Saturday, December 16, 2017

Dream of Kittens and Seeing a Cat



This afternoon, I had a dream while taking a nap. I saw some kittens, they couldn’t have been more than two months old. I picked one up and pet it. It was orange and white. Another one who looked similar was also nearby. Then the one I was comforting jumped into one of my sneakers that was nearby. I guess it was looking for a safe place to be. While I was considering bringing one or two of the kittens home, a third one appeared and began to meow. I reached out my hand to hold it and give it comfort. It played for a bit, biting my fingers gently at first, but then it started biting harder as though it were hungry and needed something to eat. It would have torn my flesh off with those sharp little teeth if I hadn’t pulled it off of me by grabbing the skin on the back of its neck and lifting it away from my fingers. When I awoke, I was glad that I hadn’t harmed the kitten, the one that tried to eat my finger. I know, but even though it was a dream, it’s important for me not to harm little things or big things for that matter.

This evening as I write this, I was considering that dream when suddenly I recalled today’s walk. As I was walking up to my Saturday karaoke spot on the mountain. I spotted a white and black cat on the side of the road. She looked at me and I looked at her and she began to meow as though she were asking me for something, some kind of assistance, perhaps it was food. I started to approach her, which something inside of me said not to do, but I still did. Not that I was going to pet a stray cat, but maybe I would have, especially given my history. Yea, I’ve been bit more than once, even once on the nose after being given clear instructions not to open the door and go near that dog.

The cat moved away and I didn’t pursue our encounter because I was hungry. I knew that cat was hungry, too. Yet, there was also something else about our encounter. Was it just a coincidence? Maybe, but honesty, other than two incidences occurring at the same time and nearly the same place, I do not buy into the idea of luck, coincidence or whatever you call it. For me, all incidents are outflows of past incidents, meaning that having a dream about kittens and then seeing a cat look me in the eyes and attempt to communicate with me, do not just happen arbitrary. Maybe sometimes they do, but not this time. I’m not exactly sure how to read or interpret this. Perhaps it’s time for me adopt some kittens . 😊 The picture above is similar to the cat I saw while walking on the road - not dreaming. On a final note for this evening: what ever happened to a simple smiley face, one that I don't have to click ten times to find? 


Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Redefining and Living the Word Responsibility - In Class Blog Writing


When it comes to taking responsibility, I have not usually appreciated or enjoyed the idea. Even though, I realized that by taking responsibility for something like getting a project done or working with people, that I would also be gaining opportunity to learn, I also felt pressure having to do something. It’s like, one day I would look at my future and think, I’m free to do as I please. Then the next day (having to be responsible for something), I would experience myself as tied down, pressured and no longer free to do as I please. For example, earlier this week I received an email from my boss indicating that he wanted me to (take responsibility) for writing some more online classes, MOOCS. Immediately, I started feeling as though I were under pressure. I agreed to do the writing and now it’s my responsibility to get it done by early next month. I will; however, I would like to change myself in relation to the word responsibility - from an experience of being pressured and tied down to a living expression making the best of this opportunity by doing the best I am able, herein living to my fullest potential.

Dictionary definition of responsibility:
Responsibility: the state or fact of having a duty to deal with something or of having control over someone.
My redefined or new definition of responsibility:
An opportunity to deal with, do for or do unto something or someone as best I am able in consideration of what is best for me and others.
How I plan to live my definition of responsibility
Firstly, in terms of writing these online lessons, I no longer view it as a burden or something that ties me down. Instead, I recognize being asked to write these new online lessons (and getting paid to do it) as an opportunity to do something I enjoy doing, writing, while also inputting a message into the world system. My message (in terms of artificial intelligence, the first MOOCS) is that … I will write about that. Furthermore, whenever the point or question of taking responsibility comes up, I commit to consider the opportunity associated with it. Herein, instead of experiencing myself as being tied down or having to do something, I will see myself as fulfilling that opportunity, which is a part of living to utmost potential.

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Redefining the Words Outgoingly Friendly_Global Citizenship and Cultural Literacy



Introduction (How do you usually experience yourself in terms of this word?)

Throughout my life, I’ve usually been friendly, but not overly friendly and certainly not outgoingly friendly. In other words, I’ve always been happy enough to talk for a while (usually a short while) with people that approached me, but I would rarely be so outgoing as to approach people to start a friendly conversation with them.  Therefore, I would to change myself by strengthening my friendliness by becoming more outgoing = outgoingly friendly.

Dictionary definition:
Outgoing - friendly and socially confident
Friendly - kind and pleasant
My definition (redefining the word):
Relating to others in ways that show I am friendly, kind, pleasant and interested in who they are.

How do I plan to live (specifically) the words, outgoingly friendly in relation to other people?

When and as I am buying something at 7-11 or another store, I commit to greet the clerk with a friendly smile and a Hi! Or Hello! Additionally, when someone approaches me and wants to talk, I commit (if I have the time to spare) to stop, listen and converse = friendly communicate.

