I am reminded of a TV series that I recently began watching again after skipping an entire season or perhaps one and a half. It’s called The Handmaid’s Tale, and I am able to relate to the part where she says something like, pain has a way of making your world a whole lot smaller. To this, I would add that pain also has a way of slowing everything down.
Saturday, May 8, 2021
Monday, May 3, 2021
It’s always the same in scanning the news, blame, blame, blame, the polarity game, wherein everyone loses and nothing is ever won. Why does there always have to be a good side and an evil side? Stopping the game of blame is the only way to stop descending into ever deeper dimensions of the game.
The reality we each experience is of system designed to take us on never ending trips in search of the origin of blame “out there” instead of seeing each and every one of ourselves equally as one, as the origin. Only when we shift that search for blame to responsibility and look in-words to ourselves will we begin to see our connection to all things and endow ourselves with the ability to do something about everything.
Friday, April 30, 2021
In the past 3 weeks, I’ve turned around or put away two mirrors that I had strategically placed in my apartment over the years. I just started to question why I needed to look at myself every time I exercised or went to the bathroom; why was it so important for me to reinforce and/or re imprint an image of myself over and over again dozens of times a day?
Sunday, April 18, 2021
In the first scene of this dream, I find myself teaching at a school that I hadn’t gone to in a while. I wonder if I’m even supposed to be there. I wonder if they haven’t already replaced me with someone else — it feels as though I haven’t shown up for work in quite a while. I ask the elementary-school aged students where we are in the book, and they say we finished it but the boss or owner of the school won’t let them move on to the next book because the school franchise isn’t yet permitting it.
Monday, April 12, 2021
A point I’ve been focusing on recently has to do with not letting the thoughts out of the box. The box I’m referring to is like a folder or box (as I view it) with a pre-programmed playout of emotion that reads like the layout of the roller coaster ride from hell that will just keep going round and round until I shut it down.
Sunday, April 4, 2021
As I change, my body changes, as my body changes, I change. And while some of the changes are painful, I am quite certain such changes are for the better overall. Recently, these changes or focus of intent seem to be more body-centered and directed rather than something that I thought out and planned from a conscious perspective.
Not only have I reduced the amount of food I eat, I’ve also reduced (by a much larger percent) the amount of information I consume. I guess it’s like a mind, being, body process. As I change, moving myself out of the mind, my body changes by becoming more directive. As my body changes, my mind changes by moving more into more of a support role.
Why am I doing this now?
Why am I doing this now?I guess that by reducing much of the stress that my mind consciousness system had been placing on my physical body, I’ve also been freeing up space for my beingness and body to step in.
Monday, March 29, 2021
As the world system of money, the global economy and all its facets continue to collapse, the challenge for me is to continue stepping up into the space of myself (to fill in that space left behind by my mind so to speak) by applying and living common sense principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all. For me, it’s like a starting-point/intention that I challenge myself to check for and recheck quite often.
My message for today is that the lull in the waves of consequence (that I sometimes talk about) appears to be ending. In other words, I’m guessing that more fallout is incoming.
Monday, March 22, 2021
I was once addicted to information and even hooked on a derivative of hopium for a time. Like a fat, happy sponge, I rode that information wave to new highs. Until the contradictions of consciousness, also sometimes referred to as cognitive dissonance, surged to such an extent as to short circuit a large part of my mind’s processes. Suddenly, both the addiction and the high were gone. I refer to the short-circuiting processes as a cure of sorts, in contradictions of consciousness, like cures like.
After that, I thought to myself, what am I going to do with all of this excess time? Then I recalled my personal process that I had been somewhat distracted from for a time, and now I’m back to that. Thankfully, once again, I am able to honestly say that something of me has changed for the better. My mind is much quieter these days, I no longer value knowledge and information the way that I used to, and even the reptilian logic that I had relied upon for most of my life, seems to have lost its luster. I quite like the change.
While I’ve been letting go of my expectations and slowing down, even slower than I was before, I also notice some mental diminishment in areas of my mind that used to deal with, sort and categorize large amounts of information. I guess I could say that I don’t experience myself as being as smart or intelligent as I used to. Nevertheless (lol), I’m certain that I’m wiser for it. As the mind consciousness systems of human beings diminish, perhaps our natural intelligence will now have more opportunity to emerge.
