I
finally signed a contract to work for another year. The next day, I received an
email saying that the first month of classes would be online.In the small university town that I work in,
I estimate conservatively that another one-hundred small businesses will
permanently close. If I apply the same estimate to all of Taiwan, we’re looking
at an additional 12,000 small businesses that are likely to permanently close
their doors this year. While small independently owned businesses are
increasingly being forced to go out of business, large businesses are thriving.
This situation is rapidly going to become unsustainable.
While
they’re saying that we’re just going to have the first month of classes online,
I’m guessing that we’ll be having classes online for the next 3-4 years — if
we're able to have classes at all. About ten million or 41% of the people on
this island have already received their first dose of a so-called vaccine.
Aside from government representatives (who look like talking zombies, if you
ask me), the scientists, doctors and specialists that I listen to all say
essentially the same thing, it’s not a vaccine, but a bioweapon.
After
two months of unsuccessful attempts to persuade my partner not to get injected,
I recognize that she is probably going to do so sometime next week, and that
she has made her own decision, perhaps at a very deep level. The only
compromise I could get out of her (for better or worse) was for her to switch
from a foreign made vaccine to a Taiwan made one. Taiwan’s president, Tsai Ing-wen,
is also apparently scheduled to receive her first injection of the same vaccine,
next week. The good thing is, as I’ll be working from home, I’ll be able to
care for my partner in case the so-called vaccines turns out to be a problem.
Perhaps I’ll even get to see if those spike proteins have any effect on me.
Fascinating times.
My
summer vacation has not gone as well as I had planned, I didn’t get to go
swimming for the first two months, and I wasn’t able to convince my partner to
just say no to the vaccine. Nevertheless, I apparently still have a job, and
I’m told that the swimming pool may open this week. Thus, as I’m now planning
to teach online, at home for the foreseeable future, perhaps I’ll be able to go
swimming every day. That would be cool.
While
there is much more that I could say (for the umpteenth time) about where we are
and where we’re heading, I feel that the time for talking is pretty much over.
It appears to me that a time of reckoning will soon be upon us, and I’m quite
sure I’ll have something to say about that.
As I change, my body changes,
as my body changes, I change. And while some of the changes are painful, I am
quite certain such changes are for the better overall. Recently, these changes or focus
of intent seem to be more body-centered and directed rather than something that I thought
out and planned from a conscious perspective.
For example, even though I
didn’t consciously decide to start eating like a vegetarian, I’ve begun eating
that way because it’s what my physical body has been clearly communicating. And
I didn’t just one day decide to stop drinking three cups of coffee per day. I stopped
one day when I had a stomach problem, and just never started back up again.
A while back I realized that
I had a stomach infection and I knew that in order to get better, I had to
immediately change what I was putting in my stomach. So I started just eating
fruits, vegetables, sometimes yogurt and occasionally an egg or two. Since that
point, I haven’t had any urges or desires to eat meat.
Not only have I reduced
the amount of food I eat, I’ve also reduced (by a much larger percent) the
amount of information I consume. I guess it’s like a mind, being, body process.
As I change, moving myself out of the mind, my body changes by becoming more
directive. As my body changes, my mind changes by moving more into more of a support role.
I guess I'm in an extended cleaning phase, eating ninety-five percent fruits and vegetables,
drinking lots of water, cutting out coffee almost completely and very rarely
drinking any beer. In reducing my weight, the toxins that used to be stored in
the body fat are now being flushed. This can be very painful and somewhat
dangerous if it happens too quickly. Thus I’m careful not to let myself lose
too much weight too quickly. Otherwise, the toxins, heavy metals and whatnot end
up getting caught in my joints resulting in pain and inflammation in those
areas. This requires balance, which requires remaining aware and focused.
Why am I doing this now? I guess that by reducing much of the stress that my mind
consciousness system had been placing on my physical body, I’ve also been
freeing up space for my beingness and body to step in.
Finally, it’s been four
and a half weeks since I had cataract surgery to replace the lens in my right
eye, and it’s wonderful to once again be seeing clearly after five years of
blurriness. Perhaps I’ll be able to take the whole summer off and go swimming
every day.
I do so appreciate being able to pack my
things into my car at the of every summer and go back to school just as I used
to, minus the distress that used to accompany me in terms of finances, having
to find a place to live, convincing the university to let me pay them later,
and so many more difficulties that used to make going back to school more like
a complex scam that I had to pull off rather than a youthful adventure. In
hindsight, I guess it was a little of both. Nowadays though, it’s all
opportunity.
For example, rather than positioning
myself to get as much as I can from the system (as I used to), I aim to
expressly give and receive unconditionally from the within to the without with
the intention of creating a free-flowing circle of life/living - from the within of
I/myself to the without as all of me. That’s my starting-point intention, the
design of which is as always, still a work in progress - as I process ego out of the design of myself.
On a side note (that I suddenly found myself
writing - until I stopped) I wonder if in terms of the whole of existence,
there is just one physical body that is all of “me” as the sum-total of
everything, and whereas “I” would simply be one location-point of awareness
within the cell I call “myself” in relation to the rest of the whole as “me.”
Yep, I guess, if you were to merge all of the dimensions together again and
eliminate all of the cell liners of separation, that’s what would be left, one
consisting of everything - which is how it was just before the beginning.
Anyway, having looked at, seen and written a
lot about many things, mostly just my ponderings, I once again realize how
utterly inverted everything has become - and thankfully, I’m not the only one that sees this. I have always enjoyed hanging out with the country folk and the
mountain people because, whereas their comprehension of the system often seems more limited, they also often seem to have more of a certain wisdom about them that I rarely
ever see in the higher echelons of the world system.
For example, the other day
in a meeting, I curiously asked my boss about what the people in the top levels
of the system think about this virus, do they really believe that it’s a deadly
biological threat to us all? His reply, they think it is much, much worse. Now
contrast this with my day to day reality.
In returning to school during the pre-arrival
week, as I was approaching one of the buildings to go to the office, I stopped
to enjoy the large crowds of students all gathered together socializing and
watching groups of other students perform various cultural dances. After
finishing the Google form and getting the Ok to enter the building, I realized
that I hadn’t yet put on a face mask - because most of the hundreds of other
people were also not wearing one. So I asked the woman, do I need to put on a
face mask to enter the building? The woman replied, “no, that rule won’t start
until next week.”
And now I’m going for a walk in the hills.
When I came back, the farmer in the video above gave me some fruit
that he and his wife had just picked.