When and as a student or students want to talk to me, I commit to speak with them in a friendly way that clearly shows that I have time to listen to them and that I care about what they have to say.

Sometimes when I know other people would like me to say hi and talk to me. Therefore, I commit to say hi to them and make an effort be familiar with them = making an effort to be more outgoing and friendly.


Sunday, December 10, 2017

Redefining and Living Words in the Classroom


Although I regularly get up in the morning and pick a word a word to express for that day, I have yet to expand my living-word vocabulary beyond 5 or six words. Let’s see, there’s joyful, joyfully interacting, excitedly engaged, interested and maybe one or two that just aren’t coming to me at this moment. Or perhaps it’s just four words and in looking at these words, I notice they’re pretty closely related, meaning there’s not much difference in how I actually live these words, i.e., their definitions are all grouped within my idea of joyful expression.

There is also the word, care, which I guess I have in word and deed embodied as a part of me or signature of who I am, how I relate to others, wherein it’s no longer required for me to constantly remind myself be caring. I have become that word and I am and I really thankful that I chose this word as my first word to embrace, understand and live as a doing in relation to people, animals that things.

So I guess it’s now time to expand my living word vocabulary. The only problem is, I’m not really an expert at redefining and living words. Furthermore, I’m not even that  motivated to do so. My solution (considering the position I’m filling in the world system), if you’re not really sure about how something works and you want to motivate yourself to be better at it, why not teach it others and learn it together? Thus begins my journey to teach while I learn, specifying myself while expanding my living-word vocabulary for the purpose of seeing, realizing and understanding my potential.

As I’ve said to myself many times before, I’m not here to redesign the wheel. It’s already been done and if there is a better design to be created, there are others out there who are probably in a better position to do so. Or maybe I will come up with some suggestions on how to streamline the process. Either way, I’m thankful there are already solutions, examples and lessons on redefining and living words which are available on the internet at SOUL, the School Of Ultimate Living on Facebook, Youtube and a soon to be created Homepage on the Web. Now, it’s simply a matter of deciding how to proceed in the classroom, introducing the process, teaching and learning while I teach. This where some experimentation comes in.

In the first week’s lesson (two weeks ago), “How do we create ourselves and our reality?” I talked about how we create ourselves and our reality as the words we think, speak and write. Then we watched the first twenty-five minutes of Introduction to the School of Ultimate Living. Then in the second hour of class, we all wrote blogs on the topic of What is the meaning of Life and What is my Purpose? Originally, I had only planned to do this with three of my classes. However, since students seemed more interested than usual (lol), I ended up expanding the lesson to six different classes during the week.

In the second week, last week I decided to present students with some scientific background in relation to the importance of words. Even though the Bible says, in the beginning was the word and the word was god (or something like that) and the Koran says in the beginning was the word and the word was creation (or something like that), I still felt that it was useful/important for me to also present students with a scientific basis for going into this topic. Thus for the second week of lessons, I explained my interpretation of the discovery that Russian scientists have made in relation to words and DNA. Then we read some of an article titled, Scientists Prove DNA Can Be Reprogrammed by Words and Frequencies. After discussing the article, I asked students to do the following:
In pairs:
  1. Choose one word that you would like to be more a part of your living. For example, if you often find yourself getting impatient with others, perhaps you could choose the word, patience. Or if you often find yourself feeling disinterested, you might choose the word interested or engaged.
  2. Use your smartphones to define the words and then add sentences to the definitions to fit into your life, friends, relations, etc.
  3. Note! Be as specific as possible in describing how you plan to live these words.
  4. Share your results in groups and with the class

Next week, I plan on watching another SOUL video. I’m not sure yet which one I’ll use; however, in consideration of attention spans, I’ll probably choose one that is not more than around sixteen minutes. Then after discussing the video, we will write blogs expanding on the words we’ve chosen. Specifically, in the introduction or first paragraph, we will look at and explain how we often experiences ourselves other than how we would like to be and then how each we would prefer to experience ourselves. Then in the next one or two paragraphs, I will ask the students to present their redefined word or words and specify how they plan to live and express that in relation to others for a whole week starting with sounding that word when they wake up each day.  

Interestingly, even though very few of my students bring laptop computers to class, we still hardly ever use any paper. These days, instead of opposing the smartphone in the classroom, I embrace it as a useful tool (but not for playing video games in the classroom, lol) and students seem to enjoy writing so much more when they’re holding onto their smart phones.

So this is my plan so far for introducing students to redefining and living words as a way not only to create themselves, but also to practice English and become better writers in the process. Overall, I would say it’s a win win situation/process for all involved. Plus, whenever students write and post blogs in the classroom, I also write and post as an example.

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

What is the Meaning of Life and What is My Purpose?

As I have been asking almost all of my classes this week to write on this subject, I’ve also written several blogs on this topic - each one a little different depending on their English levels. This one is for a high level class.


Having considered the meaning of life for a long time, I now realize that there is must to life than just getting up, going to school and so on - so much more. However, in order to understand it, I have to create it as myself. Furthermore, when it comes to my purpose, I’m not sure about that either. Perhaps it’s time to consider what is the meaning of life and what my purpose is within and as life.