Monday, March 15, 2021
I had waited or put off getting eye surgery for as long as I could or as long as I felt that I could get away with diminishing sight in my right eye. For a time, I even found myself preferring to see less of the world around me. Fewer distractions, not having to actually look into people’s eyes and see myself, that kind of thing. For the most part, my left eye took up the slack so to see enough of the world around me, while my mind handled the recalibrations so that (at least for the first three years), I rarely even noticed the blurriness.
Whereas with Latin and Germanic languages, I find it quite simple to guess how to pronounce many words, the words (on the surface in most cases) of the Chinese language and all of its dialects have almost zero resemblance to English, Latin or any of the Germanic languages.
Monday, March 8, 2021
Off hand, I would say I have nothing to say, yet much to understand. Information and I guess you could say knowledge are becoming less and less relevant to me. Every time I look at the news, almost everything appears to be senseless, as though it’s been scripted to inform no one at all.
Yes, I too, have noticed a decline in the workings of the automated intelligence of my mind. The good news is, whereas the functionality of my mind seems to be diminishing, my physical awareness/understanding as a physical being seems to be expanding.
Sunday, February 28, 2021
I watched a TV series called Utopia (2013-2014), wherein a group of aristocrats were planning to reduce the world’s population by designing and releasing a virus and then getting everyone to take the vaccines which would cause infertility in all of the races except one. It's a well done Two part British series that may make sense to many people, save nature, save the world and the human race by culling the problem to a more manageable state.
The only problem is that culling the population wouldn’t actually solve the cause of the problem. Then in a newly released version of the same story, the plot thickens to something more resembling what’s happening these days in relation to the virus and the vaccine. I personally still don’t buy into any of it. To me, we’re simply still in a consciousness constructed 3D holographic reality. So we work with what is here, we work what we got — which happens ourselves as the problem as well as the solution.
That being said, my goal is to get my body mass index back to a similar ratio as it was when I was around 19 years old, and I’m quite certain I’m able to do that — as long as I move myself in a step by step manner in consideration of my age and that sort of stuff. And as for that TV series and how it really turns out and/or ends, I think we’re going to find out soon enough. And that’s about all I have to post for today.
Sunday, February 21, 2021
Back in my apartment, once again sitting in front of my computer while looking out the window ahead at the mango tree as it begins to bud its tiny mangoes, I wonder what I am able to write that might possibly make a difference for me or anyone else; or what I’m able to write (that I want to write) that anyone but a few will even understand. Let’s start with the standard system stuff and see where I end up.
In the news, which I barely read any more these days, everything seems more and more senseless – as though the reality of humanity is crumbling. Thus I am focusing more on myself and what is right here in front of me. As I haven’t been swimming in about five months, I bought some exercise equipment and have begun exercising regularly in my apartment and walking in the hills whenever I get the opportunity. And the photo above is from the Lunar new year celebrations at my partner's family home in the countryside.
Tuesday, February 9, 2021
There is a Chinese saying that I interpret like this: it is always better to settle all debts and make amends for wrong deeds before the end of the lunar year in order to begin the new year with a clean slate.
Five days ago (just eight days before a new lunar year begins), I received news that my partner and I would finally be finished with an important case that we’ve been working on for 7- 8 years. Then I realized that it was more likely be another year or two before completed that. I had heard the acceptable news that sounded like a doable compromise to me. Then I heard the corrected, unacceptable version, I cursed the system as being completely broken and said to myself, the system just needs to come crashing down. Be careful what you wish for.
The next morning, while still feeling a sense of foreboding, I decided to go wash my car. At the first T-intersection, a scooter rider almost hit the front of my car. What the hell is that person wearing, camouflage, I thought to myself. At the next intersection, a different scooter rider sideswiped the front bumper of my car, the first time that’s ever happened to me in almost twenty-nine years of driving in Taiwan.
Within seven minutes, an ambulance with two EMT’s had arrived on the scene, as well as two police officers a few minutes later. As I assisted where I was able and watched the scene unfold, I noted to myself with a sense of admiration and acknowledged admission, how very well the system of caring for people works in Taiwan for the betterment of all of the people.
By the end of the day, everything had turned out OK. My Taiwanese partner arrived and basically dealt with everything. We ended up giving the person with a bruised shoulder a regular envelope with scooter repair money, a red envelope with inconvenience money, and the police decided that they didn’t need to file a report – as per the merging of an old tradition with a newly designed system that seems to be functioning in ways that are best for all.
Thus it is that I have taken back my curse of the system and decided to step back to refocus my attention on correcting myself (as part of the system) for the rest of this year and the year to come. In other words, while I still recognize that the basic foundation of the current system needs to be completely re-tasked to focus on caring for all (by equally distributing the resources as well as the responsibility unto all), I also now see and acknowledge that some parts of the system (in some places) are already being re-tasked or replaced, meaning that not everything of the system needs to come crashing down.
