Goals and Potential

One of the points that I’ve been focusing on in relation to setting goals is my potential - because I guess, actually I’m certain that one’s goals ought to be aligned in a step by step manner to one’s utmost potential, which from my perspective is quite daunting. And while I used to think that I needed someone else to tell me what my mission and potential were in order for me to set and accomplish my goals, live my potential, I now see that only I am able to determine my goals, set them and live to my utmost potential.

In other words, while others may be able to assist and support by pointing out various paths and even some doors that one might open and walk through (to realize the opportunity created just by walking through the door), I think that the goals we set as well as the potential we live is a product that emerges from within each one of us as per the decisions we make and the responsibilities we each embrace.

Sorry, I went off track again and basically just deleted a bunch of stuff, fun stuff in relation to what’s going on in the world system.

Anyway, in deciding to write about my goals and my potential, I keep finding myself attempting to write technical explanations about potential, the triangle of potential of two or more to be specific, writing around what I promised myself I would actually write about instead of just getting to the point. It’s funny how I am so willing (to the point that I often find it enjoyable) to use words or symbols as technical explanations that I write out again and again until the sentences begin to equate to a balanced sound, in  a way symbolically answering a question, solving the problem and/or at least proving to myself that I’m on the right track, which I guess is just my way of figuring things out. On the other hand, it’s also quite amazing the amount of resistance I usually encounter by attempting to simply state what I’m pushing myself to do, in this case in terms of setting goals and living my potential.

So here goes: in short, I have come to realize and I have decided (as a doing) that, in order for me to live my potential (or anyone else for that matter), I require to connect and communicate a lot more with others. There, I said it! And the connecting part is key for me. Because in order for me to connect and communicate with others requires (from within myself) a certain amount of self-trust, which is something that I had in the past been seriously lacking.

What has changed? I have. And although I have many more changes and/or processes to walk to change some more, I now have within and as myself a firm set of guidelines or words to live so to speak, which I’ve personally designed to utilize in relation to others/all as my guide in deciding how best to relate to others while walking through the old system and participating in the creation of the new - as a point of self-trust, expanding myself in connection with others, learning to trust myself and expanding that trust in relation to  others.   And I’m moving some goals that I had originally set to accomplish in the future, more to the present. For me, this is quite exciting.

Seeing the Playouts and Solidifying my Goals

The reason I used the word, solidifying (as in to solidify or make solid) is because in order to become the movement to reach a goal, I think I have to understand the goal as one with who I am. Otherwise, I’ll just be attempting to push myself to do or accomplish something because I think it’s worth doing and is therefore something I should be doing, which in and of itself is probably not enough, which is why self-change from the within to the without is the one key to changing all of existence.

But first I would like to speak about something I’ve been talking about more and more these days, which  has to do with the way I sometimes become aware  of a program just before walking into and becoming it, literally giving myself like a quantum moment in which to make the decision to redirect myself away from that line of preprogrammed emotional reaction to a physical solution.  The reason I say “physical” solution is because that’s what movement out of and away from a programmed line of energy building up to an emotional reaction is (a physical movement or shift within one’s physical body) and what is indeed required  to correct one’s self in such a moment. Add to this movement or shift, the starting-point/intention to align or create a new outflow that is best for all involved and that movement or shift will then hold within (and as the essence of one’s movement) the potential to become a solution = that which is best for all involved.

For example, last week while I was teaching one of my classes, one of the many new ones that I have this semester, I found myself in a hurry, urging students to just write and get their blogs posted rather than walking with them  step by step through the process of how to write and post their blogs. In looking back, I see that the reason I wasn’t walking them through an easy to follow process of writing and posting a topic based blog was because I wasn’t certain what I wanted this new class's blogs to look like. I figured that we would just do it together and learn to do it as we did it, which is cool. However, what is not cool is that I let myself go into a hurry up and just get it done mode.