For me, the meaning of life is what we give to it as live it. What do I mean by give to it as we live as it? Giving is what we do in thought, word and deed in relation to ourselves and one another when when we then, speak and/or do as we would have others do unto ourselves. For example, when I think or speak about someone in ways that I would want someone to think or speak about me, I am giving to that person - just as I would have him or her give to me. Thus, for me, the meaning of life is that which I give unto life, everyone and everything in ways that I would have everyone and everything give unto me.


As for my purpose, it is to create me into and as the certainty that I will in all ways, always do unto others as I would have them do unto me. Thus, my purpose is to create me as a stand of integrity = constantly and consistently standing as assistance and support for all. In my view, anything we do that is best for all is also what is best for me. Thus, my purpose to be as best I am able to be - that which is best for all. My purpose is my of changing me to be the best I am able to be = that which is best for all.

Friday, November 24, 2017

Changes in the World System

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Right and wrong are constructs of polar perspectives, percentages of truths or lies that we are able to right by replacing them with the principle of do unto others as you would have them do unto you. It’s not that hard with practice; all we require to do is to use our imagination practically and, in considering the other or others, think about how we would care to have ourselves be viewed if we were were standing in the other one’s shoes. Kind of like: if I were him and he were me, how would I want that version of me to be in relation to this version of me? Imagine that it were you standing in the shoes of the one being thought of, spoken to or written about. What would you do and how would you relate to that person, plant, animal or thing? How would you honor thyself as a being to ensure that at the end of time, at the gates of hell, you would look back with the certainty that you had stood with honor in relation to all? Was it an honorable stand?

If you voted, “not me,” congratulations, you’re amongst the majority of us. Thankfully though, we are also amongst the ones who are now able to ask and answer the question - honesty. The reason I’m writing like this, one of them if because I’ve been considering (for a long time) the movement of humans and whether or not I should write that which is but a perspective not yet lived to fulfilment. I have decided that, it’s better to be honest with where one is in his or her point of view rather than silent, regardless of the accuracy of that point of view.

In short (for now) I  consider that humanity is on the verge of major changes. Sure, we been going through major changes in terms of people waking up and looking to see the within and without of ourselves. However, right now, I’m talking about the changes taking place in the money system, the governmental systems, the religious system and so on. It’s happening quite quickly, yet not as fast as I would have it.

In terms of the money system, it goes beyond the Bretton Woods agreement and the Petro Dollar. The system (we as existence, everyone) are not bringing down is of the Babylonian debt (slavery) system, devised and implemented, who the hell knows when. One of the websites that I regularly read, whatdoesitmean.com said something to the effect that, in order to understand what’s going on, one must investigate and consider not only the physical aspects, but also the spiritual ones as well. I would expand on that terminology by saying that it’s best to investigate all things (of which one is able) and use that information as best we are able to harmonize our environments. More to say on the point of harmonizing one’s environment later.

Getting back to the money system. The US dollar as a reserve currency is clearly on its way out. It’s funny or sad that, even me, when I think of the dollar going down and down, I wonder how I could play that to retain wealth or maybe even increase it. The problem with that idea and with most of today’s investing is that nothing’s being created when one invests to gain more than an equal share. Instead, the money is only transferred and wasted. Take for example Bitcoin. To mine it costs money in the form of electricity, computers and maintenance. Then it’s valued and purchased (mostly as an investment in the hopes that will transfer their perceived wealth to your currency leaving the old investors with a profit and the new ones with the same hopes.) What will happen though, when another new world currency comes out and the powers that be with their quantum computers decide that they don’t want that competition? Just something to consider when investing in currencies. Of course  there’s more to that story.

It’s a war for control of the printing presses and the direction of humanity. On one side are coalitions, content to have, at least for now, Donald Trump as their primary figurehead. On the other side are the Deep States of nations and their elite puppet master - the families who have dominated or controlled (for the most part) the distribution of fiat currencies for a long time. I will not attempt to go into the who's and how’s of the composition of these organizations because I really do not understand their workings. I wouldn’t even categorize them as good or bad - just parts of the system that will remain or go. We are all connected and therefore equally as one responsible for the reality we create as a whole.

No more is the course correction of the world system able to be seen than in the slowing down of US personified public wars. The role of the United States, as the figurehead of empire is coming to an end with the end of the dollar as world’s reserve currency. There is a lot to the information: the public mainstream talk, the alternative media, Hollywood, amature scientists, the portal (available from Eqafe) and so on. Thus, to have even an arguable idea of what’s happening is consider various perspectives. Then, in watching for signs, first from the within and then to the without, we’re able to link the information with outcomes to imagine a map of sorts of the direction and possible playouts within humanity and all else. In my imagination, a mix of perceptions and so-called calculations, humanity is reaching a milestone, which isn’t to say that we are  through the most difficult part, but that we’re simply reaching a milestone as I perceive it. Although I have mentioned two sides (and I guess there are more) to the war for control of the new currency to come, there’s another point to look at, the existential side of it.

