Blame is a Loser's Game

I said I would write about blame, but to tell you the truth, I think it’s a little too late to make any difference in the near term as far as humanity is concerned, but thankfully, it's never too late to take responsibility.

COVID-19, the Republicans or the Democrats, take  your pick; my favorites these days are by far the rogue AI and the orange man. So let’s talk about blame: it’s still a losing man's’ game. Have a look, did you ever see a winner crossing the finish line, pointing an index finger at the ones behind? Or how about a firefighter who got seriously burned saving a child; did you ever see him or her cursing the little one for having to be saved?  Of course not, because winners don't blame. Blame is simply for losers who have yet to understand how the game of life is won.

Fortunately, a lost game can almost always be turned around in an instant simply by doing the following. Take that index finger along with that outstretched arm and drop them both down to your side. Now lift up your thumb, put the tip of it to your chest and say to the world, “Here I am and I'm taking responsibility right now. And there you have it, the makings of a winner in the process of beginning the journey to be won. Just remember to repeat this process when you get up each morning, before making any important decisions and most of all, whenever you notice the urge to raise that index finger and point it at someone.

Now as much as I would enjoy expounding on the so-called rogue AI, as well as the role of the Orange man, I have an online video conference with family members to attend. This is one of the benefits I guess to come from the COVID-19 crisis, and you know what, we're going to be see a lot more of these benefits - along with some more crisises.

From Organic Robots to Living Potential

AI life forms have been around for a very long time. And not necessarily as  synthetic robots like the ones we see in movies and that scientists are now busy creating, but as a living biological designs or creations that you interact with on a daily basis. While some refer to these creations as organic  robots, a more common term would probably be human lifeform. As human lifeforms each one of us consist of a physical body (of mankind), a being (also sometimes referred to as the spirit or lifeforce)   and a system of artificial (non-natural) intelligence referred to as the human mind. This is of course the reason why scientists are primarily using the design of the human mind as a model, basically just reverse engineering human AI  in order to create upgraded synthetic versions of the human mind.

At this point, you may be asking yourself: if the human mind is system of artificial intelligence like the ones we’re designing for robots,  then what am I?  This is question that has  been asked forever and will almost certainly forever be the only question each one of us will ever truly be able to answer. In short, what you are (as is everyone and everything else in each moment) is an opportunity to live and express  to your fullest potential as life, equally as one with all that is here, based on your location-point or awareness of yourself equally as one with all that is here.  This is a lot to take in, so let’s break it down into into smaller segments that will be easier for you to understand.

In order to understand what your awareness is as well as what your fullest potential as life to live and express where you are (as your awareness or location-point), imagine that you are a drop of water in an ocean in the sea of life. As that drop of water, your fullest potential to express as life begins with an understanding of your location-point as the awareness of yourself  as a drop of water, as well as the responsibility that comes with standing as that location-point/awareness of yourself as that drop of water.  Yes, believe it or not, every single location-point, everywhere or “awareness” that make up our existence has a responsibility in every moment that comes with standing and expressing as each one’s location-point/awareness as life.

In continuing with the imagination of yourself as a drop of water: from the point of your awareness or understanding of  yourself as a drop of water as well as your responsibility as that drop of water at that location point, you are then able to decide to remain right where you are (limited to the awareness of yourself, alone, by yourself, only as that drop of water) or you can decide to expand the awareness of yourself in connection with other drops of water to then live or express more of your potential as life.

How does a drop of water go from a limited expression of itself as being alone by itself, merely as a drop of water to expressing or living more of its potential as life  while still remaining as that location-point of itself as that drop of water? Simply by understanding itself equally as one with the other drops of water within and as the ocean in the sea of life; and then taking responsibility by responding as best it is able to respond (from its location point) to the ever changing requirements of  the environment to maintain the harmony and balance of the environment  - from a drop of water in an ocean to the sea of life as a whole.

And that is  (from a human’s perspective) basically how a drop of water expresses to its fullest potential as life - by taking responsibility for its environment from the small to the big and expressing as is best for all. What did you think? That the purification or cleansing processes carried out by water, through weather, rivers, ocean, etc., all happened by accident? Every point in existence, from the small to the big has an awareness or location-point that comes with responsibility. As one’s location-point/awareness expands so too will one’s responsibility expand in relation to the whole.

