The Unseen Enemy Revealed in a Dream

I dreamt of being in a town controlled by an entity that was feeding off of the energy of the town’s people, absorbing their life essence as the people fought among themselves in the hopes of gaining (interestingly) more power. As I was moving through the town, I walked by a crowd of mostly young people in their twenties making their way  towards what reminded me of a fraternity house.

Someone in the crowd spotted me as an outsider and decided to target me to be bullied and abused.  In looking back at this point (going deeper into the layers of the memory so to speak) and asking myself who these people were,  it was as though their nature, lacking purpose, yet not in itself intrinsically evil, did not  match the callousness of what they were attempting to do. As though they were doing what they thought they were supposed to do without actually knowing what it was they were doing or why they were doing it. Off hand, I would call that “group think,” but in reality (after rewriting this several times, pushing myself to locate ideas, judgments, projections and take complete responsibility for everything (it is after all, my dream),  I’m starting to see (in terms of the human situation) that this point of knowing something has to be done, but not knowing exactly what to do, applies to me, too. I guess it applies to a lot of us: consequence is after all something that must first be walked through before something better is able to be created.

As if attempting to frighten me, they began to encircle me and then one of them  began to attack me. I wasn’t frightened or even the least bit reactive emotionally and I easily brushed him aside and didn’t even bother to fight back. However, the moment he hit me in the chin, I did fight back; and in looking back at this point, I noticed that a very  interesting thing happened to the attacker - at least in my eyes.

As soon as I stood up to him, he physically shrunk (in dream terms) to a third of his original size, whereupon I knocked him to the ground, grabbed both of his legs with one hand and was about to smash him down onto the ground, when suddenly the ground became a chalice and his body transformed (like a bursting water balloon) into but about a half of cup of liquid energy that fell into the chalice that was immediately swooped up and gulped down by the unseen entity.

In shifting my view, the scene had changed and I found myself in the basement of that house, looking at what appeared to be a shallow pit dug like an oversized grave into the earthen floor. At the bottom of the pit, sitting upright and leaning back against a dirt wall was something that reminded me of one of those horror-movie monsters that fed on the souls of people who would then become part of that thing as it grew. And it had offspring or baby things growing on it like warts attached to its skin.

It looked at me, acknowledged my presence and with a wave of its arm, as though to welcome me to “all of this,” it telepathically communicated that I was welcome to remain - as one of them (a consumer rather than the consumed). It looked at me as though it knew me from the past. Then I woke up and immediately noted that this dream and that particular entity represents the unseen entity or enemy that I’ve been referring to and thinking a lot about.

In analyzing this dream, bringing everything back to me, the first point I noticed was the complete absence of emotion - nothing coming up inside of me. Which is cool because in many past dreams, whenever I became frightened or felt threatened, I would almost always end up destroying/crushing/obliterating that  which I feared or reacted to, which occasionally left me wondering who the monster actually was.

In this particular dream, it is also relevant that the entity invited me to join the party just after I had obliterated that which I had deemed a threat, thereby feeding, sustaining and dare I say, even creating the very energetic entity or idea of something “out there” to blame for the domino like breakdown of society that seems to be spreading throughout humanity.

For example, in writing about how the overlords via their minions at Facebook and Google threaten human civilization with their corporate censorship and numerous other evil deeds, what I’ve really been doing without quite knowing (on a conscious level) what I’ve been doing, is casting out my power (via the pointed finger of blame) in the direction of that which I blamed, thereby giving up my power to that which I blamed, thereby abdicating my responsibility, as the ability to respond as human authority  equally as one with every other human. See, I and everyone else require to understand completely, is that no one is coming to save us, not God, not Jesus and certainly not the ET’s, because no one but is able to - which is why we’ve gotta do it ourselves. And until we stop pointing our fingers to the left and the right, things are just going to get worse. 

In terms of symbolism (after honestly decoding this dream), I see that while I really have made tremendous strides in stopping energetic reactions or emotions, I still have work to do on the point of responding rather than reacting to movement within my environment. Specifically, I still require to completely stop judging myself as being threatened by those unto which I disagree.  The key is to stand as a point of harmony even in the midst of chaos; and this is kind of how I perceive everyone is able to eventually stand - as a point of harmony by embracing and living the principles of oneness, equality and what is best for all. The path to walk is the path we create as the point of self-creation as is best for all.

