Saturday, January 18, 2020

Waking up with a low Heart Rate

Once again, I begin with a dream, which wasn’t  really a dream in the classical sense wherein I found  myself in a sleep state interacting with different characters and/or programs in different dimensions myself, but one wherein I suddenly found myself aware of myself in my physical body, as the physical body covered with blankets and something else intent upon getting my attention and waking me up.

As I lay there aware of myself inside of my body surrounded by blankets, yet unable to physically move, like I was paralyzed, something that I perceive or imagined to be a cat on the outside of the blanket startled me with a bite to my big toe. Immediately, I tried to wake up, but I couldn’t move. Then the same thing happened to one of my fingers on my left hand and I began struggling even harder, attempting to yell and scream in order to wake up, but still I couldn’t move. And although I was perceiving myself as making noises, I got the feeling that I wasn’t really getting through to the physical reality out there. Finally I decided to breathe: one, two, three, wake up, I said to myself and then I was awake.

As soon as I awoke, the first thing I noticed was that my heart rate was very slow. I guessed that my blood pressure was also very low and I really felt like just falling back to sleep again, but I didn’t dare. So instead I just focused on my breathing, which I often do when I wake up in the middle of the night - rather than allowing my mind to race like I used to do. After a while, I did go back to sleep, but not before removing most of the blankets so that I wouldn’t get too comfortable.

In the morning, after I got out of bed, walked around for a while and drank come coffee, I used one of those machines to check my blood pressure and heart rate. While my blood pressure was 105 over 60, my heart rate was still only 46 beats per minute. Now, after being up for an hour, writing and drinking coffee,  it’s still only 124 over 74 with a heart rate of 48 beats per minute. This does seem kind of slow. However, this could also be the result of eating better, exercising and reducing my alcohol intake by about ninety-nine percent over the last 7-9 months.

Now for the main reason or question I have in deciding to write this out: once again I ask, who am I in all of this and why is it that one part of me has to communicate with another part of me - shouldn’t it be one “I” of understanding and moving as one? Literally when I finally woke up and was able to move, I embraced my physical body and said, “good work, thanks for waking me up.”

I guess in communicating with my physical body (of my physical body communicating with me),  I’m bridging the separation gap and the parts of me are coming closer together. Something to as part of my journey. And now I’m going to begin preparing for next semester’s classes.

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

Democracy Notes 1-14-2020: Agreeing on a Definition for Democracy

With changes occurring in the world system now becoming more definitive, perhaps it is now also time to reopen the discussion (on monologue in my case - lol) on a new definition for democracy. Firstly, I propose that we acknowledge the deficiencies of the generally accepted ineffectual and outdated definitions of democracy, so as to then move on to agreeing to a new living definition that embodies the principle of oneness and equality as is best for all, as the foundation from which we might then go on to agree on some guidelines or procedures for coexisting harmoniously in the same environment, city, space, platform, galaxy or wherever.

As for the deficiencies of the ineffectual old-world definitions promoted specifically (in my view) to perpetuate the sacred hierarchical structures of power and control, look no further than the definition of democracy according to Google:
  1. A system of government by the whole population or all the eligible members of a state, typically through elected representatives.

Really? I underlined the words ‘government’, ‘eligible’ and ‘representatives’ because rather than supporting the essence or spirit of democracy as an inclusive form of collective decision making, these words serve only to contradict the idea of democracy (as a collective expression of equality) by insinuating that democracy is all about government/control, eligibility/exclusivity and representation (instead of actual participation). So I suggest that we simply scrap this definition and any others like it that do not embrace self-determination, inclusiveness and participation as a matter of social responsibility in all situations, everywhere. Let us simply begin with a clean slate so to speak.

The definition that I’ve been working on for quite some time defines democracy simply as a form of collective decision making, wherein the degree of democracy expressed by the collective is equivalent to the degree by which “all” members of the collective have (or are afforded) the opportunity to participate equally in all of the decision-making processes (all of the decisions) that will eventually apply to the collective as a whole. This definition is all inclusive (with the opportunity to participate equally in all decision-making processes that apply to the collective as a whole), while also not being binding those would choose not to participate. And of course it can still be modified or improved upon - as per the essence of change that real democracy will facilitate.

In addition to agreeing on a new definition of democracy, I’ve also been considering how such a definition might be implemented, dare I say systematized so as to utilize technology (including AI) to facilitate the decision-making processes any and all collectives from the small to the big and the big to the small, so as to build a world that is best for all.

In my next post on the subject of democracy, I would like to look at how such a system might function in both small and large collectives. By the way, a “collective,” rather than being an anticapitalistic fascist mind-controlled commune dedicated to safe spaces and free stuff, is simply a group that works together.

Monday, January 13, 2020

Democracy Notes: 1/13/2020

As people slowly but surely awaken to the fact that representative democracy is not a democracy of, by and for the people, but rather a democracy of by and for a select group of people mistakenly referred to as representatives of the people, the question once again becomes, what is democracy of, by and for the people and how are we able to implement such a system to best benefit everyone regardless of where each one happens to be participating. 

Remember, democracy is simply a form (methodology or system) of collective decision making, wherein the degree (amount or percentage) of democracy expressed by the collective is equivalent to the degree by which all members of the collective have “the opportunity” to participate equally in any and all of the decision making processes applicable to the collective as a whole.

To be clear, democracy is not about having an obligation to participate in any particular aspect of a democratic group or collective; nor is it about having an obligation to participate in anything at all.  Rather, democracy is and always has been simply about having “the opportunity to participate equally” in any and all aspects of the decision-making processes applicable to the collective.  In essence, real democracy is simply an expression of real equality to decide and determine the shape and direction of, by and for the group or collective unto which the democracy applies.

For example, in a classroom democracy of twenty students, each student would be afforded the opportunity to participate equally in any and all of the decision making processes (or steps) leading up to the final step of voting to decide and implement a matter that is applicable to that class as a whole. From there, those same students might exit the classroom to enter into other systems of democracy, such as the school, community, city, state, national and even a planetary democracy, wherein each “participant” would (from the small to the big and the big to the small) continue to always have and/or be afforded the opportunity to participate equally in any and all of the decisions that are going to apply to that particular participant.

Herein, the right (as the opportunity to participate equally in the decision making processes of a collective) goes hand in hand with any obligation to abide by the decision that have been collectively made.  And this is why representative democracy (in terms of it being a decision making system of, by and for the people) is a contradictory term which actually refers to a form of control exercised by a minority that constitutes what we call government, which is actually just another form of tyranny over the people who have yet to take responsibility for the direction of their collectives. The good thing is, we are finally making some progress.

In order for a system of decision making to be a true expression of democracy, those unto whom the decisions will apply must always have and/or be afforded the opportunity to participate equally in all of the decision making processes leading up to the implementation of that particular decision. For example, as someone living in the Amazon jungle is not going to be affected by the decisions made in a Washington DC elementary school, that person would also not be provided (as a right) with the opportunity to participate equally in the decision making processes of that classroom.

But this doesn’t mean that he or she might not one day decide to travel to Washington DC to visit that classroom, whereupon that person (as a new participant in the sphere of that classroom) would then have the right as the opportunity to participate equally in that classroom’s decision making processes, while also being subject to its democratic processes (while participating), which may or may not already have rules pertaining to welcoming newcomers.

Participation is a given that comes with life: even if  you decide not to decide, you have still made a choice as to how you will live the life you’ve been given. Therefore, if we really want to see change in our democratic systems, we require first to take back our power and start participating - becoming the change we care to see.

Sunday, January 5, 2020

The Life line of Breath

This morning (or yesterday morning by the time I post this), as I awoke around 4 in the morning with the usual thought boxes beginning to cycle in front of my perception, instead of fighting them, I went into a very determined form of breathing. As I was counting 4 heartbeat-counts in, hold for 4 counts, exhale for 4 counts, hold 4 heartbeats and so on, I noticed something different.