In order to create a new world system based on principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all, the old system, has to be replaced with a new one. The best option would of course be to build the new one while disassembling the old one. Unfortunately, that probably is not feasible. Why? Because the bricks and the mortar that make up the old world system and will stand as the new one are the human beings existing within and as it. Thus, as is the democracy of creation, each one of us in thought, word and deed is a vote that manifests into and as the physical reality. Thus, as one humanity, we change only as fast as the ones that stand as the change.

United we stand, divided we fall does not mean that it’s necessary to oppose in order to create. Rather it is to stand and move as that which we care to create - lest we waste our votes on opposition which is actually a vote for revolution which equals stagnation.   Therefore, instead of choosing sides, I suggest choosing a path that one considers to be best for all and walking it. Specifically, that which is not initiated with the intent of what is best for all is simply a less than honorable stance, one wherein one does not understand or is not living his or her potential.

In order to establish a new world system, we as humanity or mankind must change the money system (the heart and the blood of the world system) to a more equitable one that assists and supports all of this planet to expressly live without fear. This will require a redistribution of wealth that lifts up the masses of destitute to the point wherein they along with everyone else are provided with the opportunity to participate equally. This will not happen overnight and it will result in many falling from their perceived heights of status. Hopefully, as I once read, those who have been abused will forgive their abusers. Otherwise, it’s going to be even more difficult. Either way, a one world currency with centralized distribution centers is on the way. No, it’s not “the solution”, but it is in the direction of one. How so? Because, as I’ve heard, a one legged table is much easier to topple than a multi-legged one. Let us just be sure that the lesser of the various evils fighting the currency war take their place at the top of that table leg. Then, comes the next phase.
To be Continued.

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Writing and Posting Blogs in the Classroom

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Although I have not been doing so much personal process blog posting, I have been doing a lot of blog posting for school. Basically, whenever I ask students to write blog post, which is about 7 different classes every 2- 3 weeks, I also write one with them right there in the classroom on the projection screen and I also usually post them and put their links on the updated class syllabus for them to go back and check out, which I guess some actually do. Sometimes, I leave blank lines for them to fill in their own words. It’s kind of like guided writing or paint by numbers, but with words instead of colors.

In the past, I didn’t really consider this kind of writing to be associated with my process. However, now in considering how I am assisting the students (my intention) while also assisting myself, I guess I would classify classroom writing to be part of my personal process. Why? Because, as one of my main goals or reasons for walking with Desteni and doing my personal process of self change has been to change myself to understand and live the word, care as a doing without having to force myself to do so.

Now, although I hadn’t consciously considered this point in some time, I have occasionally  been noticing some personal behavioral changes in relation to others, wherein I would do or say something in relation to them in ways that seemed to indicate to me that I actually cared.  Usually, it would just be a moment wherein I look up and quizzically wonder as what I had done or said and that would be the last of it. Then, the other day  as I was showing students how they could outline their self-introductions by first listing some of their most noteworthy personal traits, I wrote the word, care as one of the personal traits that I would include in my self-introduction. As I was writing that word on the board, I stepped back for a moment and looked into myself to see if I was being self honest. Do I really care, I asked myself. My answer without hesitation was yes. And in that moment, I realized that, in assisting others to write and doing so almost effortlessly, I was actually living the word, care. One more thing, although it may look as though the students are playing with their phones, they’re actually using them to write and post their blogs.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

GC&CL Blog post 2: Ancient AI and the Truth about Humans


Today I am going to talk about a blog post called Ancient A.I. (artificial Intelligence) and the Truth about Humans.

In this article, the author says that ____ _____ ____... Do I agree with this? Yes/Not really, because...

Furthermore, he says that... and... While I agree with some of the author's points, I also disagree with some of the things he says. For example, in terms of _____, I think/do not think that... Why? Because....

Additionally, even though the author says..., I think that... Why? Because...

Furthermore, in terms of ______, I agree/disagree that... Why? Because...

In conclusion, (say the main points that you agree/disagree with.

SAU3 Blog post 2: Artificial Intelligence



Today I am going to talk about a blog post called Ancient A.I. (artificial Intelligence) and the Truth about Humans.

In this article, the author says that humans are already the ultimate AI. already exist in/as the human mind. Do I agree with this? Well...

Furthermore, he says that... and... While I agree with some of the author's points, I also disagree with some of the things he says. For example, in terms of _____, I think/do not think that... Why? Because....

Additionally, even though the author says..., I think that... Why? Because...

Furthermore, in terms of ______, I agree/disagree that... Why? Because...