In summary, the most important lesson and realization of this dream has to do with the so-called unseen enemy that I and many others have been referring to. While I guess that there are quite a lot of things “out there,” none of it even holds a candle to the real enemy or threat to humanity that feeds off of us every time I/we point our fingers at something else as being the cause, instead of taking unconditional responsibility within and as ourselves for that same exact point. Even in my dream, there was nothing inherently evil about that entity and the only reason it existed was because I had created it and was still feeding it. Not at all what I had expected would come of analysing this dream. That being said, as the saying goes, know thyself.

What to Right?

Although I meant to title this, "What to write?"as I wrote it out, the word became “right” because that is perhaps what I really wanted to say.  As I've often stated, I use such words interchangeably and sometimes I even wonder why we even bother to spell such words differently.

When I write the words, I right myself. Or should I say, when I right myself, I write the words? Or how about, when I right/write the words, I write/right myself. And how could I forget the Wright brothers - especially when, as I was writing or righting the previous sentence, I spelled the word, wright instead of write or right. For me, the spelling is different, yet as it sounds’ the same, so too must its meaning be basically the same. Which brings me to another point that I so enjoy staying over and over again to so many students: don’t worry about your grammar or spelling; just write the words as they come out; for as you write the words, so too will you right yourself. What is point in all of this? I’m sure yet; however, I am certain of why I am writing - to write myself.

This morning before awakening, I had a dream that I was a teacher. Actually, it was more that I was a teacher in training. I was talking to one of my teachers, explaining to her that, while I was learning, I was also already teaching. Then, a student of mine appeared in a wheelchair with a breathing device attached to it to essentially keep the young man alive by breathing for him. The scene changed and I noticed that the young man had disconnected the breathing device to disconnect himself from this life. Although I knew that this choice was ultimately his to make, I also knew that it would be a mistake. So I began to speak to him of why he should reconnect his breathing device, push through the hardships and stay connected to this life. Although it is hard, I said and there is not yet any light to be seen at the end of the tunnel, as you push through, things will change, the technology will get better and eventually you will be through. It is just a matter of pushing and pushing until you are through.

The dream ended and as I awoke, I knew that I was the one in the wheelchair, connected to the breathing device as well as the teacher teaching and also the one giving me advice. It also appears that I am still defining myself as wheelchair bound and on life support. Furthermore, in looking at the word “through,” I see that it has always been within and as me a word that I utilize to support myself to keep on walking. No matter how difficult the path may appear, it is always only a matter of taking the next step to eventually walk on through. And this is the message I will take with me from the dream.

On a related topic, yesterday, as I walk through the park with my partner, I noticed her becoming irritated, a point that I immediately brought back to myself to take responsibility for who I was in that moment. In shifting to observer/participant, looking into internal reality while also participating in the external reality, I could see that my view from within had darkened and was becoming physically painful. In backtracking from the tonality of the words that I could hear myself speaking, I was also able to see that my starting point as the directive principle was being consumed and diminished increasingly by emotion in reaction to my partner. The tonality of my words, the nature of my thoughts and let’s not forget the blame and projection that were starting to come through from the nature of such thoughts. These are points that I’ve learned to flag and to push myself through to live the principle of what is best for all, which equals doing unto others as I would have others do unto me if they were standing in my shoes and I in theirs. From that point, I knew that I had to reconnect with my life support as my self-directedness in order to push through and return to self-directedness.

For me, one of the most difficult aspects of living of in real time the principle of what is best for all is that of pushing through my energetic illusion of righteousness. In looking back into my mind at some of the times that I’ve faced this point, it’s as if I am surrounded by a  dense wall of a thick, dark substance embedded with the noise of pictures, emotions and sentences of blame as justification for me to stand my ground and fight for my right to have a harmonious external reality. When in the reality (of what is physically here), all I actually require to do is push through the dark, slimy, nasty, irritating black goo (of myself) until I am through to see the physically reality as one with me, not good or bad - simply what is here. Strange as it may sound,  pushing through the illusion of the dark, slimy, nasty, irritating goo (blinding us from seeing what is actually here) is simply a matter of pushing through the illusion of the virtual-reality of our own minds.

Accordingly, the problem is not the physical reality in and of itself, but the energetic definitions that we  create in our minds and then attempt to walk through our days dealing with  what is here, without realizing that we’re looking through virtual reality goggles of our own minds. Once we realize that and determine to change our views, it then becomes a matter of pushing through the goo. However, as pushing through the goo does not in and of itself ever seem to get easier, the solution, as I see it, is to eliminate the goo altogether and never allow myself to create such a mess ever again.