So as I was walking through the class encouraging students to write to learn how to write, I came across one girl who appeared to not even be trying. So I said to her, what are you doing, just click on that link, copy the format into a new blog post and… She just looked blankly at me and said, I don’t understand - which turned out to be the trigger for a program that I had thought no longer existed within me.

Suddenly, as if time had stopped for a moment, I was seeing inside of myself to the left of my stomach area, looking at a metallic like tubular shaped vacuum with a see through enclosure. Inside the enclosure was the experience that I was about to go into and I was even able to see or at least understand the first 5-10 seconds of the scene of the energetic reaction that I was about to become and playout. And this all happened in 2 or 3 seconds.

And just as suddenly (having made a decision not to go there) I was physically moving myself (almost as though I was taking a left turn away from that scene) away from that area in the middle of the classroom to the front of the classroom, wherein I began patiently explaining everything again step by step while showing the whole class exactly what we were doing and how to do it. And as I was doing this, I was also able to notice how many other students had also not understood the assignment.  And in that moment, I thought to myself, this is the way I would always like to be.

So how does this tie into solidifying my goals? Well, as everything is connected and defined by the relation (ship) lines that bind us together as one experiencing ourselves as many, I guess... I’m not really sure.

However, I will say that I have decided to push myself closer to others so as to work with and cooperate better with others as a process of practicing to understand unconditionally giving as well as unconditionally receiving, which is perhaps the next topic I’ll write about. And once again, I would like to thank the whales and/or whatever part of me, of existence for assisting me to see these playouts and make the decision not to go into them - before getting caught up in them.

Finally, it’s interesting how old programming diminishes, but doesn’t really disappear - which is once again why it’s necessary to always remain present/here.

Continuing with gOALs

Goals and becoming more goal oriented: when I looked at this point and consciously acknowledged that I didn’t really have much in the way of goals to achieve beyond that which I’ve already loosely set for myself based on where I am now, the direction I’m currently heading and a long term mission that I’ve given myself that may or may not be relevant (depending on a whole lot of variables), I also had to acknowledge that I had deliberately limited myself in terms of concrete goals to reach for, so as not to put too much pressure on myself. 

Why? Funny, my first instinct was to come up with one of those wise sounding sayings evoking an image of the expansive unknown - which is also difficult to argue against. However, I guess it's really just because I’ve finally reached a point in my life where I honestly like where I am. I like where I’m heading and I like that I’m finally directing my life, rather than just struggling to stay afloat as I feel I had been doing since I was 7 or 8 years old and, and, and, and... Hells bells, many others must “feel it, an impending sense of uncertainty bordering on a sense of dread permeating throughout humanity.

While some are attempting to define this sense of dread, once again in terms of ecological annihilation in order to squeeze just a little more fear out of the people in a last ditch effort to hold on to their control of the narrative that has been steadily slipping from their grasp, I would honestly have to say that nature is flourishing like never before - just the way I see it. 

However, I too feel an impending sense that major structural changes are in the works. A restructuring of sorts is the only way to describe what I see taking place within and around planet earth. It’s as though so many points are finally coming together everywhere; and while some of these points are merging, some are also in the process of colliding in a big way, which I guess will result in the destruction of large sections or industries of the old world system collapsing into heaps of dust so as to give way to the new.

Thus while I have things that “I” consider important still to accomplish in this lifetime, I’m finding it somewhat difficult to define them. Strangely enough, this is due I think to my uncertainty of a future, how everything’s going to look when the dust settles. It’s as though Heaven’s program is finally, finally, finally coming to an end and getting ready to shut down, which in itself is perhaps exactly I/we require to set some new goals. Goals are useful to maintain one’s course and keep pushing to establish a new foundation for humanity, based on the principles of equality, oneness and what is best for all - the best course for sure. 