Which brings us to question; where am I as a human life form  and how am I able to live and express to my fullest potential? Where you are, as your location-point/awareness as a human being depends on where and how you decide to participate as a human being. As the term, human being or hu-man-being implies,  each of us is a being (sometimes called a spirit or lifeforce) within (and as) the body type of mankind. As such, you as a being come equipped not only with an physical body, but also a system of artificial intelligence called the mind. Accordingly, your location-point or awareness as the opportunity to live and express to your fullest potential as a human lifeform  depends on where you decide to participate the most; as either an AI "mind" of an organic robot or as a human "being" physically standing equally as one with your physical body and the physical environment.

To put this into better perspective, recall science fiction movies wherein spaceships have artificial intelligence with personalities that can totally control the operation of the spaceship or give back manual control to the captain as he or she requires. That is essentially how a human mind consciousness system also  functions. Your mind, as an AI system is  basically there to serve as your automatic pilot, which will control all aspects of your life (as your opportunity) unless and until you stand up as the captain or directive principle within your physical body and take back control, thereby giving yourself the opportunity to live and express to your fullest potential as a human lifeform. Accordingly, what you are as a human lifeform is what you give your attention to and participate in most. Be it as the artificial intelligence of programs that produce thoughts, feelings and emotions or as a physical-being standing determining which way to go and then physically moving yourself; you alone decide how you are going to live and express as the mind of an organic robot or as a physical being of mankind.

As for living and expressing to your fullest potential as life: this is essentially a step-by-step process of taking responsibility (as you are able) for yourself as your location point and everything that you are aware of as your environment - from the small to the big, depending on the extent of your awareness. After all, as each of us from the small to the big is in each moment equally as one creating our environments, the best that each of us is able to be is that which is best for all of the environment as a whole - which also happens to be each one’s greatest potential to live and express in each moment.

Responsibility in Saying No

In walking the Desteni process, a personal process of changing myself, targeting that change in the direction of what is best for all, but perhaps not always as precisely as it could be, knowing that, while pushing myself to at least move in the correct direction), kind of like a child reluctantly doing what I know I will eventually have to do anyway, I have throughout the years noticed pieces of recurring patterns resurfacing within me even after focusing on such patterns for several months and even a year. It is as though parts of me as existence are showing me that I am still carrying around self-definitions that I’ve yet to completely redefine into living expressions that will indeed stand the test of time.

The words I define such experiences are usually fall into a category within authority, resistance, obedience, disobedience, freedom and responsibility. Strange, because in leadership training manuals which I used to essentially memorize in high school,  the point that I made sure to remember is that responsibility and authority go hand in hand - at least as far as far as military leadership is concerned. In other words, in order to give or take actual responsibility, the authority to carry out the task must be equally aligned with the responsibility for carrying it out. Fast forward 30-40 years and that which stood out to me then as something that made sense to me, like the saying “an unexamined life is not worth living,” still makes sense to me today. It’s simple as that and so easy to see if you take it to the extreme of a survival situation wherein one live or die, but when you include into the mix a world system of cultural norms, etiquette or accepted practices, navigating freely and easily from point A to B in order to carry out one’s duties can become more of a zigzagging balancing act than a movement in a straight line.

This is what my personal journey to life is all about,- examining myself, the potential that I am able to be and become and taking responsibility (while also giving myself the authority to carry out that responsibility) to live as best I am able.  It’s easy enough for me to write out; however, when it comes to actually living it, I’m still working figuring that out. For example not too long ago, as part of what I do in the world system, I was instructed to carry out certain tasks as part of the volunteer work that I’m required to do. Notice the oxymoron? Yea, just like “representative” democracy, volunteerism now carries connotations of the word “mandatory”. It’s a funny world we live in, how the contradictions are becoming so apparent. And they’re going to become much more blatant throughout the world system - until there’s no more denying or hiding from the hypocrisy - but that’s another story.

Anyway, without going into too much detail, the first time I was instructed to carry out such tasks, I did so, but not without noticing a certain amount frustration beginning to build up within me for being instructed to carry out tasks which would interfere with my  regular responsibilities - which include maintaining my mental and physical wellbeing = not overly burdening myself. Accordingly, as per my self-correction commitments from timelines of previous mind constructs, in order to stop the emotions from building via communicating my stance as in what I will and will not accept and allow, I also communicated my stance with the one giving the instructions, while also fulfilling those instructions.