Fear of Authority = a Lack of Self Trust

Authority is a point that I’ve been working on for a long time now. I have been making progress, lots of progress. However, I’ve once again come to realize that there are parts of me that this point is created of, that I’ve not yet completely dealt with. I’m not even sure where the fear of authority comes from, I only know that I’ve always feared being caught up or entangled in such lines.

These days, even though time seems to slowing, so much still seems to be happening - even in such a short time. While I still seem to be dealing with so many points.  As soon as I think I’ve dealt with one point, another one pops up and sometimes it’s actually of the same point. I’m not complaining though, for that would just be another point that I would have to deal with. Instead I let go of the desire to complain, cry or blame, and I just keep on walking my process from consciousness to awareness, often falling, yet always getting up and occasionally remembering to look back and say thank you to all that made it possible and plausible for me to walk through such points - even if I have not yet completely seen  them all through.

In terms of the point of authority (over me), I’ve been whittling it down, line by line to see, realize and understand that everything,  without exception, always eventually comes back to me. For example, wherein  I once viewed many of the situations that I gotten myself into, as though I were the one being victimized, I now begin to see through a different set of eyes, the physical eyes of self-creation, wherein everything that I am able to view (in the physical reality) is actually a point self-responsibility. Believe it or not, this way of looking at things, actually simplifies things tremendously. For example, when it comes to self-responsibility, I no longer feel the need to sift through all of the event lines in order to decide which ones are my responsibility and which ones  I can cast onto another by pointing my finger in blame. Instead, I now accept responsibility for them all. I know that this might sound really crappy to some; however, in taking self-responsibility for everything, I not only give myself the power to change myself in every way in relation to everything, but I also give myself the authority to do so.

Here is an important key that I now begin to understand in relation to changing myself. Specifically (as it relates to authority), in fearing authority, I have actually been fearing myself for lack of enough self trust to place in my hands alone, complet responsibility for who I am or how I stand in relation to everything else. Thus, the point that I had once believed was a fear of authority has actually always been a fear of taking self responsibility, for a lack of self trust = a fear of myself. Herein, I now see, realize and understand that the real point that I require to work on and develop is that of self trust.

When and as I find myself thinking about the future (in fear of the future), I commit to bring all points back to myself and, in taking complete responsibility always for who I am and who I will be, I commit to gift unto myself absolute self trust.

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Continuing with Self Responsibility & Toning Down Emotions

You know I used to think or believe that I could write on subjects such as Responsibility and put everything into one post. I used to believe that I could put it all into one page, one sentence and even one word. Honesty, I am still 100% certain that I/we are able to put all our communications of a moment into one word or one sound, I’m just not quite sure how to do that right now.  Thus, I focus on what I do understand right now, the process of writing it all out, forgiving myself and rearranging the sentences into guidelines of commitments to walk and live. Which, once again brings me  back to this all encompassing topic called self-responsibility.

In my last post, I wrote about how instead of taking my mind’s cue and fueling the emotions of people around me, I directed myself to speak, move or stand from a starting-point intention of toning down the emotional energy of the environment. In looking some more at this point, I see that,  instead taking the bait (of other minds) and counter attacking or arguing back, I   lowered my guard (metaphorically speaking) and stood there at the receiving end of the energy/emotions that were being targeted at me. Strangely enough, I actually even began singing (if you can call it that), basically letting out a various sounds as though I were attempting to background melody for the chorus. I’m not sure that it did any good, but it certainly didn’t fuel the fire any more. I think perhaps it has something to do with commitments I’ve written to stand as a sound of harmony for the purpose of harmonizing my environment. Or perhaps, I just lacked the right words, the living words. Hmm.

Anyway, while standing on the targeted end of an outpouring of emotion, I also noticed a familiar self-definition arising from within me. To put it into words, this definition was saying to me, “hey, you’re being abused and it’s not only your right, but your duty to retaliate and put these people in their places.” Thankfully though, I didn’t allow myself to embrace and become that definition, but even though it only lasted only for a moment, a strangeness, like an echo of uneasiness still lingered within me for part of the day. It was as though that particular moment were to have been a cause of uneasiness due to bad relations that were to have been created between me and a couple of people in the office. The only thing is that the moment didn’t playout as it as per the usual program.

