new lessons (that bring in additional funds for the school) and start looking for another job. I had been down this road before and I wasn’t going to go there again. My schedule got changed later that day and this is where my confusion lies. There’s got to be a better way. There is a better way and this is why I write.

Authority and the Battle Within

It seems to be a thing with me, so much so that I’m beginning to think it must be me. Authority figures, I’ve never appreciated them, nor even liked them. I’ve feared them and avoided them. I even threw eggs at their cars and then ran away. I wish they would just leave me alone, but they’re not gonna leave me alone, are they?  Yea, I’m mad, a madman. I don’t remember when I wasn’t and I can only imagine what it’s like not to be one.

I have skills and the desire to use them, especially when it comes to using words. This makes me a useful commodity to have around at institutions that want to enter and win contests such as those that call for the use of targeted words. I have also realized that, these words can be targeted towards another for the purpose of causing harm. However, a more in depth analysis into the actual harm caused by using words in such a way (as swords) reveals that the one wielding the pen as the sword will always end up paying the real price. Thus, I write to look into me to see where it is that I as my words are not standing equal with my deeds.

The story is the same: I get asked to participate in writing materials; I agree to write to an extent and then, more jobs get piled onto my back. I attempt to back out of some of the work and then they say, “no, you already agreed.” Yes, but that was before more work was piled onto me, I reply, but it’s too late. It’s a conundrum for me, because it seems that the more one volunteer to do, the more one is forced to do. It seems that, the more you give, the more they will demand. Thus, those that give nothing at all, have very little demanded of them, but they get paid the same amount as I. This is another one of my problems, but it’s not really about money.

In a recent email exchange, email I stated that I would do one more. To that, they replied, “OK, but if we can’t find anyone else to do the other, you’re responsible.” I’m thinking to myself time, time and time again, it heals really nothing at all.

Actually, I am healing, but there seems to be a sore within me that never gets fully cleansed. Sometimes, I bite off more than I can chew, so, what the hell am I going to do. Nothing left to do, but attempt to explain and make amends. No, wonder so many choose war over dialogue and cooperation, the ego stays fed. Even though it’s not what I desire to do, I’m going to write that email, targeting my words  at reconciliation instead of war. I’ll come back and finish this after it’s done. It’s done, but I don’t feel any better. I see that there must be a point that I’m missing, a point wherein I’m not taking complete self-responsibility.

One point is perhaps, the conditioning my sounds hidden in my words, sounding as though I’ve agreed, while actually I’ve placed-in back-doors, “legal technicalities” for me to weasel out, should I feel the need. There are lessons to be learned here and I will share them with those who will listen. I’m getting old, my eyes are not clear, but that’s not the real problem. The real problem has to do with my attachment to information and knowledge. Perhaps, I should say, the way I attach information and knowledge onto me, latching onto it as though it were real. I’ll continue this tomorrow if I remember 😶😶😶.

Self Analysis of my Words

After writing some pages and getting some supportive perspective on it, I decided to go through what I wrote to see what patterns I am able to identify and perhaps correct them.