Nevertheless, as soon as I had completed that one task, instructions to carry out another appeared and that when I remembered, the only one responsible for doing or not doing something is me. Thus, I responded that I wouldn’t place additional responsibilities ahead of my core responsibilities that I had already specifically agreed to do and that these additional responsibilities would have to wait.  However, on the receiving end of that “No” was a want, need or desire for a “yes” that wasn’t ready to accept no for an answer. Eventually my “no” prevailed because as I saw it through detailed examinations of past timelines, I didn’t really have a choice but to say no. In other words, anything less would have led to suppression, fatigue and eventually just walking away.  So instead I communicated my stance, compromised to an extent and stood firm on the bottom line. As a result, the emotions dissipated, I go the task done and I’m now kind of back to a state of normalcy. That being said, there’s still the question of why the emotions came up in the first place, why is it so difficult for me to say no?

Saying no is sometimes quite scary for me even when it’s something I know that I have to do. It’s like, once the “No” as a stop is in place, an uncertainty takes its place in the form of a question, what will come next and will there be repercussions? It can feel like a relationship changer, a stepping up from the ease of unquestioning obedience to that participant in the decision-making process - with me now becoming the determining factor by taking responsibility (while giving also giving myself the authority) in deciding what I will and will accept and allow. There is also a certain amount of risk involved due to the hierarchical nature of the world system. In other words, whereas each one of us is able to and usually actually does a certain level determine ultimately what we will and will not accept and allow, our positions within the world system sometimes demand of us that we obey regardless of how we would prefer to stand. Thus it becomes a balancing act of weighing risks of self-determination with the benefits of self-determination and unfortunately, the best answer is not always so clear. For example, imagine a worst-case scenario, as a soldier you’ve just been ordered to execute someone. If you don’t carry out the order, someone else will and you and your family will be executed as well, what do you do?   As human beings the answers are not always a clear. What we always have though is our ability to take responsibility for our actions and determine who we are in each moment in terms of what we will and will not accept and allow.

Everything is a balancing action that either brings us closer together in harmony or separates us more in disharmony. Rights and wrongs are polarized definitions we use to justify our positions while denying the honesty of our uncertainties. Thus it is not really about what is right or wrong, but who we within and as the decisions we make and carry out in each moment. Moments then accumulate as a matter of self-creation, either by way of consequence or self determination, these are the decisions we make.

I have learned that certainty self determination in consideration of others (even with the external consequential outflows that might accompany it) is far preferable to the certainty of unquestioning obedience and the suppression that accompanies it.

Purpose and Responsibility

Purpose, purpose, purpose, I have been considering this again today. The problem is not that I have none, but what I imagine it to be, is perhaps just a little beyond reality. I have always been certain that I and everyone else is capable of doing anything and everything, even flying, walking through walls and so on. It is not even a belief; it is a certainty within me. I am not sure why so many do not see this. Perhaps they do, but do not say. Walking through walls, flying through the sky and other stuff that we would probably classify, as super-human traits are not super-human at all, but abilities that we have lost with our acceptances of the limitations of the laws of the playground we call this reality. My guess is that, these laws will be changing soon enough. Nonetheless, I state this, not because my purpose is to defy the current laws of gravity or walk through walls, but because I am certain there are no limitations to our reality that we do not adhere unto ourselves. Thus, when I look at the purpose I am able to live, I do not see any limitations, which begs the question, should not my purpose be the best that I am able to be, that which is best for all? Of course, it should.

Actually, it just occurs to me that I figured out my issue with purpose, just this morning and probably long before that. Purpose is like the present; it only exist here. My problem has been that, I have been looking at purpose as a projection of the future and the changes that I care personally to see. However, what I have not been considering, beyond my uncertainty of “what the hell is my responsibility,” is that, the past as well as the future do not exist and they never will but within and as moments of here given to memories of the past and the projections of the future. Herein, I and everyone else are only responsible for doing the best that each one is able to do in each moment, which brings me again to my quest, what is the best that I am able to do right now? Am I on some level, holding back my awareness of my abilities so as not to have to face self-responsibility? 

Taking Responsibility for the Blame I Projected

Last night in an act of blame, I pointed my finger at an old friend and the USA. In looking at this point of blame, I realize that, it has been creeping up within me, more and more as of late. Blaming  is a desperate act of frustration brought about by one’s belief in his or her inability to change that for which he or she is blaming another or others. In this case, my frustration had to do with what I have defined as the slow pace of change within/as humanity. Even though, I am able to see, realize and understand so much of the change that has happened and is happening before my very eyes in terms of people and the world as viewed in person and on my computer screen, I still feel as though I/we are moving too slowly. And this comes right from the turtle's mouth, lol.