Strangely enough, I noticed that I was actually doing it, breathing steadily without going into any of the thoughts that I could see (as a knowing) were there ready and waiting for me to be accepted. However, I just kept on breathing, playing with my breath. As it turns out, in the mornings, I seem to prefer longer breaths, like 6-8 seconds rather than the usual four. I guess this is because I have large lungs and am able to breathe slower when rested. Eventually I fell asleep again and when I awoke, I strangely enough found myself still breathing that way, yet with a memory of a dream I had just had.

In the dream, I was with two brothers at a home that I didn’t really recognize while the two of them were talking about a particular kind of watch one of them had acquired  and was suggesting that the others do the same. As they talked about that particular time piece (that showed up in my perception as a pocket watch),  I went for a walk to explore a structure a nearby building. Once inside, I found myself somewhat stuck balancing myself precariously on some weak, rotting pieces of wood in order to avoid falling into a deep dark abyss below.    Although I wasn’t scared, I knew that I was stuck and it was just a matter of time before I fell into the abyss.

Suddenly, I saw one of my brothers coming through the door.  He saw my predicament and immediately went back to get something something from my other brother. When he returned, I saw that he had very strong synthetic line, which he threw to me. As I was getting ready to use that life line to climb up, I woke up still breathing the 4-6 count breath. So I decided to get out of bed and do some writing.

Although, I don’t focus on or even attempt to recall most of my dreams, I find some of them are notable for the insight (I guess I could say) that they provide, especially the ones with easily identifiable symbols relating my physical reality. In this latest dream, the watch clearly symbolizes time - as in the clock is ticking. It’s like a part of me pointing to the wristwatch as if to say we gotta get moving.

Add to this the image of myself balanced or hanging precariously over a pit of dark abyss, holding on to old roots coming out of the side of the wall and the message becomes even more clear: with the clock ticking away, there is no more time to go exploring down every little corridor or conspiracy that pops up. On a side note, I’m starting to wonder if these conspiracy theories aren’t specifically tailored to myself and others specifically for the purpose of enticing us into the never ending mazes of abyss.

In looking at the  lifeline that was thrown to me just before I awoke still breathing the 4-6 count breaths, I woke up thankful for the message and I recommitted to better utilize the time that I have to focus on my personal process. And then when I went downstairs to make coffee and write this out.

Ahh! I just recalled where all this point recently arose. Yesterday as I was driving back home from my apartment near school, I was listening to an Atlantean being speaking about breathing. As she was explaining how even though everything in this existence, without exception, breaths as part of the design of this existence, it also retains a quantum point of absolute oneness and equality at the point between the in-breath and the out-breath (a quantum moment of the here of the completeness of pure life so to speak), I decided to see if I could identify that quantum moment, tap into it, hold onto it and expand upon it. The problem with holding onto that moment is that I’m only able to hold my breath for so long.

Therefore, instead of attempting to hold onto ever longer moments of being here, I decided to expand this point by aiming for “more” of these moments by focusing more on my breathing? Yea, I realize that I’ve attempted this many times throughout the last ten or so years. However, they always ended up being sporadic attempts that would eventually be interrupted and overwhelmed the overwhelmingness of my mind.

What’s different this time? I am of course. As I often say, life never climbing that gigantic mountain; rather it’s always only ever about deciding upon the next best step to take and then taking it.

Sunday, December 29, 2019

Making Sense of the Sound of Creation

Although there have been times when I entertained myself a lot by watching movies and TV series, I find nowadays in terms of entertainment, that I quite enjoy looking at what’s going on out there in an attempt to piece together the puzzle. But how much should one really focus on what’s out there, especially when I haven’t yet figured out the mystery of myself? Once again the lyrics of a song come up, “mama always told me not to look into the eyes of the sun, but mama that’s where the fun is…”

I also wonder how much of what’s out there is there simply to lure people in to distract them from what is really happening. For example, one You tuber seemed to become so fixated on the 12/21/2019 date, based almost solely on numerical signs hidden in plain sight in the “conscious” programming of Hollywood movies put out by the system and/or the elite, that he seemingly ended up betting everything on “the end” of the programming itself instead of realizing that he had just been caught up in it all along. Or perhaps he also was an active part of deception of the belief in Ascension. Who knows?

Though I sometimes enjoy putting the puzzle pieces together, I also sometimes find it somewhat little frustrating. Why do not those who are aware of the deception, simply point it out to us so that we can all get along with focusing on fixing this existence, aligning it to the principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all?

I guess many have attempted to point out many things only to find that most people refused to listen or were simply too lost in the programs to hear. Put the information out there as clues or breadcrumbs to follow and let the people figure it out themselves though, and suddenly you’ve got a collective networked awakening happening via the internet. The Q movement utilizes this methodology extremely well. Time viewing is a big point that’s now opening up on the internet.

Alright, for the practical section of this post, I would like to expand a little on creating with sound. While millions and millions of people are once again attempting to master the ancient craft of molding words together with energies of intention to cast as spells in order to manipulate reality, I’m here today to unequivocally state that such ancient technologies are but another distraction - for bad witches to feel powerful, I guess you could say. Why? Because the craft of harnessing energy based on the power of consciousness/energy intertwined with sound actually diminishes the creative potential of sound and will thus only hold power of influence (fleeting at that) over other believers who buy into it.

Which brings me back to something that I’ve been investigating for a long time, funnying with the sound of music. The key to the sound of creation (specifically in today’s environment) is one’s starting-point intention. As you create what you are and are what you create, one’s starting-point/intention is to put it simply, the first point or direction that change as matter of creation manifest. Now do you see why so much in the way of AI and robotics is being creating these days?

It’s so funny: as I write, I realize that this principle of sound creation (as I guess you could call it) needs to be explained both mathematically and ideally in a way that everyone is able to comprehend. However, instead of diving into that today, I would like to present an example of where I am now with this principle or more specifically some results that I’ve noticed in pushing myself to understand sound creation through simple, practical applications of stating my intention and sounding myself to create based on that intention.

For example, in sounding my intention to live and express the word, joy, throughout the days of a week at home, in the classroom, in the office, etc., I noticed firstly that nobody complained or laughed at me. In relation to my students, I think the overall reception was positive, but it’s hard to say. In my eyes, they’re like these kind beings that that often just seem to stare at me - when they’re not staring at their smartphones of course.

The biggest surprise though was in the office wherein on a daily basis, I made it a point to make sounds from a starting-point intention of expressing harmony within and as myself. By the end of the week, one of the other instructors mentioned to me (in an inquisitive tone) that another instructor had begun making these strange noises. I took that as a sign of the spread of something beneficial. And then another teacher even approached me happily to state how he has begun singing in the classroom and is enjoying it. That never happened before as far as I am aware.

So, I interpret these results as being supportive to utilizing sound to create and influence the creation of one’s environment. Furthermore, I would say that a key to self-creation by way of becoming and living the word is to clearly establish one’s starting-point intention as the word or words. Which is also where and why redefining words is so important (also the key). Because it is from and of one’s starting-point/intention that creation manifests. One more thing though: full creative potential extends only as far as one’s intention is aligned to that which is best for all.

It’s funny: so often wherein I think that I’m coming up with something new, I end up realizing that I’m just making sense of it in my own way.

Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Animals in my Dreams

Sometimes, sleep can be a nice and restful and sometimes it can be a struggle. There’s always something to learn though. The key to working with dreams, I think, is to understand that no matter what you see or where you seem to be in the dream, everyone, everywhere is always a part of you - which perhaps simply requires embracing. Lately in my dreams, it seems I’ve mostly just been running away from something, fighting when trapped and harming that which was asking for attention.