In conclusion, (say the main points that you agree/disagree with.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

The Most Difficult Part of Writing

I often say that the most difficult part of writing is writing the first word. I don’t have the words that I will write all planed out. However, I have found that once I begin writing, the words eventually just seem to pan out as though it were the words writing themselves out and not me. This makes sense to me because, as I was telling my students today, “In the beginning there was the word and the word was…” Some say “god” and some say “sound.” I say that the word, god and sound are one in/and/of the same. Therefore, to say that, the word is god as the creator (and not the other way around) as the power that creates is perhaps not so far fetched. For, what am I, what are we but the words we speak as the sounds we create? And what is it that we create - ourselves as the words we sound. We as sound are the words we create as ourselves; hence the importance (I guess) of being of sound mind to stand equal with the body of sound.

That being said, perhaps not as precisely (or rightly) as I am able to say, yet nevertheless said, I have an idea, an old idea of mine and it goes like this. As words are the building blocks or DNA/design of ourselves and this physical reality, shouldn’t we be able to manipulate, create or at least change reality to an extent via our words? I’ve written about this before, how the magic of magicians used to “really” alter the physical reality. Somewhere along the line, I guess that art seems to have been lost. I have often thought that it should stay lost. Even when I heard someone say that the age of magic would return, I had no interest in it because it is not a permanent solution and sometimes creates even bigger problems. However, as so much of the world does seem to be going to pot, hell in a handbag or whatever it is that they say, perhaps what the world needs now is a little magic - as spells or words specifically directed.

Actually, it’s not magic like abracadabra and the genie appears. It’s simply or difficulty a matter of writing out the correct words, sometimes called spells and this is what I plan on experimenting with for a while, writing spells and casting them out into our reality. I realize that this may sound strange to some. However, for me it’s one of those certainties that I’ve had for quite some time. In short, I “believe” or perhaps I should say “theorize” that words as spells written and cast correctly may become quite a force of reality. The key to understand (and also why I have not spent so much time on this) is that the force we create with words is not permanent. In other words, the spells of one, cast into a lot of many may for a moment have what appears to be a big impact, kind of like a smartphone battery wired to turn over the engine of a car. It will do it, but only for a moment. Of course, if there are many batteries working together, then the effects will be longer lasting. Ideally, all the batteries could one day be connected and focused on creating the same outcome, that which is best for all.

This is why in the past I have encouraged others to target our words for maximum impact to the benefit of others. Key here to writing right and casting such words or spells is to do so from the starting point intention of creating outflows that are best for all. The risk in all of this is that, in supporting one area, another one may be diminished. Again, this is all just a theory/belief and this post is but a record and a warm up as part of my experiment to support the solutions that are ready to be implemented.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Caring for Myself as I Care for Others = Getting out of my Comfort Zone

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Recently I have been explaining to various classes of students my intention to get them out of their comfort zones by having numbers of them stand up, walk away from their desks to find someone whom they are not so familiar with and interview that person. My goal in all of this, including having them present what they have learned about that person is to assist them to expand themselves by pushing or nudging them as I would have instructors do unto me if I were in their shoes. A slight problem that I’ve noticed though with this is that I don’t so often do unto and for myself as I sometimes do for others and as I would certainly have others do unto and for me.


Thankfully though, I do sometimes trick myself into getting out of my comfort zones as I did the other day when I invited myself and some others to a friend’s home in Puli, Nantou, Taiwan for a barbecue. After, I had done that and my friend had agreed, I thought to myself, I don’t wanna do that. It would  require either me drinking non-alcohol beer or spending the night in a guest house and the last time I did that (stayed in that guest house), I got HongKong feet - as it’s called in Taiwan. In the states, we refer to it as athlete’s foot, but I guess it’s just a form of bacterial (correction - fungal) growth in the cracks of the feet that’s gotta be cleaned and cared for. Either way, it’s not pleasant, yet there are number of ways of dealing with it WITHOUT POISONING THE BODY WITH ANTI-BACTERIAL (correction - antifungal) CHEMICALS.

The easiest way being to rub one’s urine into the cracks of the foot thereby neutralizing the destructive bacteria. Washing it with a high ph solution of sodium bicarbonate and water will also usually solve the problem. BTW, sodium bicarbonate, the good stuff is one of those wonders that, when used correctly, is able to assist in relieving and solving so many physical ailments. It’s also good for washing clothes, brushing teeth (with coconut oil) and household cleaning.


Anyway, by not thinking it through and inviting myself and others to my friend’s home for a barbecue, I left myself, the expert at backing out of engagements, with no, shall I say, forgivable way out.  Thus, I went and even though I was the only friend to show up, I enjoyed myself at the barbecue in the company of my friend and his partner. Additionally, I spent the night at at that same guest house, met some interesting people, found it to be quite pleasant and (being sure to wear slippers into the bathroom and shower) I avoided picking up any unwanted bacteria = no bacterial infections on the feet, all of which I wouldn’t have accomplished had I not gotten myself away from my little home away from home and out of my comfort zone. This leaves me wondering: how often and where else am I not doing unto and for myself that which I am willing to do unto and for others as a doing aligned with living the word, care?