Because the next chapter of our story isn’t going to write itself. Once the current system comes down (a point that is accelerating), we will have another new window of opportunity (requiring the setting and reaching of lots of goals) not only to solidify the course correction of humanity/mankind, but also to establish a solid foundation (based on the principles of oneness, equality, what is best for all) from which all may finally have the opportunity to create in ways that we never imagined. 

Cool! I see that in writing and rewriting this point, the questions as well as my quest (of goals to set) begins to come into focus. So, I will leave this here for now and pick it up in the next post with some concrete goals.

gOaLs

Recently when someone mentioned “becoming more goal oriented” to me, I thought to myself, how can I become more goal orientated when I don’t really even have any goals? Of course, I’ve got the standard stuff that I’d like to see, such as world peace, an education system that actually educates to the benefit of students rather than brainwashing and indoctrinating them, governments that really are of the people by the people and for everyone, a world free of GMOs, pesticides and pharmaceutical toxins, clean oceans, rivers and lakes, an equal money system, all beings coexisting in harmony with one another and of course unobstructed interstellar access for all.

So here I am back to this idea of becoming more goal oriented, which I agree is a point that I’m able and ready now to utilize in order to keep moving so to speak. Because even though I am still in the process of solidifying into and as a way of living the goals that I set some years ago as process points of self-change, I realize that I have indeed accomplished these goals to the extent that I am essentially in the living phase of manifesting or solidifying them into and as the substance of what I am.

An interesting note here that just came up has to do with the key to actually solidifying self- change. Even though I’ve essentially deactivated so many lines of programming (that had been running my life) and rewritten so many new lines of instructions as a guide for me to live, I still require to remain here directing myself in every moment. It’s kind of like driving a car through crowded city streets, even one lapse of focus can end in catastrophe.

For example, yesterday while in class with a group of first year students, I noticed them looking at me with these “what the hell is he talking about” expressions on their faces. With a classroom computer not working, an air conditioning that wouldn’t turn on and me just wanting to get the hell out of there for the three day holiday weekend, I ended up going into an energetic-mind hurry mode which apparently also opened the door for an irritation goo to ooze its way up around me. I could see that goo coming up, yet instead of just stopping, breathing and clearing myself of it, I continued to hurry.

Suddenly there like an ether inside of me and all around me and in that moment (in like quantum time), I was inside of myself looking at this dark gray fog  that had  already filled the space of my body and was ready to ignite “in anger.” Then in that same moment (that was almost like existence giving me a breath) of looking inside of me, I simply stated as movement or shift “NO” and I was once again looking on the outside of me, this time with the intention to slow down. This time, I just started speaking Chinese and suddenly (lol) the faces of these new students softened with relief. It turns out that most of them simply had no idea what I was saying. The moral of the story: by accepting and allowing myself to go into an energetic hurry mode, I had also abdicated my self-directedness to an extent, which opened the door for more problems to creep in - showing me once again the importance of remaining here, breathing all of the time. Honestly, I think it was the whales that helped me out in this case. Thank you whales.

So getting back to becoming more goal oriented, aside from the main ones, like remaining self-directed, here all of the time, for which I still require to remain vigilant all the time, I guess there are ways of living that I am curious about and would like to understand and change myself to become. For example, I wonder what it would be like to “enjoy” communicating  with people from the starting-point of really caring to see  who they are rather than simply assessing their personality designs as matters to be dealt with in a caring way. In other words, I would like to actually find everyone interesting, which I’m sure I’m able to do, because everyone is unique. And I’m certain that this point would be an honorable trait to add to the way I am because I’ve seen it in others whom I consider to be honorable for the way they appear to unconditionally focus their attention to others by way of listening to them, here to see them.

Okay, so this is the first goal: as a matter of self-creation, I’m going to push myself to “enjoy” communicating with people from the starting point of seeing who they really are by unconditionally focusing my attention to them by way of listening to them, here to see them when communicating with them. And I guess I’m able to do this in communication with everything. I think this is a cool goal; however, I probably need to specify it a little more.