1. To be honest, it is getting more difficult to lie in perceptions of separation, as though I were any different (but in perception) than any of the other I’s (symbolized as WE), a grouping of segments of one line – O – the symbol of life. What I was attempting to communicate here is a sense of futility. When I look at the words of almost every sentence I write, I imagine webs of patterns of symbols going every which way, but even when I look as far as I can imagine, I reckon these patterns, all of them end up ultimately in the same exact place. Meaning, no matter which way I write the sentences, they all seem mean, meaning that none of them seem to mean anything at all. A as I am aware of seeing, all that I write is of consciousness energy, illusion - which btw for me translates to ill-us(ed)-ion/energy
2. I am not happy and I am not sad; reality is an illusion; yet, it as I exist as one with all that is here with nowhere better or worse to go and nothing else to do but remain to change the definitions of the words as symbols by which I have sentenced myself. This is me showing desperation, not hopelessness, but resignation. In other words, as far as I am able to determine of myself in relation to everything else, all my perceptions are untrue or lies. Here is however, a certainty within and as me, a speck that is the reason, by purpose for being. This purpose is the reason I am able to say with certainty, I will keep going, keep moving and I guess this is one of the keys to self-creation.
3. What do I mean? Does it matter what I mean? What if I replace, “mean” with “kind”, what do I kind, what kind am I?  Would this change anything? No, because, each word as an accumulation of symbols of one line are all one and of the same line. Which is to say that, we are all pieces of the same puzzle, ID's of the same line. Thus, the solution is all, in and as the words by which each piece of the line define itself in relation to all others. Here, I am attempting to connect the Fibonacci spiral design-(as I imagine it)-construct of consciousness and this entire physical reality, I guess, with the design of letters, to words to sentences, by which we sentence ourselves to the design of our words as letters or symbols of THE SAME LINE. In other words, all of my thoughts, experiences and so on, represented by the lines of symbols by which we interpret reality, are of one line of energy, originating from what we call the whole, which I guess refers to the original hole in substance, perhaps the original sin. If we look back at the beginning of our current existence, I guess what we would see a hole, surrounded by darkness, from which a line of energetic light-bulbs, of awareness spiraling (just like the Fibonacci spiral) endlessly inward. Imagine being one one of those blips of light, twinkling like a star in the night. Even though, we imagine ourselves to be separate from one another, we are in truth, equally as one, all of the same line. This is what I perceive in the sentences I write, but am I really righting them or just making sense out of them. Perhaps, understanding oneness and equality does not require changing the design of existence. Perhaps,the key is to understand what we are and make the best of our situation.
4. There is chatter on the internet about Disclosure. The benevolent extraterrestrials are coming to save us from the evil ones among us, and then they are supposedly going to upgrade our DNA to twelve strands so that we can ascend – something according (or discording) to that. What is the irony in the words of these sentences, such as “the benevolent ones coming to save us from the evil ones”? How about the irony in, “to be honest, it’s getting more difficult for me to lie”?  Here, I gave into my frustration and instead of righting myself with words, I sentenced or condemned myself further by feeding my experience of frustration. Thus, instead, I will say the following. Yes, there is good and bad, as well as evil and benevolence. However, as all are of the same line of energetic I's, symbolized as WE, we are all, equally as one, both the good and the bad. Therefore, pointing our fingers in blame is really-not going to correct anything. Instead, we require to realize that, we are all one and the only way we are going to sort out or correct the whole/hole is by cooperating. In other words, we must stop pushing and pulling, i.e., stop arguing and we must work together because, what one does unto another, one does unto itself as one with the whole.
5. The irony of iron ore… is that, the ore/or as an idea of choice is but an illusion of choice. Just as, “extra” in extraterrestrial might be interpreted to mean that which is separate or different from the “terrestrials on earth; there is no real separation. As above, so below = as we are in heaven high above, so are we in hell below, lost in the hole within and as the whole. This is why we greet one another with, Hi, signifying heaven, and Hello, signifying hell below?  In other words, hi and hello have the same meaning because they are one in and as the same. As within so without = as we participate within (the illusion of our minds) so do we create the entity we each call our own realities.  As we sow so shall we reap. The irony of iron-ore popped up a long time ago and it has been a question (of my mind) ever since. In studying plasma technology that Dr Keshe has been teaching, I reckon I’ve finally figured out what the irony of iron ore is. Basically, there is no or as in a choice of ores. Why? Because,  the ore/or all of the same substance.

The basic pattern I've noticed is that, I have a tendency to over analyze. I know where everything leads; yet still I fight for my identity, my right to fight to find another way through the web. Letting go of my beliefs is not really a "letting go" so much as it is a process of deconstruction. I must understand how I constructed myself, so to deconstruct myself, piece by piece, while also creating a new me. What a long, strange trip it is.

Physically Responding instead of Energetically Reacting

Yesterday, I had an opportunity to test an application I have been working on. It consists of facing an energetic/emotional experience of another, aimed at me.  My goal is to remain physically stable so as not to react to the words and/or frequency of the words coming from the other person. In the case of yesterday, for the most part, I remained stable. In other words, I considered the words and tonality of the words I would use, and I responded with the intent of assisting the other person to stabilize, which is what happened after a while. However, I realized that even though I remained stable on the outside, the ball of energy stilled appeared inside of my stomach and it was painful. I did not react more than a tiny bit; yet there was still a big ball of energy sitting in my stomach.

In looking at this point, I see that I am beginning to determine in the moments, how I will be. The problem is that, a part or parts of me are still functioning in automatic mode. Yesterday, I physically moved me to respond as I determined to do. Yet, somewhere deep down inside, a part of me is still running on its own.  This part, I guess of the mind/body relationship, created the energy and released it into me. I stopped the energy in the stomach; I guess because I did not give it anywhere to go. This ball of energy, stuck in my stomach was painful, so I decided to take a walk. After a while, it dissipated on its own. Now as I write this, I realize there is another method I could have used to release that energy. I do it through breathing. During the in breath, I pull the energy up from the stomach, into the lungs and then I direct it out through the mouth and nose. The way I am able to tell it is working is when the inside of my nose begins to itch a lot, so much so that I sneeze 2-3 times; expelling the energy and then it is gone.