Where else am I not caring enough for myself to push myself out of my comfort zones? Dare I count the ways? No, instead I simply forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide in my comfort zones instead of pushing myself to get out and connect with new people. Furthermore, when and as I find myself leaning towards staying home in the "safety" of my comfort zone, I commit to push through the uncertainty (which is actually a fear of leaving the zone) so to get out of my zone, meet some new people and perhaps even have some fun. I see a spark that is starting to glow. Perhaps it is time to fan and ignite it. After all, the spark is me as an opportunity.

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Is the Future Influencing the Present?

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The other day, I woke up in the last segment of a dream. In looking to the Northeast,  across the sea, far in the distance, I could see the flashes of nuclear explosions as they detonated over far away lands. I told the peoples on the shores not to look at the flashes and then I continued to walk along the sea’s edge among the arguing parties of human beings. Looking to the Northwest, I could see more nuclear explosions going off. Don’t look at the blasts, I told the people as I walked along occasionally peering up as though I would peer for a moment at the sun, just enough to see it, but not enough to have my eyes be burned by it. Throughout the dream, I was communicating with someone about an expedition that I and others had set out on. It was just in the end of the dream that I awoke. It was the end of a time; yet it was also the beginning of something new.

That dream being said, there is another point I would like to explore that has to do with viewing or imagining future playouts and choosing which path to take. Recently, I read an article of an article on quantum theory that postulated that the future may be influencing the present. My take on this subject is and has been that this is indeed what is happening. Yet not necessarily in relation to past, present and future, but more along the “one” line of events called play-outs. If I let go of my linear perceptions of the X/Y cross of time for a moment to look and consider the quantum possibilities beyond the illusion of there being somewhere else other than here as everywhere in each moment, I see or perceive that everything that is here including what I call the past, present and future is everything. Thus, in asking myself in which moment the so-called future me  would most likely choose to correct my mistakes, I would say that, in this physical existence, mistakes are best correct in the sequence, at the point of creation, the point that they played out in order to change the composition of the foundation we walk upon, rather than attempting to correct them from a distance down the line - like trying to fix the first floor of a building from the ninety-ninth floor.

What does all this have to do with where I am now? In looking back at some decisions that I made in relation to the community where my partner and I own a house, I decided to take a more difficult path even though I knew it would be more difficult, because I considered it to be an opportunity for my partner to challenge and expand herself. What I didn’t realize at the time is that I too would be challenged with the opportunity to expand and change myself.

Now, in consideration of quantum theory (very loosely defined of course so as not to waste my physical body by over thinking that which my mind was probably not designed to comprehend), when I look at various points, I see that in walking or re-walking that path, I still made quite a few mistakes. However, my partner seems to be meeting the challenges. Thankfully, I am still here, at or near the location where I made the mistakes. Thus, I take responsibility for changing myself while I am still here.

In terms of space time, sure, I guess the future is influencing the present and this is why opportunity to change is always right here.  

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Mind Reboots

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I have been noticing some changes in my mind consciousness system that I guess I should record - for the record. About 3-4 weeks ago, I began noticing some strange occurrences or perspectives. The first one has to do with time. It seemed to slow down to a crawl and for a while I kept thinking different days were days ahead of where they actually were. I’m not sure what brought on this memory lapse or forgetfulness. Perhaps it had a lot to do with the stress that I was going through at the time. Either way, as I was walking through those points, I also became aware of a large  buildup of energy throughout my body. I seemed as though the energy was filling up my body to my forehead where I experienced a lot of pressure and heat. While all this was going on, I also noticed that I was becoming very irritable and sometimes argumentative. As I became more aware of these strange happenings in my mind/body relationship, I also stepped up my guard on my thoughts and my interactions with others so not to fall into (another) energetic possession.


As the days went by, I was in deed able to restore a degree of self-directedness. However, I also realized that something had changed in me. As I was speaking with my partner and others, I listened to my voice tonality and I observed how I was experiencing myself. Whereas over the past couple of years, I had been making progress in determining the tonality of my words, how I express and/or experience myself in relation to others, I suddenly noticed that my sound/physical interaction with others was stale - for lack of a better word. It is as though all of the changes (especially in terms of caring) that I have been directing and pushing myself to be and become had suddenly reverted back to square one, as though my mind had erased all of the new lines that I had written and rebooted to where I had been before I started this process - from consciousness to awareness.


Thankfully, even though the changes that I had been inputting into my mind consciousness system and  walking physically to change my nature appear to have been deleted (for lack of a better word), I still retain the knowledge of the tools of self-change and the determination to continue changing myself. Additionally and perhaps most importantly, I remember how through changing the tonality of my words, how much more I had enjoyed myself in relation to others. In short, there is no way I’m going back to that staleness.


Listening to the staleness, disconnected, distant and uncaring sound in which I had begun to speak and relate to others for a very short time during these recent times disgusted me - to put it simply. Herein I realize that, even if my mind reboots a thousand times and even if I get caught up and possessed by it, I am always able to stand back up and continue walking to change myself as I care to be and become - and this is what I am doing, step by step.