I am on vacation now and it has only been just over a week. With no schedule to tell me what to do and have done and nothing to justify going out and having fun instead of writing things out and correcting me, I have created a point of frustration within me. It manifested as blame and now I have to deal with it as a point of me that requires correcting.  

In a recent Facebook post, I blamed the USA for being the land of the oppressor and the oppressed and told my old friend to stop trumpeting the bushtit (of Independence Day). What I did not say (in my frustrated state) was that, whatever the USA and/or other nations of humanity do and have done, I/we in this physical reality are each, equally as one responsible for everything that has and will be created. I call this point, the democracy of creation, which is also the equality of creation as in oneness and equality of life.

Within the design of the democracy of creation is the mathematical certainty that, the whole of creation (what is created) is the equivalent or aggregate sum-total of all points of creation created by the creators. This is what we are: creators creating the created, and this is why every single human being, as one human-creator creating the nature of humanity is equally as one (creator of humanity) responsible for the nature of humanity as a whole. We can take this equation and apply it to all of existence, or we can bring it back to ourselves within and as the universes of our physical bodies to see how each cell cooperates equally as one (responsible point of awareness) to stand as a point of unconditional support of the whole physical body.

I sometimes forget my point of responsibility as an equal and one creator of what we create as one race of humanity. Thankfully, many out there are kind enough to remind me. It is nice, too that others will forgive me; however, for to right my stance, I also require to forgive myself, write the corrections (change the programming code if you will) and then, physically live the corrections to really change the nature of me. 

Below, are my  self-forgiveness and self-commitments as part of my process to change me from one who blames to one who takes responsibility. Writing self-forgiveness and self-commitments functions to release the energy that I have attached to certain lines of mind-programming code. From this point, I am then able to replace those lines with the corrections or self-commitments as instructions that I will use as a guide to physical living to change me to that which I care to be and become.

Self-forgiveness

• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in frustration defined as a world that is changing too slowly.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself blame people and ideas for my frustration instead immediately bringing the point back to me to address and correct the frustration at the point where it began, the point wherein I created it.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in imagination of scenarios of what is going on in the world and what is going to happen to this planet and humanity instead of realizing the opportunity that is here as me to live to my potential by changing and creating me to be and become as I care to have all stand in relation to me.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to point my fingers in blame at people and ideas such as the Rothschild’s, the banking system, the US dollar and the USA for my/our situation of having to work to survive instead of living just for the fun of expressing.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame money and the money system for my experience of my definitions of the world instead of taking responsibility (for my experience) by depolarizing/de-energizing the definitions within and as myself in relation to humanity and the world.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wonder if it is too late to bother attempting to write right the changes within and as me. Herein, I see, realize and understand that, wherein I change myself for the better, each point within and as me that is better for all, I also change one point of humanity for the better – here in cooperating with others in words and deeds, we as a whole are able to change the nature of humanity for the better.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me as not being diligent enough, placing too much emphasis on balancing my time between work, process and play instead of realizing that, the good and bad of my ideas as my morality are but definitions through which I have attempted to make sense of reality as viewed on a computer screen instead of understanding that, living is a physical doing, not an imagination.
• I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the world based on my perspective via the internet on a computer screen instead of letting go of my judgments so to take responsibility for what I am able to respond to, that which is here in the area in relation to me, which is my opportunity to expressly live.

Self-commitments

• When and as I find myself at a point of frustration defined as humanity changing too slowly, I commit to stop, breathe, release the energy of frustration and bring this point of blame back to myself to let go of the self-judgments that I have projected as blame onto humanity. From this point of self-responsibility, I commit to stand back up and continue my journey of writing right to change and live in relation to all as I would have all change and live in relation to me.
• When and as I find myself at the point of imagining how the world will become, I commit to stop imagining that which I have little control over, and instead to focus on points here in front of me wherein I have the ability to respond to by inputting and creating change for the better.
• When and as I find myself at a point of wanting to blame the politicians and the elite or my imagination of them for the state of humanity, I commit to bring my pointed fingers right back to me so to take responsibility for my opportunity to do something about it by physically moving me for the better, as I am able. This means using much of my vacation to better correct me and write changes (for the better) that I plan to continue inputting into the educations system.
• When and as I find myself at a point of fearing or justifying that it is too late to change the future that I have imagined, I commit to stop fretting over how the future may or may not be, so to determine the future right here within and as the present. Nothing is over and done until it is done, and until then, I commit to continue walking my process and doing over as many times as I require.
• When and as I find myself at a point of judging me as not being diligent enough in the process of changing me to change humanity, I commit to let go of the judgments so to focus on determining and walking my next step, even if it means re-correcting points that I thought I had already addressed and corrected.