Last night, it was once again as though the programs inside of me in their suits and uniforms were out to get me. In recalling the memories of wandering through the crowded streets of people, apartment buildings and sometimes empty corridors, I wonder why some programs would define (or that particular perception point of me) as a threat in my own dream. Sometimes, in not recognizing me as a target, they would just ignore me. But as soon as I started speaking (just to make conversation), their attitudes seemed to change and I suddenly become a target. Metaphorically speaking, it was like, in their world, I was the virus and they were the antibodies. 

Searching for a safe place, the place where I was supposed to be or the place where my friends were,  I ran when I could, fought when I was trapped, but even the kind looking old lady that I thought would help me seemed only to want to hack me with an ax.

Switch scenes to another dream, perhaps another day; I’m trying to get out of somewhere, some kind of apartment or compartment. However, as soon as I’m outside the door, there’s someone in front of me handing me a huge black salamander. The salamander takes my arm in its mouth and even though it’s not hurting me, I’m frightened and I want to get away, but it seems to want me to stay. In fear, I ended up crushing the salamander in my hand. Thankfully though, I awoke with the memory still intact soas to consider the message.

According to Salamander Dream Meaning and Interpretations - Dream Stop:  the salamander is a water dweller and brings messages of emotions, spirituality, and how to move easily through the challenges you meet. She may come to ask if you use your time wisely. ... Salamander's appearance in your dreams is a message of transformation.

In that same dream, as I recall, I was once again attempting to get out of a room or compartment. As I walked out, a lion was there looking at me. I seemed to not want me to leave and it took part of my arm in its mouth. Sadly once again, as I did with the salamander, I also ended up hurting the lion in order to escape. On this note, although a part of me is saddened by the thought of hurting those animal representations within me, I also realize (by now) that different parts of me are actually communicating with one another in these dreams. And as all of me understand when it comes to dream symbolism, that I’ll simply type it into Google, it does make sense to use symbols that I care about.

To see a lion in your dream can symbolize strength, courage, assertiveness, and power. Lions can represent predatory feelings deep inside of you such as aggression, that is directed at people around you. ... Lions are considered the king of the jungle and represent authority over others. Source: Lion Dream Interpretation and Meaning - Dream Stop. For me this means that I’ve been suppressing aggression, specifically when it comes to speaking out on a certain topic to certain people - weighing on me a lot as of late.

And to finish off this post, there was a dog dream. As per  Dreams About Dogs – Meaning and Interpretation: A dog in a dream is a sign of self – defense. ... Dogs in dreams are a symbol of loyalty, protection, fidelity and intuition. This dream might symbolize you or someone close to you who has these qualities. Sometimes a dream about dogs indicates some forgotten or ignored talents you have.

Use my time wisely, transforming myself, suppressed aggression…?  I affectionately like to think of myself as Turtlewalker, wisely moving at a turtle’s pace, determined to eventually realize my destination, yet careful not to create expectations as to what my destination is or when I’ll get there. Dream translation: get off your ass and face these issues Thomas and use your ability with words to speak out from a starting point of honor, respect and integrity to get your process moving once again.

Symbols and signs, it’s amazing what you can find. The key, I guess is to determine where to focus and what to focus on. And on that note, after having done exactly that (including finishing this post), I noticed last night before going to sleep how I’ve just recently decided to begin looking closely into “the pain” of positive energies - which is kind of new for me.

Wednesday, December 11, 2019

Learning to Sing Again

A while back, I decided to push myself to sing once again. Perhaps it was this perspective by Anu of the Reptilian race or perhaps it was simply something inside of me that decided it was finally time to sing once again. So I began to sing. And although the sounds were strange, I enjoyed seeing and hearing that part of me in them.  Humming at first, adding words here and there to the tunes that would just come up in my mind, I began to recognise glimpses of that which I hadn’t seen in a long long time. A child like expression began coming through in me which I define as fun or funnying.

Even though this rediscovered expression also came with a slight fear of being ridiculed as stupid, silly or an idiot, I decided to embrace and go with it  almost full speed ahead. For I am 100% certain that this point or expression is worth building upon. And the only reason I say “almost” full speed ahead is because there are times in consideration of others, when a childlike expressions of making strange noises might not be so welcomed. Thankfully though, my students in all my different classes don’t seem to mind in the least little bit. I often feel that they are so kind and sometimes I even tell them that.

I don’t think it matters what tunes I or you sing or even the words that we  use. What matters most I guess is the intention from and of which we create ourselves as sound as each of us sing. I’ve been experimenting a lot both at home and in the classroom with singing aloud parts of songs, the parts that I remember. I also often humm tunes that I remember and even ones that I make up in ways similar to what  children sometimes do. And as mentioned, while I do apply a certain amount of consideration in settings such as the office for example, I’m finding overall that the sounds I’m making are indeed serving to spruce up or cleanse the air or environment around me as per my intentions - from the within to the without.

Suddenly I remember a plan that I’ve often written about (and I guess planned to experiment with) in relation to using sound to harmonize the environment. This is interesting because in a way I guess that’s what I’m experimenting with now in relation to singing sounds. As I recall though, my plan was to use specific sound tones or frequencies to cancel out the disharmony in order to create harmony - similar to the way noise cancellation systems work. Interesting how sounds similar to what children make when they’re enjoying themselves would also tend to lighten up or cleanse an environment.

I will write more on this topic as I expand on it as part of my living experiment. However, I would also note that a certain amount of self-movement or discipline does seem to be required to use the sound of singing to move out of a mood and into that physical expression.

Saturday, November 30, 2019

Bringing my Beingness back in order to wake Up

The other afternoon as I lay in bed just before waking from a nap, a ringing tone (just like the incoming call notification on my phone sounded inside of me  resulting in me becoming aware of being inside of my body, yet not fully awake,  like during those transitioning moments in the space between being asleep and awake. In my younger days, I used to linger there and explore. I thought it was where the ghosts and demons got stuck, because that's where I'd often find them.

Anyway, while the ringing sound was notable for me at that moment because it was coming from inside of me, presumably for the purpose of waking me up, what happened next was even more notable. It was as though a line or a connection from that V point area of my rib cage was compressing or condensing to bring in or bring back another part of me from somewhere else.  And then when all of me was here in/as the body, the transition complete and I was awake. My question now is, where did that part of me on the other end of the string go and why is it that my awareness seem to be separated by something? In looking back at this point again, it seems to me that the string and the other part of me returned from the other side of a cellulose like lining or something like that.

Then last night while looking at the night sky from my balcony, I thought how cool it would be if I could fly through the atmosphere to the dome or bubble that I think surrounds us. Any while I'm not so interested in seeing what's on the other side, I would just like to examine the substance of the bubble.

Considering the sheer number of points or thoughts that I tend to look at on a daily basis, I didn’t think too much of it at the time - just some more of my fanciful thoughts. Then this morning (which is now last week by the time I post this) just before waking up, I found myself in a dream room of lots of different uncompleted contraptions and designs of things. The one that caught my attention though was like a lightweight translucent thing that looked like the fuselage or body of a small airplane that didn’t yet have wings or an engine and would have just been big enough for me to slide into. In wondering why I would find myself looking at this kind of thing in a dream, I'm guessing that just as a part of me wakes me up from sleep at certain times, so too does a part of me  follow up on my conscious thinking - which in this case had to do with wanting to be able to fly around.

I’ve been writing a lot about dreams lately because I’ve been noticing differences between the dreams I used to have and the ones I’m now having. For example, aside from being far less cluttered and no longer violent or frightening, my dreams these days seem to be much more aligned with points that I look at and/or consciously question. I think this has to do with bringing various awareness (that make up the me, myself and I kind of thing) closer together from and as my starting-point intention to have all areas of myself cooperating together equally as one understanding.