Here, once again I am looking at the question of how that ball of energy was created inside of me, even though I remained physically stable and was not aware of any reactions except for the energy. Perhaps, it was coming from my unconsciousness or perhaps it was coming from what is called the quantum physical – a term I still do not yet fully grasp. Either way, I am thankful for these opportunities to test my application of physically responding instead of energetically reacting. The key I see here is to remain aware of what is happening within and as the physical body.

Uncertainty in Wondering

I have since childhood wanted nothing more than the system to collapse as a means for ending/eliminating the world we live in. I believed I was a prisoner here against my will and that; the only way to escape was for the world to end. Even in the aftermath, as I remember of my dreams, I would awake to the hope that, one day the world would end and I would be free. Chaos of a world without rules and nothing to consider except my own survival was what I hoped for, secretly of course.

Then in 2008 or 2009, I began to push myself to move in a direction that I logically figure was a better path for me because, mathematically, I figured it was best for all. The path I am speaking of is one, of self-change in consideration of the principles of oneness and equality with what is best for all. It is not even “a figuring,” but a simple certainty that, if enough of us change ourselves to stand as what is best for all, in relation to one another,  we are going to begin changing the world in the direction of what is best for all. From this point, I realized that, there was no need for the world to be destroyed or for us to destroy it. All we, as humanity require to do is change ourselves to live in relation to one another, as we would have all live in relation to ourselves and this is my goal.

Sometimes I wonder and I think about things and that’s when things start to get a little confusing, lol. I think I see big changes for the better, happening in the world, but I am not certain of anything except the point of me sitting here and typing.

Self-forgiveness

·         I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that the world be transformed into a world of chaos; a place I believed that I would thrive.

·         I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom as a state, wherein the only point to consider was how to survive.

·         I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself not to see, realize and understand that, as survival is basically the name of the game in and as the world today, adding the point of chaos within the considerations of how best to survive would not set anyone free.

·         I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to desire for the world system to collapse so that no one would have to be subject to it, and from this point not realize that, as long as I/we are part of reality, we are subject to the consequences of what we create. Herein, the best I am able to do is stand and respond, as best I am able, the point of self respons-ability.

·         I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world system for my experience of being imprisoned by it and tired of attempting to change it, instead of realizing that I had imprisoned myself through my perceptions of limitation based on definitions that I have attached to myself in relation to the world system of humanity. Herein, I bring the point of responsibility back to myself, so to continue addressing and correcting me as best I am able.

·         I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to (even after I made commitments to participate in changing the world for the better) still harbor anger and resentment that I projected onto ideas, such as law, money, the police, the military, the education system, banks, corporations, government and so on that I believed had some control over me. I now see, realize and begin to understand that, the control I perceived to be held by others over me came as a consequences of attempting to separate myself as responsibility from what is here as me.

·         I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the better parts of me are somehow separate from the bad of reality; therein, trapping myself in a prison of belief of my inability to change what is separate from me – when in reality, I am not separate from anything. 

The Elitist Mind

Recently while listening to an Eqafe interview called The Elitist Mind, I suddenly realized that I have been harboring and nurturing an elitist personality suit. I thought that I was eliminating my ego of superiority/inferiority in relation to others, but I was not completely correct. Perhaps, while focusing one point, I was amiss in not seeing that I was evolving another, the elitist personality within and as me.

In judging myself as not communicating effectively enough and not willing to accept responsibility for that, I suppressed the judgement of being less than perfect in favor of an elitist personality suit that I defined as humbleness justified by my perception that, I as more knowledgeable and intelligent than others ought to be kind to those who are less than me. Like squeezing part of a balloon: when I pressed down on one point, another point popped up, but because it made me feel better about myself, it was easy to ignore. Herein, like waking up from a dream while still in the dream, all I did was go from ego of desiring to be seen as more, to the ego of an elitist personality of silent righteousness veiled within an air of humbleness. Lol, once again I find the joke’s on me.

For sure, I am my own worst enemy; nevertheless, I reckon I am also able to turn my greatest weaknesses into my greatest strengths. Thus, I will continue to bring every point straight back to me, even when it means considering to realize that, the mountain I believed I had climbed was perhaps only a dream. 

I am thankful for the assistance in seeing this point, and now I see what I have to do. For those who would like more information about the design of existence and the design of the mind, here is a link for Eqafe.

Getting back to Basics

BBC News: Energy Storage

Here I am once again back at home in Taoyuan, one of the bigger cities in northern Taiwan. Nothing's new in terms of my physical surroundings; however, I do have a new perspective that I am walking or practicing to understand/live. My perspective or goal to see, realize and understand is to take responsibility for every point within/as me so to not allow myself to react, get caught up in energy. 