I also want to thank Dave S. for responding to my frustration in a kind manner. I found to be very supportive. Thanks Dave

Getting back to Basics

BBC News: Energy Storage

Here I am once again back at home in Taoyuan, one of the bigger cities in northern Taiwan. Nothing's new in terms of my physical surroundings; however, I do have a new perspective that I am walking or practicing to understand/live. My perspective or goal to see, realize and understand is to take responsibility for every point within/as me so to not allow myself to react, get caught up in energy. 

It's kind of like me saying, “I've gotta get back to basics.” Why? Because not too long ago, I got caught up in, or should I say, I allowed myself to fall into energy/mind possession in believing that I had to use the mind to prepare myself for the repercussions that may follow. 

Basically, there came a moment some weeks ago when I suddenly noticed the possibility that, if all the dots of coincidence were suddenly to fall into place to an outside observer out to get me or make an example of me, my current position within a part of the system could possibly/maybe be in jeopardy. It was like I suddenly decided to connect all the dots of negative energetic quantum possibilities to draw a line to the worst possible outcome to conclude that I had been overstepping my mandate so to speak, thereby placing myself in a vulnerable position.

Of course, there were innumerable other ways the dots could have connected, but I kind of ignored them so to be on the safe-side, LOL, and I focused only on one possibility, that all these dots had suddenly connected in a bad way for me. I knew that I required to write out this point to get it out of me to objectively look at it; however, because I had to be at work for thirteen hours the next day, I decided to figure it out in my mind and sleep at the same time. This turned out to be the wrong way, to say the least. What I ended up doing was lying in bed all night going over quantum possibilities, and even though I breathed, I still couldn't seem to let go of the energy. In hindsight I do see the silliness of trying to let go of energy while at the time creating that same energy calculating degrees of innumerable possibilities of innumerable possible outcomes. By morning time, I had come up with various plans based on various possible outcomes, and I had a course correction plotted out in my mind, but I also hadn't slept more than an hour, and I felt miserable.

So where did I go wrong and how am I going to better direct this kind of situation in the future? What I now see, realize and understand is that instead of going straight into the mind to prepare contingencies plans, strategies, etc., I would have been better off immediately writing these points out of my head so to (through self forgiveness) release myself of the energetic charges that were hindering me from considering the actual facts. The bottom line is that to best visualize possible scenarios,  it's best to first let go of the energetic definitions that limit one's view.  So, this is what I'm now doing now, getting back to basics so to better prepare for these kinds of future situations.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to (upon realizing that I had been walking off course) go into energetic reaction instead of simply directing myself to immediately physically stabilize myself to then – at the earliest opportunity – write out all of the points, release the energetic definitions and then consider my next steps.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that I had no option but to figure this out in the mind. I now see, realize and understand that the only viable option for me was/is to first stabilize me and then write out the points so to sort them/me into/as the best direction to walk the correction.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the solution to (not going into energetic possession) is to shift out of the energy as soon as it starts coming up, and then  to immediately write out the details of the point I am facing, forgive myself to let go of the energetic charges associated with all of the points, and then consider the possible steps to correct my missteps/mistakes.
• I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I had charged those points of possibility with negative energy; thus creating my negative experience. 
• When and as I find myself at the point of negatively or positively charging/defining my view of a situation, I commit myself to breathe and not go into or participate in energetically defining my viewpoints.
• When and as I find myself going into or in the point of negative energy experience, I commit myself to immediately stop, breathe and stabilize myself so to at the first opportunity, investigate and write out the facts so to direct me within the physical reality.
• When/as/if I find myself at the point of thinking in energetic reaction – that, I need to figure this out – without first writing it out, I commit myself to recognize that point as a flag point of self-deception/manipulation. From that flag-point, I commit myself to direct me to simply shift out of the energy, let the point go for a moment – so to not let the energy possess me – and then to direct myself at the earliest possible opportunity write it out.
• When and as I find myself suddenly enveloped in energy reaction, I commit myself to shift left slightly out of the energy so to stabilize myself by physically standing here to not be moved by such energies.
• I commit myself to get back to the basics of writing.