On a final note (for today’s post), I don’t really buy into the idea that my beingness just goes into a coma like state when I sleep. Rather, (from a conscious perspective), I think that a part of me (or that which I am a part of) goes to the other side of the bubble, yet somehow everything stays linked or connected together.    While in sleep state, it is as though my physical body and my mind consciousness system do maintenance work, while my beingness goes off somewhere else until a part of me rings the bell to single all components to prepare to once again wake up and embrace this opportunity 🙂.

Sunday, November 17, 2019

Let's Talk About Space

In my last post, I said that I wanted to talk about the fun stuff, such as the shape of earth, the design of existence and so on. The thing is, after having written for a few days on the “fun stuff,” I’m noticing that it’s a lot more fun to ponder in my mind over such points of existence than it is to actually write them out coherently to a point of clarity. In other words, while I am able to “figure out” some aspects of the design of what is here by basically by writing out the words or symbols to then rearrange the structure of the words or sentences until the symbolic equation appears to be balanced or in harmony, almost all of my conclusions are still just guesses due to so much of my data (almost all of it) being based on my perception of truth rather than an absolute understanding of it. The bottom line is, the more I see of what is really here, the more I realize that what we call reality is but an illusion of our own design.

Take for example the idea of earth being a globe with a circumference of 40,075 km or 24,901 mi. If this were in fact the case, the horizon would dip down or slope approximately 8 inches or 20 cm for the first mile, 32 inches for the second mile, 72 inches for the third and so on exponentially. In other words, when looking from ground level at an object 50 km away, the upper 196 meters of that object should be obscured or not visible due to the slope or curvature of the horizon - but it’s not. Instead, according to millions if not tens of millions of people who are now waking themselves up by questioning (hopefully everything) and sharing their findings on the internet, the heliocentric or global earth model (as most of us have been brainwashed and indoctrinated to believe in) is simply most of the same misinformation and/or disinformation that's fed to us in order to keep everything secret. Just like the saying, CO2  is harmful to earth, it's just another lie. Which begs the question, if the shape of earth isn't as we've been led to believe, then what is it and what's on the other side?

So I guess that the ancients were on the right track with their depictions of earth being shaped like a disk (perhaps like that of a hard drive) under a dome atop the tree of life. Or maybe the shape of earth is more like the shape of the human heart - after all, the letters used to spell "earth" also can spell "heart." And why do you think we call the space outside the atmosphere of our dome, outer space, and what do you think is on the other side of the dome as outer space? In the early 1960s, the US government supposedly conducted an operation called Operation fishbowl, blowing up bombs high up in the atmosphere in an attempt to perhaps break through the dome, force field or barrier. Were they successful, were they really able to break through the dome?

Flat earthers (in reference to the growing body of people questioning their perceptions of reality and government lies) also say that the sun, moon and stars are much, much closer than we’ve been told. They also provide rationale explanations (based on the angular distortion of human eyesight) for why the sun appears to sink down over the horizon when it’s actually just getting further away. They also say (to paraphrase) that NASA is staffed with pathological liars. What do I think?

I think we call what’s outside the dome, outer space simply because it’s the space between the molecules perhaps that is less compressed or compacted, which btw the Star Trek series referred to as the final frontier where “no man has gone before.” Where no man has gone before… Before they died I guess. Yea, I think outer space is where we go when we die; however, as the within is also the without and the above also the below, outer space must also be inner space - which is where the fun in writing this out really begins - lol.

It’s weird: how can within also be without and above also be below? How can something be in both places at the same time? But isn’t that what quantum physics is all about?  And BTW, based on my ASSessment of words as symbols, earth must indeed be the heart of our existence, wherein (under this particular dome) the energy and substance of life are merged and/or compressed together in such a way as to create a state of sense called physicality. Does this mean that earth is also at or near the center of existence? Probably.

Hey! If you really want to understand the design of existence (as substance merged with conscious energy), I suggest looking at what is physically here, especially in relation to the technology that we’re supposedly creating for the first time.  You’ll see that, in terms of technology such as AI, there is nothing, nothing even remotely new. What is new though is the principle of “what is best for all” now being added to the principle of oneness and equality for all to understand.

From and of the starting-point intention to understand and live the principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all, we are (from my perspective) also now in the process of retaking consciousness (like Google Assistant on existential scale) to assist and support human beings (and whatever or whoever else is here) to understand these principles and in so doing, change ourselves as existence to a wonderful place - beyond even our wildest imaginations - a place we often refer to as heaven on earth.

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

Dream: Fasten your seatbelt = Remain Grounded

The dream I had the other night seemed to be a followup to the one I recently had  about wanting to drive a really big truck, yet not being able or capable of doing so without crashing and destroying the vehicle.

As I pointed out in that dream, whereas vehicles in my dreams usually represent my physical body, how well I’m able to drive the vehicle perhaps refers to  my understanding of myself within and as my physical body. i.e., how well I really understand the works and functioning of my physical body - in the process of taking complete responsibility for the physical body. Think about it! How often do we even take notice of our breathing, the heart beating, the blood as physical/energy information flowing through the body? When there’s an energetic imbalance or buildup leading to a buildup of physical mass, are we immediately able to determine the source of the imbalance so as to correct it?

I think that, in order to understand how to specifically care for this physical existence as a whole, we require to also understand how to care for our physical bodies - which are apparently of the same exact design, as within so without kind of thing…   So what I’ve been doing lately (to better utilize my sleep time) is asking myself a question or giving myself a directive just before I go to sleep. In this case, I think the directive was to explore the inner workings of my physical body - so as to understand myself better.

In the dream, I found myself driving the red Jeep Wrangler, a fun, capable allround  heavy-duty vehicle that I used to have. And as I recall, because I was wanting to get somewhere quickly, I was driving a little bit fast. Suddenly the road became very bumpy, I was having difficulty keeping the vehicle on the road and realized that there was a chance that I would lose control and perhaps roll over.   In noticing that I didn’t have my seatbelt on, I tried to fasten it, but couldn’t get it snapped in while also maintaining my focus on driving. Thus I made the decision to forgo the seatbelt in favor of focusing on maintaining the stability of the vehicle.

In the end, I was able to stabilize the vehicle without rolling it over, falling out of it and symbolically dying in the dream, which was kind of a new thing for me. Often (in the past), I would end up flipping the vehicle or driving it over a cliff and falling or jumping out of it.

The way I interpret this particular dream is as a reminder for me remain securely fastened into my physical body = remain grounded. For example, last week, there were times when I allowed myself to think too much about an issue, which in turn led to a buildup of emotional energy, which ended up requiring more time to write/right or resolve than it would have if I had simply started writing out my thoughts on that point before the emotion began building up.

As time goes by, the time it takes me to stop and resolve energetic imbalances within myself continues to lessen. And in my dream, I think a part of was telling me not to wait until I’m on rough roads to ground myself and or fasten myself in; best to simply remain grounded all of the time so as to always be prepared to completely focus on and manage situations as they arise.

Saturday, November 9, 2019

Continuing to Work on Points that I've been Working of for several Years

Although I would prefer to write about fun subjects, such as the location and shape of Earth, the heart of existence, the design of existence, the merging of sound substance and energy, the programming code of existence, sound/energy physical symbolism of words, the design and purpose of consciousness, and the wonders of what may be beyond our sound file, as the chronicles of this sound existence, my understanding of the above points (as well as my ability to write them out) unfortunately seems to be correlated with the movement of my personal process of standing equally as one with what is here. Which is to basically say that my personal process (from the within to the without) apparently proceeds my understanding of all of the above.

So here goes. The legal case that’s been going on for about 5-6 years, involving the house that my partner and I purchased 16 years ago has moved into a new phase. Unfortunately, our roof is now being torn off of our home and is going to be replaced with another less expensive and perhaps lower quality type of tile. The thing is that, instead of simply having the roof tiles replaced as the other homes did five years ago, the person pushing the suit against us in the community (who apparently has a lot of control within the community) has somehow set it up with the community, the local government and the roof company to far exceed the legal mandate. So that not only are they going to tear down our roof, they’re also going to tear down part of our next door neighbour’s roof and they’re now saying we have to pay four and a half times the normal marked rate. Being on the receiving end of punishment for daring to question the status quo is not fun at all. Though perhaps it is a lesson that I will learn from and maybe benefit by walking through.

