When
I first began looking at the word, consideration with the intention of
redefining it into a living word, a word that I am able to physically live (as
a physical doing) in relation to and in support of myself and all others, I
ended up basically projecting it onto my
reality from a point of superiority, as though consideration “in its proper
definition” were something that I gave or did unto others based on my
assessments of “their” situations, needs, flaws and so on - kind of like
justifying my judgment of myself as superior, them as inferior and then pushing
myself to be kinder to them, supposedly in consideration for them. Well, as my
first attempts to redefine and live the word “consideration” didn’t work out so
well, I’m back at it.
In
looking back, I initially felt quite good about myself, magnanimous to be
precise. However, the more I experimented with my newly designed application of
consideration, the more I began to
notice that the feedback I was getting from others was not of consideration for
them, but of opposition and in some cases condescension towards me from a point
of righteousness. I was like, where the hell is that coming from?
Well,
if there’s one thing I’ve learned from the Desteni I Process
about myself and self-change, it’s that all my internal experiences, thoughts,
feelings, emotions, etc., actually
originate from within myself based on how I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
define and be defined by the ups and downs of energetic experiences infinitely
cycling back and forth between the positive and negative. Yea, being a human
“being” really is insane; however, as we are each also within and as the human
“physical” bodies of “mankind,” we therefore also have the unique opportunity
to change ourselves once and for all by redefining ourselves into and as living
words - as was apparently suggested thousands of years ago.
Getting
back to consideration: in noticing myself reacting as though someone were
righteously condescending towards me while I was attempting to be considerate
in relation to them, I realized that I had to step back for a moment and
investigate what had gone wrong with my redefined application of the word,
consideration.
As
it turns out, I hadn’t really redefined “consideration” at all. Instead, I had
just inserted that word into the definition of other words that I had
redefined, which as far as the AI of the mind consciousness system was
concerned, amounted to little more than an obstacle that it could simply go around
- kind of like an “if this then perhaps that” program reroute...
Almost
two weeks since I began writing this post and after writing out and discussing
this point with another person, editing what I had written and writing some
more, I still think I’m thinking a little two much into it - as though
consideration has to be some magic formula or instruction to deprogram me with,
instead of a kind of empathy wherein I imagine myself standing in the shoes of
another for the purpose of deciding how best to relate to the other based on my
understanding as well as my perception of where we are.
I
guess that, consideration (of myself as well as another) simply involves
self-honestly looking into me to see if and where I am participating in any
form of judgment, letting go of those points of judgment for a moment to
consider or imagine (as a form of empathy) how I might care to have someone
stand in relation to me if I were standing in that person’s shoes.
Consideration:
● Practically utilizing my mind
consciousness system (as a form of empathy) to decide how best to stand in
relation to others.
○ First, I look into me to see
if and where I am holding onto and/or creating points of judgment and then I
let go of that judgment.
○ Secondly, I empathize or imagine myself standing in their shoes
within and as the question, how would I care to be assisted and supported if I
were standing in their shoes?
○ Finally, I physically stand
as that point of consideration in relation to another/others; herein becoming
the living word, consideration.
I’ll
put this word to the test and report my results in a later blog post.
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