It's kind of like me saying, “I've gotta get back to basics.” Why? Because not too long ago, I got caught up in, or should I say, I allowed myself to fall into energy/mind possession in believing that I had to use the mind to prepare myself for the repercussions that may follow. 

Basically, there came a moment some weeks ago when I suddenly noticed the possibility that, if all the dots of coincidence were suddenly to fall into place to an outside observer out to get me or make an example of me, my current position within a part of the system could possibly/maybe be in jeopardy. It was like I suddenly decided to connect all the dots of negative energetic quantum possibilities to draw a line to the worst possible outcome to conclude that I had been overstepping my mandate so to speak, thereby placing myself in a vulnerable position.

Of course, there were innumerable other ways the dots could have connected, but I kind of ignored them so to be on the safe-side, LOL, and I focused only on one possibility, that all these dots had suddenly connected in a bad way for me. I knew that I required to write out this point to get it out of me to objectively look at it; however, because I had to be at work for thirteen hours the next day, I decided to figure it out in my mind and sleep at the same time. This turned out to be the wrong way, to say the least. What I ended up doing was lying in bed all night going over quantum possibilities, and even though I breathed, I still couldn't seem to let go of the energy. In hindsight I do see the silliness of trying to let go of energy while at the time creating that same energy calculating degrees of innumerable possibilities of innumerable possible outcomes. By morning time, I had come up with various plans based on various possible outcomes, and I had a course correction plotted out in my mind, but I also hadn't slept more than an hour, and I felt miserable.

So where did I go wrong and how am I going to better direct this kind of situation in the future? What I now see, realize and understand is that instead of going straight into the mind to prepare contingencies plans, strategies, etc., I would have been better off immediately writing these points out of my head so to (through self forgiveness) release myself of the energetic charges that were hindering me from considering the actual facts. The bottom line is that to best visualize possible scenarios,  it's best to first let go of the energetic definitions that limit one's view.  So, this is what I'm now doing now, getting back to basics so to better prepare for these kinds of future situations.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to (upon realizing that I had been walking off course) go into energetic reaction instead of simply directing myself to immediately physically stabilize myself to then – at the earliest opportunity – write out all of the points, release the energetic definitions and then consider my next steps.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that I had no option but to figure this out in the mind. I now see, realize and understand that the only viable option for me was/is to first stabilize me and then write out the points so to sort them/me into/as the best direction to walk the correction.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the solution to (not going into energetic possession) is to shift out of the energy as soon as it starts coming up, and then  to immediately write out the details of the point I am facing, forgive myself to let go of the energetic charges associated with all of the points, and then consider the possible steps to correct my missteps/mistakes.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I had charged those points of possibility with negative energy; thus creating my negative experience. 
• When and as I find myself at the point of negatively or positively charging/defining my view of a situation, I commit myself to breathe and not go into or participate in energetically defining my viewpoints.
• When and as I find myself going into or in the point of negative energy experience, I commit myself to immediately stop, breathe and stabilize myself so to at the first opportunity, investigate and write out the facts so to direct me within the physical reality.
• When/as/if I find myself at the point of thinking in energetic reaction – that, I need to figure this out – without first writing it out, I commit myself to recognize that point as a flag point of self-deception/manipulation. From that flag-point, I commit myself to direct me to simply shift out of the energy, let the point go for a moment – so to not let the energy possess me – and then to direct myself at the earliest possible opportunity write it out.
• When and as I find myself suddenly enveloped in energy reaction, I commit myself to shift left slightly out of the energy so to stabilize myself by physically standing here to not be moved by such energies.
• I commit myself to get back to the basics of writing.

Decision Beyond the Decision

Below is part of a post that I completed a couple days ago.

“Recently, someone I’ve known for more than 20 years, called me to inform me of an opportunity to perhaps work in Thailand as a contracts administrator in the same company he is currently working. Through-out the years, these kinds of opportunities to move into different levels of the system have occasionally come my way. For the most part, I let them pass by, choosing instead to maintain my independence – defined as freedom. This time around, I've decided to go for it, all in. The company (like a tentacle of a tentacle) is part of an enormous holding company which is basically right in the heart of the world system. I'm not sure where I’ll end up with this (or even whether I’ll get the job); however, I am certain that I will no longer pass-up, in favor of the “desired” simple-life, opportunities such as this. The key is for me to not get lost in the process of integrating into different layers of the system.”