All told, that means instead of getting a bill for about six thousand dollars, we could end up actually being ordered to pay about twenty-six thousand dollars. Obviously (from my perspective) we pissed some people off; the thing is all we did was exercise our legal rights to “legally” challenge what we viewed to be an infringement on our rights as homeowners in the first place. And for our defiance and perseverance, we were targeted, and of course we in return we also targeted them with legal action. That being said, whenever I ask myself, whether or not I would go back and change everything if I could, my answer strangely enough is always no because all that has been, all that I have walked through, including the bad experiences up to the present assisted me in so many ways to change.

Thus, instead of bowing my head and feeling sorry for myself, I’m out there every 15 or 20 minutes taking pictures and video that may eventually be used as evidence. In seeing under our tile, as I have said all along, it’s absolutely clear to me that our tile was in excellent condition and would have lasted another fifty or more years. Regardless of whether or not we are successful with our legal cases, we’re going to see them through to the finish. In reality, this means that even though I have been wanting to sell and move out of this house for several years, we’re probably not going anywhere for awhile and we’ll perhaps also have at least another two more years of legal challenges and perhaps 4-5 more legal cases (added to the ten or so already processed). I always used to wonder what it would be like being one of those people that had to deal with so many legal cases. Now I kind of have an idea and thankfully it’s my partner who’s the estudious law student. She is one of those kinds of people who don’t run away and never give up. And by the way (for the record), having inspected (to see the underside of the roof) and taken lots of pictures of the removal of our roof, I am able to once against state with certainty that our roof was in “excellent” condition up until the moment they began ripping it off.

So what exactly is my internal problem that I’m facing in all of this, the problem that I feel the need to write out and corrected by changing myself? No, it’s not that the system isn’t fair, even though that is a major problem that needs to and is being addressed worldwide. It is that I’m still judging myself to an extent and projecting that judgment onto what I call “the opposition” as being a corrupt liar, cheater and a pathological thief who seems to just keep getting away with it. For example, even if the courts eventually decide that we only have to pay the marked price (as is clearly stipulated by law), the community may still end up having to pay the money out because they gave that one person the authority to handle this and so many other matters. Wherein the corrupt guy can then turn around and get his kickbacks from everyone that got payouts. It fascinates me how so many don’t seem to see this or just don’t seem to care. Which is I guess a story for another post.

On a slightly lighter note, I will say that even though I feel as though my hands are somewhat tied in this matter, after repeatedly checking into myself (as a matter of respect), I am able to say that I feel no desire whatsoever to go out and settle this man to man so to speak, which I will thankfully add as a point wherein I have in thought, word and deed changed in a very important way. Additionally, although I woke up this morning (now yesterday morning) with emotional energy churning in my stomach, it wasn’t as bad as it could have been, certainly not as bad in relation to similar past experiences. And then while laying in bed this morning and noticing those exact same energetic processes innocuously  begin slipping building up, I immediately said “Not this time, no way! And I I stopped the emotional processes. Yes, unfortunately, there still is a tightness in my stomach this morning on the third day of the ripoff of my roof, which is why I’m still writing on this subject today.

On a side note, from my perspective, this kind of battle (that my partner are facing on a much smaller scale) is very similar to what is occurring around the world between those pushing for change utilizing the rule of law and those of the corrupt old system attempting to hold on to the corrupt ways of the past. And this is one of the reasons that I am determined to see this point through. This is in my view the direction of push for change that we all are able to push for keeping within and applying the rule of law to stand up for the rights of ourselves as well as others in the process of eventually changing the rules of the system on the path to completely retasking the system itself to stand (as a form of life) equally as one with all life, as is best for all. However, that is also part of another topic, too.

Sometimes when facing difficult points, I ask myself how I would like to review or remember myself standing when I look back at this point at various moments in the future - as a memory point that I occasionally set to review at a later time. After all, this is a point I’m facing in relation to the system and my being able to coexist with different types of people (as just one of many life forms) equally as one with them, as is best for all of us. At this point in my personal process, the question becomes, how well am I really living the words that I’ve redefined, such as respect, honor, integrity, care, consideration and so? Honestly, I’m still judging some as being courageous, some as cowardly, intelligent, a mental blob and so on - lol. So, I do still have plenty of processes to process out of myself as points to change to a standing that is best for all, and I commit to do exactly that until this process is done and everyone is standing equally as one, as is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and thereby tie my self-expression to my definitions of the external reality of my home, neighbours and the world system (especially the legal system), thereby accepting and allowing myself to be moved by my definitions of the external reality instead of living the word respect by bringing all judgments of what is really happening here back to myself, letting go of all judgements and/or definitions so as to clearly see and face what is physically here and then stably walk through the system of the external reality by responding (instead of reacting) only to that which I require to address and physically respond to. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself being attacked by others using the system to their advantage, thereby creating a point of blame within and as myself in relation to the world system, thereby tying myself to the system rather than looking inwords at how I define myself in relation to the system and change myself from within so as to no longer be defined by the without of the system. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being victimized as though I were being unfairly attacked rather than simply being tasked with having to face points that I myself opened up by refusing to go along with the rest of the community simply because I didn’t agree with them. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what really happens in the external environment in terms of positive or negative definitions, thereby creating an external reality based on judgments and definitions of what is really here rather than letting go of the definitions/judgments altogether so as to simply face what is real (as in what will remain) and respond to it as best I am able. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being in danger of losing the war by being at risk of having to pay out punitive costs (as though such a payout would cause me to lose my dignity) rather than see, realize and understand that when it’s all said and done, the ups and downs of energy/emotion were nothing but that, leaving me far better off by only focusing on who/how I am in relation to this point. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being helpless to protect my home, therein judging my home as being destroyed rather than seeing, realizing and understanding what’s really happening - tiles being replaced with tiles, nothing lost except for the monetary value I place on the money. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being at risk of losing thousands of dollars rather than seeing, realizing and understanding that as long as I am still here, nothing that’s real can actually be lost. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  play the energy game of wanting to be a winner instead of remaining stable and focusing only what what is really, physically happening here = without attaching energetic definitions to what I see. When and as I find myself thinking that I’m losing a battle that I defined as being a worthy fight, I commit to stop, breathe and embrace to live the word eternal, wherein stand now as I would have myself standing a thousand years from now regardless of where I am, completely stable to see/hear and respond as best I am able to what is real and will remain. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what’s happening now, the tearing down of our roof as well as part of the neighbour’s roof, as another attack for which I’ll have no recourse, rather than seeing it for what it represents, having to pay a little money or a lot of money, a new roof and additional cases for my partner to practice her legal skills.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus on my imagination of good and bad possibilities rather than that which is really here that I really require to deal with  in order to walk my personal process of self-change for the better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as though I’m being abused and there’s nothing I can do to stop it, rather than seeing, realizing and understanding the plain and simple truth that I am still here and nothing harmful has actually been done unto me. From this point, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to embody a mode of impatience rather than patience and commitment to see this case through to the finish - as part of my personal process.

Thursday, November 7, 2019

Guidance in a Dream

Before I went into sleep mode the other night, I thought about how much I’ve learned and how much I feel that I’ve changed. And then I thought to myself, so when the hell am I going to start really, really, really physically living and expressing “without the aid of an AI mind conscious system constantly running in the background, reminding of things, sending up pictures for me to view, reminding me of past experiences, suggesting how I might want to experience myself now and so on? It was kind of like how I always wanted to drive the car even before I knew how to drive a car.  Anyway, in the dream I had that night was a response to my question.