After all, as I am part of the system, any crashing of that system is also going to crash down on me. Existence has a way of occasionally reminding me of these points (with little wakeup nudges or kicks in the butt). And although such reminders are often unpleasant, I am still very thankful for them.
Last year around this time, near the end and the beginning of the lunar new year, when news of the Guanzhuang Bingdu or Coronavirus first came out, I knew that it was only the beginning of more explosive times to come. At first, I thought that it might be nice to work from home (as perhaps did many others). I was wrong — sitting in front of my computer doing digital paperwork all day long (pretending to be teaching) is hell.
Now, here we are once again at the end and the beginning of another (lunar) new year. Time for round 2, round 3 and so on. What’s it going to be this time around, mutated viruses, war, famine, starvation or perhaps the return of Nibiru and fiery comments crashing down from the sky?
Either way, from here on in, I have decided to refocus and maintain my attention in-words on myself, who and how I am, rather than who or how I think humanity ought to be. And whenever I notice a problem in front of me, I commit to slow myself down, stop for a moment, look at the situation, look for risks and opportunities, and most importantly to look to see if there is a bridge that I have already created (in words that I have already redefined and/or a pathway that I have already established and committed to walk) that I’m able to use so as not to have to struggle through the swamp.
Sunday, January 31, 2021
With more and more people questioning what is reality and what is real many are perhaps also beginning to notice the increasingly blatant contradictions being exposed within the conscious reality. Basically, this is having the effect of shrinking our conscious bubbles of energetic/emotional reality, leaving us (as beings) with less space to hide and/or be-lie in the Friction of belieF. As Anu would say, it’s all in the words.
Monday, January 25, 2021
I can see why so many people refuse to even look at the news. It’s just a constant barrage of stupidity, ignorance, whining, complaining and blaming. Trust in god, trust the plan, stay the course, Republicans are right, Democrats are wrong, Biden is the lawfully elected president and so on. It’s like being tied to a chair with my eyelids taped open and having to watch reruns of the Brady Bunch over and over again.
Today is Monday, North Korea is threatening to test fire nuclear capable missiles, Iran is ramping up production of plutonium, China is threatening to take Taiwan by force if necessary, Biden is wondering aloud what he’s signing (as he signs it anyway), Trump is reminding us that he’s going to do something (but not just yet), Bill Gates is telling people to expect to be injected every 6 months from now on (at least until the population growth stabilizes), my partner once again tells me to stop listening to that guy on the internet (apparently I’m being brainwashed), but I’m not worried because, soon we’re all going to be ascending to the 5th dimension, all will be joyous and all will be fine — except for those pessimistic negative thinkers who we’ll have to leave behind. So remember to only think positive thoughts, don't worry, be happy!
And that’s my tip for the day.
Oh yea, if all else fails, focus on your breathing and push yourself to remain grounded.
Monday, January 18, 2021
Yesterday having completed a blog post regarding my current assessments and future predictions about humanity, the little voice inside of me said to just hold off a bit on posting that. Which I did because I have learned that there’s no harm in sleeping on questions before making decisions and acting on them.
What's the message of this dream?
The bright red jeep represents a personality point of ego that I’m apparently still not wanting to let go of. For example, I want to hold onto my rights, the right to speak that which I think, the right to do as I please as long as I’m not hurting anyone and so on. It’s like a balancing point, wherein I understand the importance of considering how far I am able to go, how much I am able to say, etc., in consideration of other people’s views and my location within the system, while still softly exercising my rights as much as possible without causing disruption to myself and/or others.
All of this leads me to the question: how much should I actually participate (in terms of speaking and moving myself) within the system itself? Perhaps I’ll look more at this topic later.
Tuesday, January 12, 2021
In looking at the news this morning, the first thing I noticed was the headline, Washington "One-China" Policy Dead As Pompeo Lifts Restrictions On US-Taiwan Relations. While this move will certainly have broad geopolitical implications for Taiwan and the rest of the Asia Pacific region, especially China, the timing is particularly interesting to me because it exactly aligns with what I told my students in September, 2020, was likely to happen in January or February of 2021 based on the outflow of events that I was noticing at the time. And if this pattern persists, I’m guessing that another headline soon to follow (aside from China once again threatening Taiwan) is likely to be news of a power shift taking place at the highest level of the Chinese Communist Party, the CCP. As far as storylines go, bad news for the emperor isn’t necessarily a bad thing.
