Recently
while listening to an Eqafe interview called The
Elitist Mind, I suddenly realized that I have been harboring and nurturing
an elitist personality suit. I thought that I was eliminating my ego of
superiority/inferiority in relation to others, but I was not completely correct.
Perhaps, while focusing one point, I was amiss in not seeing that I was
evolving another, the elitist personality within and as me.
In
judging myself as not communicating effectively enough and not willing to
accept responsibility for that, I suppressed the judgement of being less than perfect
in favor of an elitist personality suit that I defined as humbleness justified by
my perception that, I as more knowledgeable and intelligent than others ought
to be kind to those who are less than me. Like squeezing part of a balloon:
when I pressed down on one point, another point popped up, but because it made
me feel better about myself, it was easy to ignore. Herein, like waking up from
a dream while still in the dream, all I did was go from ego of desiring to be
seen as more, to the ego of an elitist personality of silent righteousness
veiled within an air of humbleness. Lol, once again I find the joke’s on me.
For
sure, I am my own worst enemy; nevertheless, I reckon I am also able to turn my
greatest weaknesses into my greatest strengths. Thus, I will continue to bring
every point straight back to me, even when it means considering to realize that, the mountain I believed I had climbed was perhaps only a dream.
I am
thankful for the assistance in seeing this point, and now I see what I have to do.
For those who would like more information about the design of existence and the design of the mind, here is a link for Eqafe.
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