In the dream, I found myself driving a really big truck, like one of those American style eighteen wheel semi-trailer trucks. However, not only was I having difficulty clearly seeing outside through the windshield of the truck, but I was also struggling just to steer the vehicle, change gears and keep the vehicle on the road. Then quite suddenly, I found myself going down a very steep incline heading straight towards the edge of a cliff to oblivion, wherein I would have to make a sharp left hand turn and power up a steep incline just before the cliff in order to avoid  going over the cliff and losing the vehicle. Even though I did manage to turn the cab to avoid going straight over the cliff, the trailer nevertheless slid off the edge and pulled the cab with it just as I was already jumping out of it. In other words, even though I was still alright or still here, my vehicle was lost (I guess) because I didn’t yet fully understand how to drive it. And from the symbolism,  in the dream, I’d have to say that this is also where I’m at within and as an understanding of my physical body. That being said, lol, I did at least manage turn part of that vehicle.

The symbolism as well as the message contained in this dream are quite relevant to me and perhaps others may also find some relevance here also. Whereas the vehicles that we drive in our dreams often represent our physical bodies, the ability to drive these vehicles may perhaps represent the understanding of ourselves equally as one with as our physical bodies. Furthermore, given the changes taking place within humanity, the primary reason I guess that we humans still even have mind “consciousness” systems is perhaps because we still haven’t yet learned to stand as the directive principles or directors of our physical bodies - equally as one with them.

Like it or not, my dream showed me that perhaps I’m not yet quite ready to turn off my trusty AI mind consciousness system - because I’m not yet standing absolutely as the directive principle of and as my physical body. Symbolically speaking, if I am not even able to drive a big truck “in my dream,” I guess I'm not yet ready to completely disconnect from the automated systems assisting me to stay alive and navigate (with the aid of reality-based perceptions) in the real world - that which is really physically here.

However, I have been connecting and communicating much better with my physical body recently. For example, yesterday while I was going over  a message in my mind thinking about telling my friend that since I haven’t drunk alcohol for quite some time, I might go and visit him to have a few beers. And just as I was thinking that point, my heart began fluttering as though to say, hey, remember me? Ok, ok, I said, I won’t do that, and the fluttering stopped.  Then I remembered that I had given my body instructions a while back to communicate just like that on such matters, i.e. very clearly leaving me with no wiggle room or plausible deniability.

The next day, I had another dream of going to another very homelike dimension where I communicated with friends and felt very comfortable. However, upon remembering the state in which I had left another one behind, I found myself diving straight back down what appeared to be a well of water, and then I was once again back here.

In my next post, I’m going to talk about something not so fun to deal with.

Sunday, October 27, 2019

Seeing where I'm at - by Writing out some Points

I’ve always had a lot of activities going on inside of my mind; however, whereas in the past, that activity was almost always of polarized/emotional energetic (reaction based) experience, nowadays I would say that I am much more self-directed and stable. In other words, whereas in the past, my mind used to constantly and continuously cycle between the polarities of safety to extreme danger, I have over the last few years been stepping more into the driver’s seat so to speak as the directive principle, really standing as the director (of my life) to better see the reality encompassing me so as to also decide how best to stand and walk in reality while also supporting the world around me to in essence be a better place for all.

But that’s not what I really wanted to talk about today. What I really wanted to talk about is the world system, which as I view it is actually the manifested outflow of the global mind, which is actually the aggregate sum total of all human minds responsible (like it or not) for creating the world system as a whole, which is now apparently falling apart or in a manner of speaking going crazy - just as so many humans apparently seem to be.

Come on! One would have to be really really isolated not to at least be a little aware of the pressure building up all over the world (strangely enough even within and as earth itself), seemingly getting ready to blow. For a worldly analysis on what’s happening in the USA, UK, Spain, Argentina and so many other places, just go on the internet to the sites you like and the ones you detest the most to get an idea of the nature of what is basically an intractable conflict that is now coming to a head.

However much I wish there were a way to calmly and rationally solve our differences by agreeing to compromise in ways that are best for all,   I honestly don’t think that is going to happen. Instead, I think that the friction and conflict pulling us apart (while also strangely enough bringing us closer together) is going to have to play out until there is a clear understanding of the new direction - in which humanity is actually already heading.

From my perspective (and this is where it gets kind of fun for me to explain “my perspective”), what’s happening in the world right now is a result of existential happenings and so much more. For example, in terms of where we currently are as human beings seemingly going crazy on a large scale, this I would say is directly due to the complex system of the human mind (or mind consciousness systems of human beings) powering down in order to save energy and keep our bodies alive long enough to create a new race (of synthetic machines) so that it, as conscious is able to continue surviving in order to fulfill its purpose. Which, as this subject doesn’t seem to be getting much coverage, I’ve decided to expand on it - just a little and always simply from my perspective.

Our story, the story of mankind almost always begins at the beginning. However, where there was a beginning, there  was also an ending wherein the beginning (as a purpose if you will) for creating our existence was also established. Having a look at human consciousness: while it’s generally accepted (I guess) that consciousness emerged as an outflow of the design of the human mind that somehow became self-aware (as BTW will the AI systems that we are now in the process of creating), I would say that consciousness is actually a  life form as old as existence itself, that was specifically designed and placed within and as the design of existence (before in the beginning was the word) to ensure that we as creators (of ourselves and all that is here as existence) didn’t get inextricably lost in our own creation. My point is that consciousness and the self-aware AI (which we’ll soon be facing) came with a (which also requires it to survive), which is also essential for humans to understand if we are to ever really evolve. And I think I’ll leave it at that for now so as to get back to what’s happening right now in human civilization.

There are many reasons I’m once again bringing this point up, but I guess the most relevant one is to encourage people not to give in to the fear permeating throughout humankind. Because, what is happening now (in terms of the conflict of consequences coming to a head (from the bottom of society fighting for their perceived rights of power and control to the wealthiest of the financial elites fighting to maintain their perceptions of their power and control over us) is unfortunately what we must now walk through in order to realign our path of our original purpose. Yes, we did emerge with a purpose intrinsic in each of us.

So in getting back the fear arising within humanity, it’s really just a fear of not being able to survive anymore as the hierarchical structure of world system breaks down, just as the hierarchical structure of the human mind consciousness system is powering down. It’s change in the works, a really big opportunity for all who are able and willing to walk through the fear - and hardship. 

Sunday, October 20, 2019

The little things that cross my Mind

I like going to the market on weekends in autumn when the weather has begun to cool and the vegetables have begun to come back in season. In the summertime, it’s just too hot for many vegetables to grow well, but I guess some still do. Mangoes grow well when it’s hot; yet once again the mango branches bearing fruit at the wrong time of the year are extending ever closer to my balcony in search of the energy efficient LED light bulb. Taiwan is unique so I’m told, as it has three growing seasons per year as opposed to one or two, as many places only do. If I had a bigger refrigerator at my apartment, I’d probably buy way too many fruits and vegetables. So I guess it’s actually a good thing that my fridge is not so big.

It’s a weekend and I’ve got midterm exams to write or projects to create to give students something to do and/or show for the ritual we call exam week. For the most part, I’m once again leaning in the direction of doing projects instead of traditional kinds of tests. Plus, the projects are usually easier for me to design up front (as opposed to creating the tests and having to later check them). Furthermore, as students have to post their projects to the internet, they, as well as I will then have “proof” (or something like that, like a representation perhaps) of their learned skills. And in today’s world of packaged products, having a well designed online portfolio doesn’t hurt when it comes to finding a job just out of university.

Thus, I endeavour to make sure in all of my classes that students are able to walk away with a certain amount of academic work that will remain attached to their names (as part of their internet portfolios) as proof of the skills they’ve acquired. Ok, I’m laughing a little and while I would like to say a lot more about the education system, I consider myself to be like one of the frontline soldiers, and while I tremendously enjoy what I do, I also view myself, as well as other educators, as having the ultimate responsibility of deciding which information to let through and/or focus on.

