An Interesting Physical Experience

 

Recently, I had an interesting experience, wherein I felt as though my whole body had suddenly filled up to the brim with liquid energy, like I had just become a plasma power-cell in the ready. In looking back at the memory-moment that I had recorded during that moment (as both an observer and director of my physical body), it was as though everything of my body except for my skin, suddenly transformed into something like a bloated wineskin filled to the brim with liquid energy — in the shape of my physical body. Metaphorically speaking, I felt kind of like a fully charged photon cannon battery, without the cannon.

 The trigger point for all of this, which I notice also kind of tainted what I guess could have been a full on physical expression (of something that I don’t have a name for), was my polarized definition of the word insult. Fortunately, though, rather than going from that polarized definition, through the sequence of desire, fear, etc., I instead immediately decided to utilize that point as an opportunity to open up a box of information that I had been storing and/or suppressing inside of me — to more or less sound it out of me.

 The experience felt as though I was internally radiating liquid light (the hue of a slightly overcast day) while I was also intentionally focusing on remaining stable (which I noticed also seemed to coincide with an undercurrent impulsing intention to remain stable) so as not to lace or intertwine energy/emotion into the words that I was speaking and/or sounding out, so as not to cause harm to my environment by triggering reactions.

 That was my awareness of what was happening in the moment, and I did remain stable in sounding out what I intended to get out of me. And just as interesting, as soon as I had finished speaking, the energy (or whatever it was) immediately dissipated without any lingering aftereffects — aside from a slight physical tingling sensation that lingered for a couple of hours. I guess that this has something to do with the physical process and I’ll write a follow up post when and if I have something more to add. I will also look into the words insult and insulting.