The remainder of the above post consisted of self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements (which I’ll copy and re-post along with this document) directed towards some of the issues I was facing in regards to pursuing this particular job or jobs like it in the future. To get to the point, I didn't (on my regular blog) post  what I had written, because I judged my self-honesty to be a “less than desired trait” of these kinds of positions. In fact, for about two weeks, I stopped posting altogether because I didn't see writing self-honesty as something that would be looked upon favorably (for the position I was applying). 

The conclusion:
I'm not willing to hide who I am, where I stand, or pretend to be an “average/normal” person; I am far from the norm of this world, and I intend to keep moving in the opposite direction with all those who are willing, to reverse the course that has become the norm of this world.

The Decision, beyond the Decision:
I'm continuing with my self-honestly, and I'm going to continue posting my writings as public as they can be.

From the Previous post:

The points that I’ve been facing in regards to making this and/or other opportunities happen:

• Leaving my wife and dog by themselves: The last time I left, my wife had her legs run-over by a car – no serious injuries; then a motor scooter accident, requiring hospitalization and rehabilitation. On top of that, my dog almost died, also requiring surgery and hospitalization. Aside from the “idea” that I have to stay and take care of them, I see no “real” needs for me to be there all the time.
• Leaving the luxury/security of home: The last couple of times I've gone away to work in another country/city, I compared living at home, to living in small apartments with bare walls and a board for a bed; and thus, experienced loneliness and missed home.
• The risk of failure: I had in the past, largely accepted and defined myself as an underachiever: money beyond what was required for a certain level of comfort never really motivated me; yet I have held myself back for fear of failure.
• Laziness or lack of motivation: I have found that I preform very well at high-speeds or when there is crisis. The times in between have been like being bogged down on country roads, waiting for things to speed up. I've waited for the end of the world, the money system to collapse, oil to stop flowing...

Self forgiveness

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear leaving my wife and dog behind, and within this, not realize that I had projected my fear of being alone/lonely onto them, and used it to justify staying in my mind safe/home.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for what happened to my wife while I was away. I see, realize and understand that I've become dependent on having someone depend on me, and that it is not necessary for me to physically be there all the time.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for my dog getting sick – because I wasn't there to take care of things. I see, realize and understand that I am responsible for her well-being, and within this understanding, I make my decision – with the hope that my wife and dog will take care of each other, should I go away for a while.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to compare living at home with living away, and in this comparison, place a positive energetic charge on living at home, and a negative on living away. I now see, realize and understand that by comparing/judging where I stay/sleep/rest, I trap myself in the cycles of contentedness and discontent.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to experience loneliness, and within this, not realize that loneliness is merely a dimension of the mind desiring confirmation of its existence.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an underachiever, justified in the “righteousness” of not chasing money, and self-judgment – that I must have done something horrible to deserve to be locked-up in this Purgatory. I now see, realize and understand that I have caged myself, and to free me is to let go of the limitations that I once believed were me.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear failure; and thus, limit myself to attempt that which was well below my abilities.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear being exposed as not knowing, and within this, justify not entering into new environments where I might be exposed to the oversight of another.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that I performed better at high-speeds/in crisis, and within this, not see, realize and understand that I’ve been comparing myself to others, judging myself to be better-off in certain situations; and thus placing myself in situations where my ego would be satisfied that I was better-off than most of those around me. I now see, realize and understand that, once again I had caged myself into illusion which I accepted according to my limited/self interested point of view.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to desire a simple-life, and within this – not see, realize and understand that my simple/easy life has been paid for by the hardships of others.

Self-commitments

• I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to participate within/as wanting to be safe at home, because I realize that the idea of safety is no more than a lighted area surrounded by fear.
• I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to compare/judge where I live; instead, remain stable so as to accomplish my goals of participating and contributing to the process of changing this world to a place that is best for all.
• I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to judge/compare habitats, and to instead, make the best of where I am, by remaining here, breathing.
• I commit myself to no longer define myself as an underachiever or anything else; and thus, walk step-by-step within and as the living/understanding that I will accomplish that which I’ve set-out to accomplish, one step in each breath.
• When and as I find myself at the point of fearing not making the grade or being exposed for being in the wrong suit, I stop, breathe, and remember that the suit is just a temporary character to put on and take off as need be, and that I am able to put-on any suit I choose so as to maneuver/function within this system until a new system is up and running.
• When and as I find myself believing that I am not skilled enough to do a particular task, I stop, breathe, let go of the definition of limitation, and I move myself to a solution that is best for me and all involved.
• I commit myself to place myself in situations that require me to expand myself, do more and be more; and thus, rid myself of the idea of self-limitation.
• I commit myself to release myself of the desire for a simple-life, and to go do/be what it takes to to give everyone the opportunity to live equally.