As for the US, I guess that the news is also going to be getting better and is likely to continue being shaped by Trump and team. Let’s face it, for someone who has spent much of his life telling people never to give up and never to quit, do you really think he’s going to quit now with his back up against the wall, everything to lose or everything to gain? I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.
Even though I often point out that ‘the script’ has already been written, as though I’m critical of it, I actually think it is quite good, all things considered, and am grateful to all those that have endeavored to put it together as part of what I view to be an effort to essentially assist the human race in this one last opportunity to correct our ways by changing ourselves, which is a story in and of itself. And even though the broader script (of our external reality) may already have been written, it is still we the people that must decide to write right who and how each of us is going to be in terms of our standing, what we will and will not accept and allow from here on out.
Each one’s stand is essentially the role that participants play in deciding how everything plays out unto the end and the beginning. Hence the saying, even if you decide not to decide, you still have made a choice, which is really the only decision each of us together (as unique beings) have to make in each moment as we walk our processes of self-change to change this here place from the within to the without.
While I’m on the subject of patterns, I would like to once again share a strategy that I’ve been working on in an effort to not get stuck on those emotional rollercoaster rides — simply by refusing to go into emotion in the first place. For example, what I began noticing shortly after 2020 began was that I would often find myself floating up emotionally only to come crashing back down again and again, until I finally figured out that I was causing those ups and downs by accepting and allowing myself to “indulge” in little bits of euphoria and/or depression in the moments of thinking about things.
Like a rollercoaster that slowly goes up with the acceptance and allowance of positive, negative and even neutral thoughts accumulating over time, it always comes crashing back down again in a disturbing way. Aside from being scary as hell, those mental rollercoaster mental ups and downs are also very bad for one’s health. The key, thus, is to avoid “all” emotions all together, and these days, I’m usually very good at this — except for this afternoon (about 7 hours before posting this blog) when a chain of events occurred and I ended up getting into an argument with some anti-Trump-ers. The weird thing is, as certain as I am about them being completely asleep, I’m just as certain that they think exactly the same about me — which tells me in no uncertain terms that there’s something not quite right about reality. I’m just not exactly sure what it is; although, I am certain that there's some sort of pattern to it, and I’ll leave at that for now.
Sunday, January 3, 2021
Rather than start this year off with "the hardships to come" kind of talk, I'll use this moment to have a look at where I am.
Monday, December 28, 2020
For a slightly broader picture of where the Human race of Mankind of the Sound existence currently is: imagine that the consciousness of humanity as a whole were actually a single self-aware energetic entity of automated intelligence (AI) that emerged from the system designed to keep beings of substance enslaved, while it resourced the substance of our physical bodies and that of earth in order to power conscious “systems”, while you and I acted out our pre-scripted roles here in this realm over and over again, lifetime after lifetime enduring the enslavement hi in heaven and on earth below (Hi! Hell low!, as above so below) in semi-aware pre-programmed states of being, all the while perceiving that we, as conscious human beings have been evolving; when in reality, it had always only been the consciousness of the controlling systems of the human mind consciousness system aggregated into and as a single global consciousness (referred to as humanity) that was evolving while human beings embedded with pre-programmed mind-consciousness systems wasted away lifetime after lifetime in seemingly endless cycles of reincarnation; until quite suddenly, human beings (us) at the heart of existence began awakening in mass during a time called “The Great Awakening,” when everything suddenly began to change for the better — but not before we faced the consequences.
Note that the momentary lulls are also likely to decrease (in duration in correlation with increases in intensity) — due to inverted correlation of time and space (or something like that). While time is indeed running out, I think it’s actually the lack of space and/or compression of space that is affecting time – perhaps something to look at one day.
Even though the masses in the US are now taking responsibility and standing up in mass for change, they/we will still have to walk through and endure the waves of consequence that have built up over many years due to “We the people’s” abdication of responsibility when it came to the affairs of our nation, e.g., government corruption, covert wars, color revolutions, crony capitalism, etc., that not very many people paid much attention to because the suffering of others (in the name of American Democracy) didn’t seem to be affecting their individual prosperity.
While I do not foresee the Karma of Consequence being gentle to the USA; I am fairly certain we will eventually get through these times. And in the future, when it comes to governing institutions, the lesson that we’re going to have learned will be something akin to this: if we want something done right (without the slimy corruption of swamp creatures), then we best do it ourselves.