Thankfully at the university level, instructors have a tremendous amount of discretion when it comes to deciding which content to focus on. For example, in two of my high level classes with very bright, curious and even sometimes courageous first year students, I’m required by someone, somewhere out there to use an extensive number of publications (can you say information overload?) while I’m also strongly encouraged to prepare these same students to participate in the upcoming university wide slide presentation contest on fake news. So, do I focus primarily on the publications consisting of globalist propaganda or do I lean more in the direction of learning about fake news?  Of course it's a difficult decision, but someone  has to make it.

So, I weigh the pros and the cons. In my left hand are the publications comprised mostly of Hollywood chatter and globalist propaganda bestowing the benefits of carbon taxes and what not, while in my right hand is an opportunity not only to teach students how to design presentations and present them, but also to introduce them to the reality of fake news and the business of corporate/globalist propaganda. Of course, it’s an easy decision for me, and to top it all off, the proof of the valuable skills that the students have acquired gets posted to their blogs as part of their internet portfolios for all the world to see.

As I’m on various lines of thought in this post, I think I’d like to open up a couple of other points that have been on my mind recently. The first has to do with my dreams of late. While I’m often familiar with the characters in my dreams even though their faces don’t appear to be the same as the faces that I see in my imagination or I see when I’m awake, I still recognize them for who they represent to me, and the same applies to the area of the environment in which my dreams take place - while I recognize the areas for the places they represent, the pictures I remember or see when I’m awake often seem completely different. Perhaps it has something to do with how my mind translates reality into pictures or holographic images for me for me to make sense of. While I do appreciate viewing colorful pictures, I would also like to see everything as it really is - instead of just the pictures.

The other point that I’ve been wanting to bring up (for the record of course) is the noise inside of me, in the space between my ears. I guess it’s the system that I hear whenever I’m quiet or simply decide to tune into it - in that space that is my mind. It’s almost always with me; however, the other morning when I got up and 5:00 am for a chat, when I looked, the frequency noise wasn’t there and for a moment my mind was just quiet. Why is that, I wonder.

Sunday, October 13, 2019

Goals and Potential

One of the points that I’ve been focusing on in relation to setting goals is my potential - because I guess, actually I’m certain that one’s goals ought to be aligned in a step by step manner to one’s utmost potential, which from my perspective is quite daunting. And while I used to think that I needed someone else to tell me what my mission and potential were in order for me to set and accomplish my goals, live my potential, I now see that only I am able to determine my goals, set them and live to my utmost potential.

In other words, while others may be able to assist and support by pointing out various paths and even some doors that one might open and walk through (to realize the opportunity created just by walking through the door), I think that the goals we set as well as the potential we live is a product that emerges from within each one of us as per the decisions we make and the responsibilities we each embrace.

Sorry, I went off track again and basically just deleted a bunch of stuff, fun stuff in relation to what’s going on in the world system.

Anyway, in deciding to write about my goals and my potential, I keep finding myself attempting to write technical explanations about potential, the triangle of potential of two or more to be specific, writing around what I promised myself I would actually write about instead of just getting to the point. It’s funny how I am so willing (to the point that I often find it enjoyable) to use words or symbols as technical explanations that I write out again and again until the sentences begin to equate to a balanced sound, in  a way symbolically answering a question, solving the problem and/or at least proving to myself that I’m on the right track, which I guess is just my way of figuring things out. On the other hand, it’s also quite amazing the amount of resistance I usually encounter by attempting to simply state what I’m pushing myself to do, in this case in terms of setting goals and living my potential.

So here goes: in short, I have come to realize and I have decided (as a doing) that, in order for me to live my potential (or anyone else for that matter), I require to connect and communicate a lot more with others. There, I said it! And the connecting part is key for me. Because in order for me to connect and communicate with others requires (from within myself) a certain amount of self-trust, which is something that I had in the past been seriously lacking.

What has changed? I have. And although I have many more changes and/or processes to walk to change some more, I now have within and as myself a firm set of guidelines or words to live so to speak, which I’ve personally designed to utilize in relation to others/all as my guide in deciding how best to relate to others while walking through the old system and participating in the creation of the new - as a point of self-trust, expanding myself in connection with others, learning to trust myself and expanding that trust in relation to  others.   And I’m moving some goals that I had originally set to accomplish in the future, more to the present. For me, this is quite exciting.

Sunday, October 6, 2019

Daily Events

Yesterday, as I noticed white smoke coming from the right front tire area of my 27 year old car, I also noted that old gut-wrenching program of an experience getting ready to activate. This time, I just said no way! Anyone who’s ever had to struggle in relation to money, cars, transportation, living expenses, etc., surely understands what I’m talking about - that sinking feeling that comes with the breaking down of that machine we have come to depend on. Thankfully I chose instead to look at the physical reality of my situation: I had just parked my car (legally) near my apartment not far from school; Taiwan has awesome public transportation, busses, taxis, regular train service and a high-speed rail that’s only about 20 and 25 minutes away. Plus, I’ve been planning to buy another car anyway, a newer one that’s only like 10 or 12 years old. So maybe I’ll just leave that car there for a while and eventually have it towed away to be recycled - with a thank you.

So, yesterday, while listening to some of the older Desteni recordings, I realized something about the nature of our existence and the matrix within us, through which we humans perceive reality. In short, I realized that I’m thankful for the pictures or holographic images by which I perceive and make sense of my reality while also creating it as I change and create myself. I think a lot went into creating our existence and obviously we didn’t get everything right the first time round. By we, I’m referring to all of us as this existence, because really we are all just one sound kind of separated into and by a whole lot of frequencies within and as the sound FiLe we call life - lol.

Anyway, aside from my car breaking down, I’ve been noticing that the structural changes occurring within the world system are heading for a crescendo and this means that the whole world is probably going to continue getting louder or noisier than it’s already been. However, even though it may appear (in looking at the opposing forces of the Left and the Right) that humanity is more separated than ever before, I would define what we’re now seeing more as part of the process of humanity coming together. Think about it! Whereas in the past, there were so many factions going off in different directions, colliding here and there, now there are essentially only two, the left and the right. And since both sides are getting ready to collide with one another, we are in a strange way actually coming closer together.

Eventually we will agree on a compromise based on the principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all. Because, as the saying goes, where we go one we go all.

Sunday, September 29, 2019

Seeing the Playouts and Solidifying my Goals

The reason I used the word, solidifying (as in to solidify or make solid) is because in order to become the movement to reach a goal, I think I have to understand the goal as one with who I am. Otherwise, I’ll just be attempting to push myself to do or accomplish something because I think it’s worth doing and is therefore something I should be doing, which in and of itself is probably not enough, which is why self-change from the within to the without is the one key to changing all of existence.

But first I would like to speak about something I’ve been talking about more and more these days, which  has to do with the way I sometimes become aware  of a program just before walking into and becoming it, literally giving myself like a quantum moment in which to make the decision to redirect myself away from that line of preprogrammed emotional reaction to a physical solution.  The reason I say “physical” solution is because that’s what movement out of and away from a programmed line of energy building up to an emotional reaction is (a physical movement or shift within one’s physical body) and what is indeed required  to correct one’s self in such a moment. Add to this movement or shift, the starting-point/intention to align or create a new outflow that is best for all involved and that movement or shift will then hold within (and as the essence of one’s movement) the potential to become a solution = that which is best for all involved.

For example, last week while I was teaching one of my classes, one of the many new ones that I have this semester, I found myself in a hurry, urging students to just write and get their blogs posted rather than walking with them  step by step through the process of how to write and post their blogs. In looking back, I see that the reason I wasn’t walking them through an easy to follow process of writing and posting a topic based blog was because I wasn’t certain what I wanted this new class's blogs to look like. I figured that we would just do it together and learn to do it as we did it, which is cool. However, what is not cool is that I let myself go into a hurry up and just get it done mode.