The point that I wanted to make here in relation to self-responsibility is that, sometimes (as one is able), it may be supportive to stand for a moment on the so-called receiving end of high pitched discord. Actually, it’s not  even the “receiving end,” as long as we simply let the energy run its course, going right through us without getting hung up on any self definitions. Furthermore, I also realize that even though it might appear to some as though the one remaining stable and not retaliating is being abused, it’s not actually abusive to the stable one due to the stability creating a kind of harmony of mind, being and body - ideally.

Here I am not now suggesting that we should all go around allowing ourselves to be yelled at and screamed at all the time. Merely that there will be times when people around us become emotional and even possessed. In such times, I now see that the best I am able to do for myself, others and my immediate environment as a whole is to remain stable, non confrontational and non aggressive so as to let emotions run their course without retaliating and making the situation worse. In doing this the other day in relation to some people in my office, I see that, not only did I prevent the situation from getting worse, but (from my perspective) I also assisted and supported others as well as myself in my work environment.

Finally, the coolest thing about this episode, experience or moment is that, except for that tiny bit of self definition of feeling as though I deserved to retaliate (a point of my personal process), I didn’t experience any pain (as I might have in the past) in relation to the energy that was being aimed at me. Very interesting.

investigating Ultimate Self Responsibility

The word ultimate in relation to self responsibility is specific in that it leaves no room for excuses whatsoever. From here, responsibility takes on a whole new meaning, one that I’ve been  able to imagine, yet still do not see or understand the path to it. Therefore, I guess it’s something that I have to design myself in order to live it. Thankfully, I have come to realize that I am able to design or write the path that I care to walk and then walk to understand and live it.

The main point that I’ve begun to see in relation to ultimate self responsibility is that it begins at each entry point or the beginning of a new moment or situation. Furthermore, if that point of self responsibility is missed, even if it is just one little tiny point, it can actually fuck up things  way down the line. It’s kind of like trying to save a little money or time by using one cheap part in a complicated piece of hitec equipment, causing the whole thing becomes worthless due to skimping on that one point or part.

Thus, being more responsible requires that we pay more attention to the small points which always go on to make up the big. Therefore, it’s only common sense to take notice of the small questions or irregularities and to catch and correct them as soon as possible, least one of them leads to a mistake or flaw in the overall moment. Herein, I see that I if really care to take responsibility for each moment, each one of the small “physical” details that make up each moment requires my attention - even if it’s only for a quantum moment.

The reason I’m writing about this is because I’ve begun to notice a pattern in relation to people around me that have occasionally made mistakes or had mishaps. Specifically, there have been times when someone in relation to me had a problem that I had seen coming, yet didn’t say anything about it because I (for lack of a better word) was selfish. In other words, in the past, whereas in seeing a possible problem, I might have moved myself out of harm’s way, I wouldn’t necessarily have warned the other by clearly pointing it out to the other.  Basically, I would pay attention and adjust my behavior, yet I wouldn’t necessarily have extended my personal responsibility (or care) to those my environment.

Thus, I now see that, along with paying attention to the little things in/as each environment, my responsibility in each moment also extends to all that make up my environment. Why? Because I am equally as one a part of my environment, just as it is a part of me.  Think about it. If my environment suffers, so do I. Therefore, just as I am equally as one responsible for each environment or moment that I enter into, so too are we all as parts of our environments equally responsible for one another. Specifically, in each moment that each of us spend or live as one of the environment, each of us is equally as one responsible for everything and everyone else in that environment to the extent that each one is able to respond. Remember that, as responsibility = the ability to respond,  the more one is able to respond, the more responsibility that he or she will have - due to his or her ability to respond.

So, I will end this post here by recapping what I am learning in terms of responsibility - from zero to the ultimate standing.

Firstly, responsibility begins with each new entrypoint or moment of entering into a new environment.

Secondly, as it is the small points that make up the whole or entire moment within and as each environment, equal consideration for each point is essential to ensuring that each moment within/as each environment flows harmoniously unto the next moment/environment.

Finally, it is also important to remember that, points also refer to people in various states of awareness. One of my major mistakes throughout my life has often been to assume that whatever I was aware of so too were they. I now see that this is not always the case and it goes both ways. Herein, when and as I find myself noticing something wrong in the small of a moment, I commit to point it out. Furthermore, when and as I find myself uncertain of a point, I commit to self-honesty speak out and question it.