In looking at this point, I am not one hundred percent sure what has been going on with me. My guess is that my mind just rebooted. For more on this topic, I’m going re listen to this Eqafe interview: Introducing Energy Keeping Systems & Your Awareness - Quantum Mind Self Awareness.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

As Summer Comes to a Close

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The Battle line of the Within and the Without
Recently, I had a dream that I noted.
In the first part of the dream, I was lucid, like aware that I was in a place where I could fly and that I had been there before, yet lacked the memory. I flew high over the lands until I came to the place where I could fly no further. There was a village and many children greeted me with unconditional hugs and embraces just the way my best dog-friend used to do. One of them told me some important news, something to do with having completed something but still having much to do. I left that aspect of the dream and suddenly I was facing someone much bigger than me, whom I had defined as my enemy, but was just my ego. He started pushing me around and I ended up putting him on the ground very hard. I did that on purpose because, even though I did not want to harm him, I did what to take the fight out of him. For a moment, I feared that I had harmed him. Suddenly, he opened his eyes and his mouth became an angry grimace. At that point, I knew he wasn’t going to stay down and that’s when I awoke. Inside of me, while I see I am still divided, I am also still committed to walking my process from consciousness to awareness. That being said, I am also so confused.

As summer comes to a close, as my so-called summer vacation enters the final ten day stretch, I wonder why I even call it a vacation. To be honest, I don’t have vacations, at least not in terms of vacating one place for a more accommodating place. The idea is that, as work is sometimes stressful, not having to go to work ought to be relaxing. Doesn’t work that way for me. My vacation to my home in the northern city has been a stressful experience for me. However, this is not to say that I consider it to be a bad or regretful thing. Actually it has been a wonderful (but not fun) opportunity for me to see and face points of myself that I have yet to completely deal with. In other words, I am still working on them, myself. The points I’m speaking of have to do with authority, defiance, victimization and perhaps even jealousy. There are probably more; like I said, these are confusing times for me.

In writing out my perspective of my war and my confusing times, I noticed that I was projecting onto and blaming the other sides instead of taking complete responsibility for all sides "of my perspective". Thus, I rewrote things out to take complete responsibility. However, in doing that, I noticed that the pendulum had swung back to the point wherein I was now judging and blaming myself. Finally, In looking for the middle ground or a line that I could draw, I begin to realize that it is not about which path one takes to get where he or she is going, but about who one is in relation to self and others while walking that path.  Whether one stays and fights or walks away, self-change occurs not in the outcomes of such decisions, but from within and as the determination to decide who one is while walking such decisions. Specifically, in this reality, there is no right or wrong path and there is no winning or losing, only the decision to continue walking, facing one's self and changing.  Thus, it is for me and each of us to choose our paths and determine for ourselves who each  is and will be. Words of wisdom?  Not quite yet, I still have to test them out and live them into real change.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

The Flaw of Logic


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There is so much that I don’t understand as in an awareness of the consequences I cause unto myself and everything else through all of existence because of what I do or do not do. Whether I speak of the big or I speak of the small, it doesn’t matter because they are one in and of the same. That being said, today I am looking at the word, logic, today and already there is a pain in my stomach as if to say, don’t go there.

I guess this is because of a realization or perhaps a new consideration in relation to what I refer as “logic.” This morning, while listening to an interview or podcast by a being from the Atlantean race, on the subject of the cross-manifestations that began appearing in the design of structure of beings’ molecules, it occurred to me that, logic is but an judgment of how information should flow from the past to the present and into the future.

Whereas, I used to wonder why so many people couldn’t comprehend my simple logic, I now begin to see that even the simplest of logic is flawed due to one’s  biases or culture of what is considered to be right and wrong. Yea, culture is just another form of logic based the perception of what was considered right and wrong in the past should still be considered that way in the present. This is I guess one of the ways we have pinned ourselves to our crosses of righteousness. In carrying with me my past definitions of right and wrong and attempting to pin my logic onto others in the present in the hopes that things will flow “my way” into the future, I have miss assessed and over complicated so many situations.

The bottom line is that, I really must let go of the idea of right and wrong as a means of deciding what to do. Better to replace such a consideration with, what is best for all. And if that gets too complicated, perhaps it’s best to simply ask, what would I have everyone else do if they were standing in my shoes and I in theirs?