So as I was walking through the class encouraging students to write to learn how to write, I came across one girl who appeared to not even be trying. So I said to her, what are you doing, just click on that link, copy the format into a new blog post and… She just looked blankly at me and said, I don’t understand - which turned out to be the trigger for a program that I had thought no longer existed within me.

Suddenly, as if time had stopped for a moment, I was seeing inside of myself to the left of my stomach area, looking at a metallic like tubular shaped vacuum with a see through enclosure. Inside the enclosure was the experience that I was about to go into and I was even able to see or at least understand the first 5-10 seconds of the scene of the energetic reaction that I was about to become and playout. And this all happened in 2 or 3 seconds.

And just as suddenly (having made a decision not to go there) I was physically moving myself (almost as though I was taking a left turn away from that scene) away from that area in the middle of the classroom to the front of the classroom, wherein I began patiently explaining everything again step by step while showing the whole class exactly what we were doing and how to do it. And as I was doing this, I was also able to notice how many other students had also not understood the assignment.  And in that moment, I thought to myself, this is the way I would always like to be.

So how does this tie into solidifying my goals? Well, as everything is connected and defined by the relation (ship) lines that bind us together as one experiencing ourselves as many, I guess... I’m not really sure.

However, I will say that I have decided to push myself closer to others so as to work with and cooperate better with others as a process of practicing to understand unconditionally giving as well as unconditionally receiving, which is perhaps the next topic I’ll write about. And once again, I would like to thank the whales and/or whatever part of me, of existence for assisting me to see these playouts and make the decision not to go into them - before getting caught up in them.

Finally, it’s interesting how old programming diminishes, but doesn’t really disappear - which is once again why it’s necessary to always remain present/here.

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Continuing with gOALs

Goals and becoming more goal oriented: when I looked at this point and consciously acknowledged that I didn’t really have much in the way of goals to achieve beyond that which I’ve already loosely set for myself based on where I am now, the direction I’m currently heading and a long term mission that I’ve given myself that may or may not be relevant (depending on a whole lot of variables), I also had to acknowledge that I had deliberately limited myself in terms of concrete goals to reach for, so as not to put too much pressure on myself. 

Why? Funny, my first instinct was to come up with one of those wise sounding sayings evoking an image of the expansive unknown - which is also difficult to argue against. However, I guess it's really just because I’ve finally reached a point in my life where I honestly like where I am. I like where I’m heading and I like that I’m finally directing my life, rather than just struggling to stay afloat as I feel I had been doing since I was 7 or 8 years old and, and, and, and... Hells bells, many others must “feel it, an impending sense of uncertainty bordering on a sense of dread permeating throughout humanity.

While some are attempting to define this sense of dread, once again in terms of ecological annihilation in order to squeeze just a little more fear out of the people in a last ditch effort to hold on to their control of the narrative that has been steadily slipping from their grasp, I would honestly have to say that nature is flourishing like never before - just the way I see it. 

However, I too feel an impending sense that major structural changes are in the works. A restructuring of sorts is the only way to describe what I see taking place within and around planet earth. It’s as though so many points are finally coming together everywhere; and while some of these points are merging, some are also in the process of colliding in a big way, which I guess will result in the destruction of large sections or industries of the old world system collapsing into heaps of dust so as to give way to the new.

Thus while I have things that “I” consider important still to accomplish in this lifetime, I’m finding it somewhat difficult to define them. Strangely enough, this is due I think to my uncertainty of a future, how everything’s going to look when the dust settles. It’s as though Heaven’s program is finally, finally, finally coming to an end and getting ready to shut down, which in itself is perhaps exactly I/we require to set some new goals. Goals are useful to maintain one’s course and keep pushing to establish a new foundation for humanity, based on the principles of equality, oneness and what is best for all - the best course for sure. 
Because the next chapter of our story isn’t going to write itself. Once the current system comes down (a point that is accelerating), we will have another new window of opportunity (requiring the setting and reaching of lots of goals) not only to solidify the course correction of humanity/mankind, but also to establish a solid foundation (based on the principles of oneness, equality, what is best for all) from which all may finally have the opportunity to create in ways that we never imagined. 

Cool! I see that in writing and rewriting this point, the questions as well as my quest (of goals to set) begins to come into focus. So, I will leave this here for now and pick it up in the next post with some concrete goals.

Friday, September 13, 2019


Recently when someone mentioned “becoming more goal oriented” to me, I thought to myself, how can I become more goal orientated when I don’t really even have any goals? Of course, I’ve got the standard stuff that I’d like to see, such as world peace, an education system that actually educates to the benefit of students rather than brainwashing and indoctrinating them, governments that really are of the people by the people and for everyone, a world free of GMOs, pesticides and pharmaceutical toxins, clean oceans, rivers and lakes, an equal money system, all beings coexisting in harmony with one another and of course unobstructed interstellar access for all.

So here I am back to this idea of becoming more goal oriented, which I agree is a point that I’m able and ready now to utilize in order to keep moving so to speak. Because even though I am still in the process of solidifying into and as a way of living the goals that I set some years ago as process points of self-change, I realize that I have indeed accomplished these goals to the extent that I am essentially in the living phase of manifesting or solidifying them into and as the substance of what I am.

An interesting note here that just came up has to do with the key to actually solidifying self- change. Even though I’ve essentially deactivated so many lines of programming (that had been running my life) and rewritten so many new lines of instructions as a guide for me to live, I still require to remain here directing myself in every moment. It’s kind of like driving a car through crowded city streets, even one lapse of focus can end in catastrophe.

For example, yesterday while in class with a group of first year students, I noticed them looking at me with these “what the hell is he talking about” expressions on their faces. With a classroom computer not working, an air conditioning that wouldn’t turn on and me just wanting to get the hell out of there for the three day holiday weekend, I ended up going into an energetic-mind hurry mode which apparently also opened the door for an irritation goo to ooze its way up around me. I could see that goo coming up, yet instead of just stopping, breathing and clearing myself of it, I continued to hurry.

Suddenly there like an ether inside of me and all around me and in that moment (in like quantum time), I was inside of myself looking at this dark gray fog  that had  already filled the space of my body and was ready to ignite “in anger.” Then in that same moment (that was almost like existence giving me a breath) of looking inside of me, I simply stated as movement or shift “NO” and I was once again looking on the outside of me, this time with the intention to slow down. This time, I just started speaking Chinese and suddenly (lol) the faces of these new students softened with relief. It turns out that most of them simply had no idea what I was saying. The moral of the story: by accepting and allowing myself to go into an energetic hurry mode, I had also abdicated my self-directedness to an extent, which opened the door for more problems to creep in - showing me once again the importance of remaining here, breathing all of the time. Honestly, I think it was the whales that helped me out in this case. Thank you whales.

So getting back to becoming more goal oriented, aside from the main ones, like remaining self-directed, here all of the time, for which I still require to remain vigilant all the time, I guess there are ways of living that I am curious about and would like to understand and change myself to become. For example, I wonder what it would be like to “enjoy” communicating  with people from the starting-point of really caring to see  who they are rather than simply assessing their personality designs as matters to be dealt with in a caring way. In other words, I would like to actually find everyone interesting, which I’m sure I’m able to do, because everyone is unique. And I’m certain that this point would be an honorable trait to add to the way I am because I’ve seen it in others whom I consider to be honorable for the way they appear to unconditionally focus their attention to others by way of listening to them, here to see them.

Okay, so this is the first goal: as a matter of self-creation, I’m going to push myself to “enjoy” communicating with people from the starting point of seeing who they really are by unconditionally focusing my attention to them by way of listening to them, here to see them when communicating with them. And I guess I’m able to do this in communication with everything. I think this is a cool goal; however, I probably need to specify it a little more.