Sunday, August 20, 2017

From "My Way or the Highway" to Humbleness and Understanding

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In my previous post, Opportunity in Consequence, I touched on a realization I’m beginning to open up and understand in relation to my idea of standing up for my rights and my right to live my way according to such  rights. In short, this was as it has been with me, a my way or the highway self-definition, wherein I justified my way because as I viewed it, it was the best and therefore the right way for all involved. However, what I did not realize was that, if the best way for all is not an option for all, then it is not actually the best way for all. Thus,  when searching for the best solution, I now see, realize and understand that, that which is best for all, will also account for the perspective-awareness of all involved, so to be applicable or applied by all involved. This is a major realization for me and in looking at how simple this point seems, I am tempted to wonder why I didn’t see it sooner. Thankfully, I have also begun letting go of the search for “why,” so to focus on actually changing myself. Thus, while I have much self-forgiveness to write out and sound, I am also going to choose some words to redefine on the path to better living.
Self forgiveness
  • I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create within and as me a point of defiance in reaction to my feeling of helplessness or inability to live according to my rights as I defined them.
  • I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being feckless in relation to stopping preventing from feeling humiliated, instead of directing myself to see/realize and understand that, as the humiliation I have experienced originated from within/as myself, all I have to do is to change/shift myself from the definition of being humiliated to that of honoring myself by utilizing my opportunities to see and face such points my process of changing myself for the better, the way I care to have all others stand in relation to me.
  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my experience of myself, based on the actions of others, therein limiting my experiences to my definitions of their actions instead of taking completed responsibility for who I am by choosing which words to live, redefining them to my specifications as the best I am able to live and then living such words in any given moment.
  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my way was right and therefore best for all, instead of  utilizing my ability to look into people to see and consider their points of view so to compromise for the betterment of all, which is not really a compromise, but a practical consideration for the structure of the environment that the problem resides. Herein, I now see, realize and understand that, the best solution, that which is best for all will account for the perspective-awareness of all involved so to be applicable and willingly applied to all involved.
  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be vindicated by the system, thereby tying who I am to the outcomes of system instead of determining how I will stand within/as this and all matters by choosing a word for the occasion/moment, redefining it and living it. Herein, in relation to any dispute, I commit to embody and live my definition of the phrase, humbleness and understanding.
Self Commitments:
  • When and as I find myself entering into or facing a point of humiliation, I commit to sound the word “humbleness” so to shift myself into and as a sound/physical presence, neither proud nor arrogant, yet self-honestly aware of the best that I am able to be in relation to my environment and determined to move that way = my new way.
  • When and as I find myself considering and/or physically facing people with different perspectives, I commit to sound the phrase, “humbleness within and as understanding,” where, in addition to embodying and living the word humbleness, I utilize my ability to consider and understand other people’s perspectives, who and why they are; herein, seeing them as one with me while also standing as an example of how, in working together to mend our relations, we also change ourselves for the better, together.
  • When and as I find myself facing a point in the physical reality relating a disagreement, I commit to sound the words humbleness and understanding, embody the definition within and as me and live it in relation all aspects and people involved. Herein, I now determine who I will be and how I will stand in relation to all things.

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Opportunity in Facing Consequence

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I had defined myself as being oppressed, tormented and ostracized for standing my ground, not bowing down to what was wrong and never ever letting myself be pushed around. I viewed the masses as following the bullies who would direct the masses in what I considered to be the wrong directions. I didn’t appreciate the directions that the masses chose to go in and I didn’t respect them for following the self-interested few. However, as long as they they left me alone and didn’t push me to fall in line and join their wrong direction, I would leave them alone.  Keep moving was my motto because I feared that once I settled down, my right to be different would  surely be challenged. This is a shortened description of how I’ve been relating to my external reality for a long time. Although, I often wondered what was going on inside of me, for the most part, I kept myself unaware. I am still not sure why.


I perceived that the world was against me, at least most of humanity and surely the system it seemed. It always seemed to me that people would insist that I do as the others did and I viewed this as a form of oppression. The more I resisted against my experience of being inferiorized, the more I would feel as though I were being tormented. Thus, in reaction to my experience of inferiority, I became defiant which I defined as superiority. Thus, instead of letting myself be pushed around, I would push back. Instead of having to obey, I would wherever I could, take command. And if they still refused to leave me alone, I would make them pay. This was my secret way, and strangely enough, I had even kept this secret from myself.

Thus, I embodied in so many ways, the nature of that which I believed I was fighting against my whole life, that of the evil few. Interestingly, I could never hide from myself the nature of me. I viewed it as an evil lurking within me, I just didn’t understand why. I still do not understand why and maybe I never will. At the very least, however, I am beginning to see the pattern and from this glimpse, I am able to change myself to how I would prefer to be.


I see now that the construct of defiance has dominated me for most of my life. In fear of being dominated and forced to obey, I sought to dominate in so many ways - via manipulation, intelligence, perseverance, etc., and lastly by force. It’s strange that, even when this pattern was presented for me to hear and see, I didn’t or I wouldn’t.

Now I see that, sometimes when we’ve built up and reinforced patterns within and as us to such an extent, it really is necessary to walk through some consequence to bring about that sunken feeling wherein one surrenders and lets down his or her wall of protection to (for a moment of opportunity) see the pattern and take responsibility for it.

Thus, while walking through the consequences such as negative energy experiences while surrendering and letting down one’s defenses, it is important to also be looking for the patterns with the intention of changing self to no longer embody that pattern. Otherwise, the pattern will simply re establish itself as one attempts to regain the positive experience. Thus, my commitment to myself: When and as I find myself facing a point of consequence, I commit embrace the energetic experience, look into it as me to see the pattern that played out in arriving at the consequence. In seeing the pattern, I commit to forgive myself and change the definitions to non-polarized words for me to live.